365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 194

Day 194 – Characters and their conversations

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Beyond the Final Word: Why Character Intentions Drive the Best Conversations in Fiction

“Dialogue should be a series of pitched battles in which the characters are trying to get what they want.”

Every fiction writer eventually encounters a scene where two characters are talking, yet the pages feel utterly lifeless. The exchange is grammatically correct, it moves the plot forward, and it delivers the necessary information. And yet, it bores the reader to tears.

Why? Because the characters are simply arriving at what they want to say, rather than wrestling with the turbulent, messy journey of how they get there.

To master the art of subtext and realistic human interaction, we can look to one of the 20th century’s most brilliant stylists. The celebrated Anglo-Irish novelist and short-story writer Elizabeth Bowen had profound insights into the architecture of conversation. Bowen understood that in great fiction, dialogue is rarely about the destination; it is about the struggle of intention.

In this post, we’ll explore why characters should focus more on what they intend to say rather than the tidy sentences they finally arrive at, drawing inspiration from Elizabeth Bowen’s literary philosophy.


The Elizabeth Bowen Perspective: Conversation as a Secret War

Elizabeth Bowen viewed the surface of life—and polite conversation especially—as a delicate, often deceptive crust over boiling depths. To Bowen, dialogue was never just an exchange of data. It was a social dance, a power struggle, a form of concealment, and an act of psychological warfare all at once.

In her critical writings and through the immaculate prose of novels like The Death of the Heart and The House in Paris, Bowen demonstrated that people rarely say exactly what they mean. Instead, they circle their desires. They hint, they deflect, they use small talk as a shield, and they weaponise silence.

When characters’ conversation is overly streamlined—when they immediately arrive at crisp, articulate summaries of their feelings—the psychological realism evaporates. Real people are hampered by pride, fear, social conditioning, and a lack of self-awareness.

Bowen’s characters speak not to deliver exposition, but to assert themselves against a hostile or indifferent world. The magic happens in the gap between what is intended and what is actually uttered.


What Happens When Characters “Arrive” Too Fast?

Let’s look at the two approaches: dialogue driven by arrival versus dialogue driven by intention.

The Trap of the “Arrival” Dialogue

When a writer focuses on what a character arrives at saying, the dialogue often falls into the trap of “on-the-nose” writing or pure exposition.

  • Example (Arrival):Mark: “I am leaving you because you never pay attention to my emotional needs, Sarah.” Sarah: “That’s not fair. I’ve been stressed about my mother’s illness, but if you’re going to be selfish, maybe we should break up.”

Why it fails: It’s efficient, but it feels robotic. Real human beings in the middle of a breakup rarely diagnose their relationship with the clinical precision of a marriage counsellor in the first three seconds. They are defending their egos, deflecting blame, and masking panic.

The Power of “Intention” Dialogue

When characters are driven by what they intend to say—the subtextual desire to wound, to plead, to hide, or to conquer—the conversation becomes a living, breathing thing.

  • Example (Intention):Mark slammed the refrigerator door harder than necessary, rattling the jars inside. “You leave that wet towel on the counter every single day.” Sarah didn’t look up from her phone. “Some of us have actual responsibilities outside of interior decorating, Mark.” Mark: “Right. Responsibilities. Must be nice.”

Why it works: Mark intends to say, “I feel neglected and invisible in this house,” but that requires vulnerability. Instead, he arrives at a petty complaint about a towel. Sarah intends to say, “Don’t make me feel guilty; I am drowning under pressure,” but she arrives at a counter-attack. The tension comes from the reader feeling the heavy, unspoken weight of their true intentions beneath the trivial words.


3 Ways to Apply Bowen’s Wisdom to Your Writing

If you want to shift your character conversations away from neat arrivals and toward messy, intention-driven power struggles, try these three techniques:

1. Give Every Character a Hidden Agenda

Before writing a scene, ask yourself: What does this character want from the other person by the end of this conversation?

  • Do they want validation?
  • Do they want to hide a secret?
  • Do they want to provoke a reaction without taking the blame for starting a fight?

When characters have an active internal agenda, their dialogue will naturally become evasive, tactical, and charged with subtext.

2. Interrupt the Thought Process

In real life, we edit ourselves mid-sentence. We start to say one thing, realise how it sounds, and pivot sharply.

  • Let your characters trail off.
  • Let them change subjects abruptly when they feel vulnerable.
  • Use action beats (gestures, glances, fidgeting) to show the friction between their brain and their mouth.

As Elizabeth Bowen showed us, the most telling moments in a conversation are often the things left unsaid, or the sentences that fracture before they can be completed.

3. Let Misunderstandings Breed Conflict

When characters are aiming for an intention rather than a neat conclusion, they will inevitably miss each other’s points. Character A is speaking from a place of fear; Character B is interpreting it as an attack.

This friction creates authentic dramatic irony. The reader understands the tragic or comedic mismatch between what the characters intend to communicate and how their words are actually landing.


Conclusion: Embrace the Mess

Great dialogue is never a straight line. It is a zigzag path of sidesteps, false starts, defensive maneuvers, and buried longings.

By following Elizabeth Bowen’s implicit advice—prioritising the volatile, underlying intentions of your characters over the neat, polished sentences they eventually arrive at—you will breathe authentic life into your scenes. Stop letting your characters say exactly what they mean right away. Let them struggle to say it, let them fail, and watch your fiction transform into something unforgettable.


What are your favourite examples of subtext-heavy dialogue in literature? How do you handle character intentions in your own writing? Let us know in the comments below!

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What I learned about writing – Everyday life is not always boring

The Unsung Epic: How Everyday Life Becomes Riveting Prose

“Drama is life with the dull bits cut out.”

It’s a line that resonates deeply with anyone who loves a good story. We crave the heightened stakes, the emotional rollercoasters, the twists and turns that define our favourite books, films, and series. But what if I told you that the “dull bits” aren’t always so dull? What if the real magic lies not in eliminating them, but in learning to see the drama hidden beneath their unassuming surface?

The challenge is enticing: Can we take everyday events and turn them into riveting prose? My answer, unequivocally, is yes. And in doing so, we don’t just write better stories; we learn to live a richer, more observant life.

Beyond Explosions: What Is Drama, Really?

First, let’s redefine “drama.” It’s not always grand gestures or world-ending stakes. At its core, drama is about conflict, tension, and emotion. It’s about a character wanting something and facing obstacles in getting it. It’s about choices, consequences, and the raw vulnerability of being human.

Consider that infamous “dull bits” pile: commuting, waiting in line, doing laundry, making coffee. On the surface, these are the unglamorous necessities of existence. But with a writer’s eye, they become potential stages for micro-dramas.

The Writer’s Superpower: Perspective and Pressure

The secret weapon for transforming the mundane is perspective. It’s about zooming in, acknowledging the internal monologue, and applying pressure.

  1. Zoom In: A spilled coffee isn’t just a stain; it’s the sudden, hot shock, the ruined shirt on the morning of a crucial presentation, the ripple effect of lateness. The drama isn’t the coffee itself, but what it means to the person experiencing it.
  2. Internal Monologue: We rarely share the full, rich narrative of our minds. What anxieties bubble up while waiting for a delayed train? What silent arguments play out as we fold a partner’s forgotten items? The internal world is a universe of untold stories, rife with hope, fear, regret, and determination.
  3. Apply Pressure: Take any everyday event and ask: What if something goes wrong? What if the stakes are slightly higher for this particular character?
    • The Commute: It’s not just a drive; it’s a desperate race against the clock to pick up a child from daycare before late fees kick in. The brake lights ahead aren’t just an inconvenience; they’re a physical manifestation of rising panic.
    • The Grocery Store: It’s not just a shopping trip; it’s the careful balancing act of an elderly person on a fixed income, trying to make healthy food last an entire week from a dwindling budget. Every price tag is a small, quiet battle.
    • The Awkward Conversation: It’s not just polite small talk; it’s a son trying to delicately broach a sensitive subject with his aging father, hoping to connect before it’s too late, fearing misinterpretation or dismissal.

Unearthing the Micro-Conflicts

Everyday life is brimming with small conflicts:

  • Person vs. Self: The internal debate over whether to speak up, to forgive, to take a risk, or to stick to the comfort of routine.
  • Person vs. Nature/Environment: The unexpected downpour when you forgot your umbrella, the power outage during a critical deadline, the unreliable public transport.
  • Person vs. Person (Subtle): The passive-aggressive note from a roommate, the slight that goes unaddressed, the unspoken tension across a dinner table, the small power plays in a queue.

These mini-struggles, when given the prose treatment, become relatable and powerful. They remind readers of their own quiet battles and hidden heroics.

The Art of Observation and Sensory Detail

To write riveting prose from the ordinary, you must become an exceptional observer.

  • What do you see? Not just objects, but the way light falls, the subtle expressions on faces, the wear and tear of time.
  • What do you hear? The hum of the refrigerator, the distant rumble of traffic, the specific cadence of a voice.
  • What do you feel? The cold ceramic of a mug, the ache in tired muscles, the prickle of irritation.
  • What do you smell and taste? The comforting aroma of baking bread, the metallic tang of fear, the bitterness of burnt toast.

These details ground your reader in the moment, making even the most mundane scene vivid and immersive.

So, Can We Do It?

Absolutely. By acknowledging the inherent drama in our struggles, choices, and interactions – no matter how small – we unlock a boundless reservoir of material. We aren’t cutting out the dull bits; we’re illuminating the hidden drama within them.

Next time you’re waiting in line, stuck in traffic, or simply watching the world go by, challenge yourself. What’s the story here? What’s at stake for the person beside you? What internal monologue is playing out in your own mind?

The world isn’t just a stage for grand narratives; it’s a collection of countless, intricate, and often riveting personal epics, waiting for us to notice, understand, and perhaps, to write them down.


What “dull bit” of your day do you think holds a hidden story? Share in the comments below!

365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 192/193

Days 192 and 193 – Writing exercise

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I woke to the sound of a very large explosion, yet it wasn’t exactly that; it was the blood-curdling scream that came after.

It wasn’t panic I felt in those few seconds of silence that followed the scream.  It was like I knew it was going to happen, and I could feel a sense of utter calm come over me.

I got out of bed and threw on the nearest clothes near me, then the coat at the back door where I had hung it the previous evening, and the torch I had left nearby in case I needed it.

I did.  It was still dark outside, but dawn would soon be here.  It was also cold, colder than it should be for the last days of winter.  At least it was not snowing.  Snow had a way of making things more difficult than they should be.

My first instinct was to go out via the back door.  Looking across the backyard, I could see other neighbours stirring, internal house lights going on.

From the front I could hear vehicles and then saw the kaleidoscope of red and blue flashing lights on police cars and the sound of an approaching fire engine.

I took in all the movement and sounds that carried on the night air, disjointed pieces of conversation, the murmur of people talking quietly as they headed towards their front gates.

I stepped down off the veranda and went up the side of the house, and as I came out at the front wall I could see the majority of activity was further down the street, outside, if I was not mistaken, the Johnson residence.

A few more steps and I was on the sidewalk, the full extent of the scene apparent.  The cars and truck were outside the Johnson place.

It was no surprise.

The police made regular visits because the Johnson children were prone to getting into trouble, a polite way of saying they were thieves, liars, bullies and troublemakers. 

Old man Johnson, the patriarch of the clan, had once greeted me with a hunting rifle.  To say he terrorised the neighbourhood was an understatement.

My next door neighbour was on his sidewalk, watching.  He had come out with a weapon ready to defend himself if necessary.

“It’s a war zone,” he said, shaking his head.

“I don’t see any bomb craters,” I said, thinking it might lighten the mood.

“I hear someone had enough of that family and tried to blow them up.”

Unlikely, but the neighbours, some at the end of their tether with the Johnson children, would be happy if that was the case.

Riley, my neighbour one house along from me but further away, came to join us.

He too has an opinion: “I hope those fools just blew up their basement meth lab, and they’re all dead.”

As he said it, three ambulances sped past on their way to the bomb/meth lab site.

“The Johnsons are just bad people, and I don’t believe they have either a meth lab or enemies that would want to blow them up.”

Mrs James from over the street came over.  She knew everything that happened in the street, sometimes before it happened.

“Herbert says it was a gas leak. Someone struck a match…”

It was a rational explanation, but then Herbert said that his garden had been overrun by aliens three mornings ago.  Saw them himself, he said, and had to fight them off with a samurai sword.

He’d been out before dawn sweeping the path with an old broom, brandishing it at an invisible enemy.

Herbert should be in a facility; such was the deterioration of his sanity.  In my last conversation with him, he asked me if I had seen the lizard people too.

Riley and Herbert were not talking at the moment, an innocent remark at the last block party getting under Riley’s skin.

“Herbert…”

I interrupted before he said something he would later regret, “I’ll go down and see what’s really going on.  I suspect it is probably something perfectly explainable, and we are all only too willing to call it something else.”

“I’d take care,” Foredyce, the man everyone loved to hate, simply because he had money he couldn’t explain adequately.  “I hear Johnson has the police in his back pocket.”

Odd that I thought, after leaving him, that it was more like he had the police in his back pocket.

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Seconds later I ran into a policeman who was setting up perimeter tape, the sort that had the words “Do Not Cross”.  He didn’t let me cross, so I stood against the tape as a personal act of defiance.

Two police cars had been angled so that traffic could not pass in the street, and the same was happening a hundred yards away.

Other police were shunting spectators back to their properties.  I was now one of about a dozen that had come to the line, people I recognised from block parties, but didn’t speak to often.

There were also people I didn’t know or recognise.

I think one was a reporter.  I had seen her photo in the paper, though I couldn’t be sure.  I looked around, but I couldn’t see the film crew she usually had in tow.

My cell phone vibrated; an incoming message.
“When they leave, come.”

I replied with the appropriate emoji and just got my phone back in my pocket before the reporter, or whoever she was, burrowed her way through the small group to end up next to me.  She hadn’t exactly tried to bump me out of the way, but I was going to defend my territory if she tried.

She had her cell phone in her hand, ear pods and a vacant expression.  If I was to guess, she was listening in on the police band.

She moved slightly, and I gently nudged back.

Her attention went from the broadcast to me, a scathing look.

“What are the police saying this is?” I asked, before she could remonstrate.

“What?”  Abrupt.  It reminded me of an article I’d read where she had been accused of being over zealous in the gathering of information, got her facts wrong, published and caused an innocent person trouble.

“What are the police saying?”

“Don’t you have better things to be doing than rubber necking?”

“And you do, barging your way like an out-of-control motor bus.”  It was the best I could come up with at short notice.

That was when I realised those who had been behind her had drifted away to find better vantage points.

“Of course, these clowns are news.”

“Those clowns are trouble.”

“More than you know.”

I’d noticed a woman talking to several police officers outside the front of the house, then scanning the rope line, and eventually stopping, and looking fiercely at me, or more likely the woman I was standing with.  A few more words with another officer, she started walking towards us.

“You have a friend in the police.”

“Not exactly.”

The woman gave me a glare and nodded to the woman beside me, then lifted the tape line.  I watched them walk along the perimeter until no one could overhear them.

I watched two paramedics come out with a gurney with a body bag on it, and then transfer the bag to the ambulance, then go back into the house.

One dead person.  How many were there?

The paramedics repeated the process four times, then they drove off.  Four collections.  Four dead, or four smuggled away.

I saw the reporter see the last person loaded, exchanged what I thought were heated words, then came back walking quickly.

She seemed annoyed.

“What did the cops say?”  I thought I’d ask.  I might get an answer.

“Nothing.  It was staged to get them away.  There’s an assassin coming, or already here; they don’t know.”

“More likely an angry mob of neighbours, me included.  I hope they’re not coming back.”

She shook her head then headed towards her car.  I guess she was going to follow the ambulance and see where they were being taken.

With the ambulance leaving, the police cars gradually left until there was only one, belonging to the local sheriff’s department.

The deputy was in the process of retrieving the perimeter tape.  The emergency, if it could be called that, was over. 

I knew him.  He had found one of my kids being a jackass at the mall and brought him home after giving him a warning.  He could have locked him up, but chose a less problematic way of dealing with the problem.  Telling us and we handed out the punishment.

“Ned.”

“Mr Raven.  Not a lot going on here now.”

“What happened?”

“County and federal stuff.  We just get to clean up the mess they left behind.”

“The Johnsons?”

“Best not to know.  They won’t be giving you or anyone around here any more trouble.”

“Dead.”

“Exactly, if you get my drift.”

In other words, taken away to end up in another town to annoy them.  I could hear in his tone that he would have preferred to shoot them.

“Good.”

“Trust me.  There’s nothing more to see.”

“Is it alright if I go and see where some of my tools Johnson borrowed are?  If he’s not coming back, he won’t need them.”

“No.  I guess you’re right.”  He shrugged.  “I can’t see why not.  The place is empty; just try not to touch anything that’s not yours.”

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I didn’t go via the front.  There were still a few people waiting, for what, though, was not clear, but perhaps they thought the Johnsons might come back.

Instead, there was an alley behind that line of properties, recently built as our estate got bigger, with our road the closest to the farming land behind it.

The man who had owned it had sold a few acres to raise funds to keep the farm going.  It wouldn’t be for much longer; a local businessman was planning a much larger housing development with a mall and a public park ready for the influx of workers needed for a huge distribution centre.

That was a more interesting story than the Johnsons; the centre was looking to use robots built at a high-tech robot assembly plant nearby, part of a technology park.

Maybe.

All manner of propositions were being tossed about by local politicians, each claiming they were saving our town.

At the back fence line to the Johnsons’ property, I peered through the crack in the fence, the one I think they used to keep an eye on people, saw no one in the rear yard and went in.

It was a short distance from the back fence to the rear veranda, and once inside the structure, built to add more space to the house to have outdoor cooked meals in summer and keep dry and warm in winter.

I waited and listened to see if there was anyone still in the house.  Peering through the kitchen windows, overlooking the veranda, I couldn’t see anyone, but they had left the lights on when they left.

I let five minutes pass, then knocked.  Not loudly, just enough that if there was anyone inside they’d hear it.

Someone did; a moment later the back door opened slightly and a hissed, “get in here,” was issued.

I just got through the door when it was closed again. A woman old enough to be my daughter was standing by the door, out of line of sight.

“You took your time.”

“It was just a little busy out there.  Are you ready?”

“I was never ready for this.  He sure as hell didn’t tell me his father was a rat, and we would be dragged across the country because of his mistakes.”

I got a call about a week ago from my sister, who lives on the other side of the country.  Her daughter had married the son of a CEO.  She had always maintained there was something odd about him, and when he had to go into hiding, it confirmed her suspicions.

She had just learned that her daughter had moved to my city, and asked her mother for help to get away from them.  She called me.

She said she had drawn a line under the experience and wanted out, and away from her husband, who wouldn’t take it kindly to her leaving.  Thing was, she was under no obligation to stay, and her life was in danger.

I was not sure what I could do, but Eloise wouldn’t take no for an answer.

I still hadn’t found them, or recognised the daughter when I went looking for her at the mall.  It had been a long shot, until the explosion.

I went to the front of the house, and peered through the cracks in the shutters.  The deputy was leaning against his car, smoking.  Several people were still standing around. Talking and gesturing, looking at the walls as if they could see through them.

I came back.  We could go out the back door but not go to the front of the house.

“How did you get away from the others?” 

“I told them I wasn’t going with them.  John wasn’t happy about it, but I was tired of running, looking over my shoulder.”

“You still will be.  You can’t just go back to your old life.”

“I’m nothing to them.  It’s the old man they want.  He was the one who dobbed them in.”

“It doesn’t work like that.”

She gave me a look of exasperation.  I don’t think she was willing to accept the truth just yet.  As much as I couldn’t believe they simply left her behind.  Not if they cared about her safety.

There was a knock on the front door, not loud, but loud enough.

“Are you expecting someone, anyone?”

“No.”  The exasperation had changed to desperation.  She looked genuinely scared.

The knock was louder and more impatient.

“Hide.  I’ll see who it is.”

She went up the passage and out of sight.  I waited; the next knock now signalling the person on the other side’s next step was to kick the door down.

I took a deep breath and opened the door.  I was expecting the deputy.  It was the reporter.

“Where is she?”

“Who?”

She barged past me, looking in every direction.

“Don’t play dumb.”

I looked at her, and realised her demeanour had changed completely.  I was mistaken as to her identity.

“You are the assassin.”

She glared at me, that same severe expression as before.  “Are you naturally stupid, or what?”

“You’d be surprised if I told you.”

She shrugged.  “Leave now, and I’ll forget you were here.”

In that moment we both heard a noise, a box or case hitting the ground.  Next second she had reached into her voluminous handbag, and I could just see the shape of a gun.

Next second I shot her gun hand then upper leg; she went down, and I was stepping towards her carefully, gun aimed at her head.

Good thing I remembered to bring a silenced weapon, just in case.

The girl came running up the passage and stopped when she saw the reporter, or more likely assassin.

“You,” she said, recognising the assassin. 

“What can I say?  It pays better.”

The girl reached into the assassin’s handbag and pulled out the gun.

I was still processing the fact they knew each other.

She aimed it at the woman on the ground.  I thought it surprising she was not screaming.  I knew what it was like to get shot in the hand.

“Why are you after me?  I did nothing to upset anyone.”

“Guilt by association.  You’re on their list.  Kill me, and they’ll just send someone else.  Let me go, and I’ll forget I saw you.”  She turned to look at me.  “Who the hell are you?:

“Ex Cop.  I thought I’d settled into retirement.  Now I’m going to have to go after some more bad people.  I’m going to give you a choice.  Tell me who sent you or die.  And don’t go with the I got an anonymous call who didn’t leave his or her name.”

“You and I both know who it was.  He gave four of us the assignment.  One fails; there are three others.  And no, I don’t know who the other three are.”

“Were you ever a reporter?”

“Yes.  Gets me places others can’t.  Not very good though, but it doesn’t matter.  This was going to be my last job.  One way or another.  Do what you have to.”

I shrugged.  I wasn’t that sort of person

My sister’s daughter was.  Spending time with the Johnsons had turned her into a monster. Or maybe living with her mother.

Or…

“You were left behind specially for this reason.  You didn’t really need me.”

She looked down at the dead reporter.  “Cleaning up after their mess.  You’re right, though; I didn’t.  My mother said you were always a horrible child that made her life hell.  It seemed like a two birds with one stone moment.”

She aimed the gun at me.

“I’ll tell mother you said hi.”

Pity.  Killers who like the idea of announcing their intentions never get to live long lives.  I’d met a few and recognised the signs.  Added to the fact my sister never liked me and I thought it odd she had wanted me to do anything for her other than die.

Another reason why I brought the gun.

She was dead before she hit the ground.  It was a waste of life, and I hated killing people.  It was basically why they retired me early.  I wouldn’t get tough on the criminals.

This was a waste of two lives.  Reporter/assassins and wannabe bad girls.  I took my gun and cleared any fingerprints. I was not new to the game of ensuring no evidence pointed the gun to me, then staging the scene so it looked like the two of them killed each other.

Been there and done that a few times.

It was, all in all, a very strange situation. 

I had two calls to make.

My sister answered on the second ring.  “Tell me you killed the bastard.”

I rang my sister on her daughter’s phone, suspecting she would answer the way she did.  The number was on speed dial.  “She might have, had she been smarter, but she was as dumb as you are.  She got killed by an assassin before she could shoot me.  Don’t tell me your plan was for her to assume I’d come, and then kill me.”

“Caught in the crossfire, it seemed good at the time.”

“You never considered the consequences of your actions, never have.  She lived long enough to ask God to rain fire and hell down on me.  I guess that sort of hatred was fed to her by you.”

“You were always such a selfish, self-righteous pain.”

“You were always telling us mere mortals how common and useless wrong we were.  I think the self-righteous label belongs elsewhere.  But whatever was supposed to happen didn’t.  I’m sorry for your loss.  I doubt we will be speaking again.”

I put the phone back where it belonged after bricking it.  There would be a record of a phone call to her mother but not what it was about.  I had no doubt she would try to implicate me, but what did I have to gain?

Her attempt to smear me would fail.

Then I went out the front door, slightly panicky and calling for the deputy.  He saw me and came over, and there, with just the right hint of breathless panic, I related the story of what happened.

He went in and checked them immediately, then called for backup.  He went through all the right steps for a crime scene, asking all the right questions.

Then, over the next three hours, I had those same questions plus more asked over and over.  At least the police department and the sheriff himself knew I was a decorated big-city police officer who knew the ropes, and remembered not to contaminate the scene, but if stray prints were found, there was a legitimate reason.

After that I was free to go, but be available if there were more questions.  There would be, if they did a thorough job.  Not to implicate me; but get a clearer idea why they shot each other.

Then there was only one call left.

A last phone call, one I’d hoped I wouldn’t have to make, and wouldn’t if my niece had left with the rest of her new family.

No one answered the phone.  I just said, “Target four dispatched, debt paid.  You now have a new enemy.”

That was it.  The receiver of the call would know exactly what the message meant.  I looked at my watch.  Just enough time to get home for the family Zoom call.

Who said life in the countryside was going to be boring?

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©  Charles Heath  2026

“The Things we do for Love”, the story behind the story

This story has been ongoing since I was seventeen, and just to let you know, I’m 72 this year.

Yes, it’s taken a long time to get it done.

Why, you might ask.

Well, I never gave it much interest because I started writing it after a small incident when I was 17, and working as a book packer for a book distributor in Melbourne

At the end of my first year, at Christmas, the employer had a Christmas party, and that year, it was at a venue in St Kilda.

I wasn’t going to go because at that age, I was an ordinary boy who was very introverted and basically scared of his own shadow and terrified by girls.

Back then, I would cross the street to avoid them

Also, other members of the staff in the shipping department were rough and ready types who were not backwards in telling me what happened, and being naive, perhaps they knew I’d be either shocked or intrigued.

I was both adamant I wasn’t coming and then got roped in on a dare.

Damn!

So, back then, in the early 70s, people looked the other way when it came to drinking, and of course, Dutch courage always takes away the concerns, especially when normally you wouldn’t do half the stuff you wouldn’t in a million years

I made it to the end, not as drunk and stupid as I thought I might be, and St Kilda being a salacious place if you knew where to look, my new friends decided to give me a surprise.

It didn’t take long to realise these men were ‘men about town’ as they kept saying, and we went on an odyssey.  Yes, those backstreet brothels where one could, I was told, have anything they could imagine.

Let me tell you, large quantities of alcohol and imagination were a very bad mix.

So, the odyssey in ‘The things we do’ was based on that, and then the encounter with Diana. Well, let’s just say I learned a great deal about girls that night.

Firstly, not all girls are nasty and spiteful, which seemed to be the case whenever I met one. There was a way to approach, greet, talk to, and behave.

It was also true that I could have had anything I wanted, but I decided what was in my imagination could stay there.  She was amused that all I wanted was to talk, but it was my money, and I could spend it how I liked.

And like any 17-year-old naive fool, I fell in love with her and had all these foolish notions.  Months later, I went back, but she had moved on, to where no one was saying or knew.

Needless to say, I was heartbroken and had to get over that first loss, which, like any 17-year-old, was like the end of the world.

But it was the best hour I’d ever spent in my life and would remain so until I met the woman I have been married to for the last 48 years.

As Henry, he was in part based on a rebel, the son of rich parents who despised them and their wealth, and he used to regale anyone who would listen about how they had messed up his life

If only I’d come from such a background!

And yes, I was only a run away from climbing up the stairs to get on board a ship, acting as a purser.

I worked for a shipping company and they gave their junior staff members an opportunity to spend a year at sea working as a purser on a cargo ship that sailed between Melbourne, Sydney and Hobart in Australia.

One of the other junior staff members’ turn came, and I would visit him on board when he would tell me stories about life on board, the officers, the crew, and other events. These stories, which sounded incredible to someone so impressionable, were a delight to hear.

Alas, by that time, I had tired of office work and moved on to be a tradesman at the place where my father worked.

It proved to be the right move, as that is where I met my wife.  Diana had been right; love would find me when I least expected it.

…

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365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 192/193

Days 192 and 193 – Writing exercise

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I woke to the sound of a very large explosion, yet it wasn’t exactly that; it was the blood-curdling scream that came after.

It wasn’t panic I felt in those few seconds of silence that followed the scream.  It was like I knew it was going to happen, and I could feel a sense of utter calm come over me.

I got out of bed and threw on the nearest clothes near me, then the coat at the back door where I had hung it the previous evening, and the torch I had left nearby in case I needed it.

I did.  It was still dark outside, but dawn would soon be here.  It was also cold, colder than it should be for the last days of winter.  At least it was not snowing.  Snow had a way of making things more difficult than they should be.

My first instinct was to go out via the back door.  Looking across the backyard, I could see other neighbours stirring, internal house lights going on.

From the front I could hear vehicles and then saw the kaleidoscope of red and blue flashing lights on police cars and the sound of an approaching fire engine.

I took in all the movement and sounds that carried on the night air, disjointed pieces of conversation, the murmur of people talking quietly as they headed towards their front gates.

I stepped down off the veranda and went up the side of the house, and as I came out at the front wall I could see the majority of activity was further down the street, outside, if I was not mistaken, the Johnson residence.

A few more steps and I was on the sidewalk, the full extent of the scene apparent.  The cars and truck were outside the Johnson place.

It was no surprise.

The police made regular visits because the Johnson children were prone to getting into trouble, a polite way of saying they were thieves, liars, bullies and troublemakers. 

Old man Johnson, the patriarch of the clan, had once greeted me with a hunting rifle.  To say he terrorised the neighbourhood was an understatement.

My next door neighbour was on his sidewalk, watching.  He had come out with a weapon ready to defend himself if necessary.

“It’s a war zone,” he said, shaking his head.

“I don’t see any bomb craters,” I said, thinking it might lighten the mood.

“I hear someone had enough of that family and tried to blow them up.”

Unlikely, but the neighbours, some at the end of their tether with the Johnson children, would be happy if that was the case.

Riley, my neighbour one house along from me but further away, came to join us.

He too has an opinion: “I hope those fools just blew up their basement meth lab, and they’re all dead.”

As he said it, three ambulances sped past on their way to the bomb/meth lab site.

“The Johnsons are just bad people, and I don’t believe they have either a meth lab or enemies that would want to blow them up.”

Mrs James from over the street came over.  She knew everything that happened in the street, sometimes before it happened.

“Herbert says it was a gas leak. Someone struck a match…”

It was a rational explanation, but then Herbert said that his garden had been overrun by aliens three mornings ago.  Saw them himself, he said, and had to fight them off with a samurai sword.

He’d been out before dawn sweeping the path with an old broom, brandishing it at an invisible enemy.

Herbert should be in a facility; such was the deterioration of his sanity.  In my last conversation with him, he asked me if I had seen the lizard people too.

Riley and Herbert were not talking at the moment, an innocent remark at the last block party getting under Riley’s skin.

“Herbert…”

I interrupted before he said something he would later regret, “I’ll go down and see what’s really going on.  I suspect it is probably something perfectly explainable, and we are all only too willing to call it something else.”

“I’d take care,” Foredyce, the man everyone loved to hate, simply because he had money he couldn’t explain adequately.  “I hear Johnson has the police in his back pocket.”

Odd that I thought, after leaving him, that it was more like he had the police in his back pocket.

…

Seconds later I ran into a policeman who was setting up perimeter tape, the sort that had the words “Do Not Cross”.  He didn’t let me cross, so I stood against the tape as a personal act of defiance.

Two police cars had been angled so that traffic could not pass in the street, and the same was happening a hundred yards away.

Other police were shunting spectators back to their properties.  I was now one of about a dozen that had come to the line, people I recognised from block parties, but didn’t speak to often.

There were also people I didn’t know or recognise.

I think one was a reporter.  I had seen her photo in the paper, though I couldn’t be sure.  I looked around, but I couldn’t see the film crew she usually had in tow.

My cell phone vibrated; an incoming message.
“When they leave, come.”

I replied with the appropriate emoji and just got my phone back in my pocket before the reporter, or whoever she was, burrowed her way through the small group to end up next to me.  She hadn’t exactly tried to bump me out of the way, but I was going to defend my territory if she tried.

She had her cell phone in her hand, ear pods and a vacant expression.  If I was to guess, she was listening in on the police band.

She moved slightly, and I gently nudged back.

Her attention went from the broadcast to me, a scathing look.

“What are the police saying this is?” I asked, before she could remonstrate.

“What?”  Abrupt.  It reminded me of an article I’d read where she had been accused of being over zealous in the gathering of information, got her facts wrong, published and caused an innocent person trouble.

“What are the police saying?”

“Don’t you have better things to be doing than rubber necking?”

“And you do, barging your way like an out-of-control motor bus.”  It was the best I could come up with at short notice.

That was when I realised those who had been behind her had drifted away to find better vantage points.

“Of course, these clowns are news.”

“Those clowns are trouble.”

“More than you know.”

I’d noticed a woman talking to several police officers outside the front of the house, then scanning the rope line, and eventually stopping, and looking fiercely at me, or more likely the woman I was standing with.  A few more words with another officer, she started walking towards us.

“You have a friend in the police.”

“Not exactly.”

The woman gave me a glare and nodded to the woman beside me, then lifted the tape line.  I watched them walk along the perimeter until no one could overhear them.

I watched two paramedics come out with a gurney with a body bag on it, and then transfer the bag to the ambulance, then go back into the house.

One dead person.  How many were there?

The paramedics repeated the process four times, then they drove off.  Four collections.  Four dead, or four smuggled away.

I saw the reporter see the last person loaded, exchanged what I thought were heated words, then came back walking quickly.

She seemed annoyed.

“What did the cops say?”  I thought I’d ask.  I might get an answer.

“Nothing.  It was staged to get them away.  There’s an assassin coming, or already here; they don’t know.”

“More likely an angry mob of neighbours, me included.  I hope they’re not coming back.”

She shook her head then headed towards her car.  I guess she was going to follow the ambulance and see where they were being taken.

With the ambulance leaving, the police cars gradually left until there was only one, belonging to the local sheriff’s department.

The deputy was in the process of retrieving the perimeter tape.  The emergency, if it could be called that, was over. 

I knew him.  He had found one of my kids being a jackass at the mall and brought him home after giving him a warning.  He could have locked him up, but chose a less problematic way of dealing with the problem.  Telling us and we handed out the punishment.

“Ned.”

“Mr Raven.  Not a lot going on here now.”

“What happened?”

“County and federal stuff.  We just get to clean up the mess they left behind.”

“The Johnsons?”

“Best not to know.  They won’t be giving you or anyone around here any more trouble.”

“Dead.”

“Exactly, if you get my drift.”

In other words, taken away to end up in another town to annoy them.  I could hear in his tone that he would have preferred to shoot them.

“Good.”

“Trust me.  There’s nothing more to see.”

“Is it alright if I go and see where some of my tools Johnson borrowed are?  If he’s not coming back, he won’t need them.”

“No.  I guess you’re right.”  He shrugged.  “I can’t see why not.  The place is empty; just try not to touch anything that’s not yours.”

…

I didn’t go via the front.  There were still a few people waiting, for what, though, was not clear, but perhaps they thought the Johnsons might come back.

Instead, there was an alley behind that line of properties, recently built as our estate got bigger, with our road the closest to the farming land behind it.

The man who had owned it had sold a few acres to raise funds to keep the farm going.  It wouldn’t be for much longer; a local businessman was planning a much larger housing development with a mall and a public park ready for the influx of workers needed for a huge distribution centre.

That was a more interesting story than the Johnsons; the centre was looking to use robots built at a high-tech robot assembly plant nearby, part of a technology park.

Maybe.

All manner of propositions were being tossed about by local politicians, each claiming they were saving our town.

At the back fence line to the Johnsons’ property, I peered through the crack in the fence, the one I think they used to keep an eye on people, saw no one in the rear yard and went in.

It was a short distance from the back fence to the rear veranda, and once inside the structure, built to add more space to the house to have outdoor cooked meals in summer and keep dry and warm in winter.

I waited and listened to see if there was anyone still in the house.  Peering through the kitchen windows, overlooking the veranda, I couldn’t see anyone, but they had left the lights on when they left.

I let five minutes pass, then knocked.  Not loudly, just enough that if there was anyone inside they’d hear it.

Someone did; a moment later the back door opened slightly and a hissed, “get in here,” was issued.

I just got through the door when it was closed again. A woman old enough to be my daughter was standing by the door, out of line of sight.

“You took your time.”

“It was just a little busy out there.  Are you ready?”

“I was never ready for this.  He sure as hell didn’t tell me his father was a rat, and we would be dragged across the country because of his mistakes.”

I got a call about a week ago from my sister, who lives on the other side of the country.  Her daughter had married the son of a CEO.  She had always maintained there was something odd about him, and when he had to go into hiding, it confirmed her suspicions.

She had just learned that her daughter had moved to my city, and asked her mother for help to get away from them.  She called me.

She said she had drawn a line under the experience and wanted out, and away from her husband, who wouldn’t take it kindly to her leaving.  Thing was, she was under no obligation to stay, and her life was in danger.

I was not sure what I could do, but Eloise wouldn’t take no for an answer.

I still hadn’t found them, or recognised the daughter when I went looking for her at the mall.  It had been a long shot, until the explosion.

I went to the front of the house, and peered through the cracks in the shutters.  The deputy was leaning against his car, smoking.  Several people were still standing around. Talking and gesturing, looking at the walls as if they could see through them.

I came back.  We could go out the back door but not go to the front of the house.

“How did you get away from the others?” 

“I told them I wasn’t going with them.  John wasn’t happy about it, but I was tired of running, looking over my shoulder.”

“You still will be.  You can’t just go back to your old life.”

“I’m nothing to them.  It’s the old man they want.  He was the one who dobbed them in.”

“It doesn’t work like that.”

She gave me a look of exasperation.  I don’t think she was willing to accept the truth just yet.  As much as I couldn’t believe they simply left her behind.  Not if they cared about her safety.

There was a knock on the front door, not loud, but loud enough.

“Are you expecting someone, anyone?”

“No.”  The exasperation had changed to desperation.  She looked genuinely scared.

The knock was louder and more impatient.

“Hide.  I’ll see who it is.”

She went up the passage and out of sight.  I waited; the next knock now signalling the person on the other side’s next step was to kick the door down.

I took a deep breath and opened the door.  I was expecting the deputy.  It was the reporter.

“Where is she?”

“Who?”

She barged past me, looking in every direction.

“Don’t play dumb.”

I looked at her, and realised her demeanour had changed completely.  I was mistaken as to her identity.

“You are the assassin.”

She glared at me, that same severe expression as before.  “Are you naturally stupid, or what?”

“You’d be surprised if I told you.”

She shrugged.  “Leave now, and I’ll forget you were here.”

In that moment we both heard a noise, a box or case hitting the ground.  Next second she had reached into her voluminous handbag, and I could just see the shape of a gun.

Next second I shot her gun hand then upper leg; she went down, and I was stepping towards her carefully, gun aimed at her head.

Good thing I remembered to bring a silenced weapon, just in case.

The girl came running up the passage and stopped when she saw the reporter, or more likely assassin.

“You,” she said, recognising the assassin. 

“What can I say?  It pays better.”

The girl reached into the assassin’s handbag and pulled out the gun.

I was still processing the fact they knew each other.

She aimed it at the woman on the ground.  I thought it surprising she was not screaming.  I knew what it was like to get shot in the hand.

“Why are you after me?  I did nothing to upset anyone.”

“Guilt by association.  You’re on their list.  Kill me, and they’ll just send someone else.  Let me go, and I’ll forget I saw you.”  She turned to look at me.  “Who the hell are you?:

“Ex Cop.  I thought I’d settled into retirement.  Now I’m going to have to go after some more bad people.  I’m going to give you a choice.  Tell me who sent you or die.  And don’t go with the I got an anonymous call who didn’t leave his or her name.”

“You and I both know who it was.  He gave four of us the assignment.  One fails; there are three others.  And no, I don’t know who the other three are.”

“Were you ever a reporter?”

“Yes.  Gets me places others can’t.  Not very good though, but it doesn’t matter.  This was going to be my last job.  One way or another.  Do what you have to.”

I shrugged.  I wasn’t that sort of person

My sister’s daughter was.  Spending time with the Johnsons had turned her into a monster. Or maybe living with her mother.

Or…

“You were left behind specially for this reason.  You didn’t really need me.”

She looked down at the dead reporter.  “Cleaning up after their mess.  You’re right, though; I didn’t.  My mother said you were always a horrible child that made her life hell.  It seemed like a two birds with one stone moment.”

She aimed the gun at me.

“I’ll tell mother you said hi.”

Pity.  Killers who like the idea of announcing their intentions never get to live long lives.  I’d met a few and recognised the signs.  Added to the fact my sister never liked me and I thought it odd she had wanted me to do anything for her other than die.

Another reason why I brought the gun.

She was dead before she hit the ground.  It was a waste of life, and I hated killing people.  It was basically why they retired me early.  I wouldn’t get tough on the criminals.

This was a waste of two lives.  Reporter/assassins and wannabe bad girls.  I took my gun and cleared any fingerprints. I was not new to the game of ensuring no evidence pointed the gun to me, then staging the scene so it looked like the two of them killed each other.

Been there and done that a few times.

It was, all in all, a very strange situation. 

I had two calls to make.

My sister answered on the second ring.  “Tell me you killed the bastard.”

I rang my sister on her daughter’s phone, suspecting she would answer the way she did.  The number was on speed dial.  “She might have, had she been smarter, but she was as dumb as you are.  She got killed by an assassin before she could shoot me.  Don’t tell me your plan was for her to assume I’d come, and then kill me.”

“Caught in the crossfire, it seemed good at the time.”

“You never considered the consequences of your actions, never have.  She lived long enough to ask God to rain fire and hell down on me.  I guess that sort of hatred was fed to her by you.”

“You were always such a selfish, self-righteous pain.”

“You were always telling us mere mortals how common and useless wrong we were.  I think the self-righteous label belongs elsewhere.  But whatever was supposed to happen didn’t.  I’m sorry for your loss.  I doubt we will be speaking again.”

I put the phone back where it belonged after bricking it.  There would be a record of a phone call to her mother but not what it was about.  I had no doubt she would try to implicate me, but what did I have to gain?

Her attempt to smear me would fail.

Then I went out the front door, slightly panicky and calling for the deputy.  He saw me and came over, and there, with just the right hint of breathless panic, I related the story of what happened.

He went in and checked them immediately, then called for backup.  He went through all the right steps for a crime scene, asking all the right questions.

Then, over the next three hours, I had those same questions plus more asked over and over.  At least the police department and the sheriff himself knew I was a decorated big-city police officer who knew the ropes, and remembered not to contaminate the scene, but if stray prints were found, there was a legitimate reason.

After that I was free to go, but be available if there were more questions.  There would be, if they did a thorough job.  Not to implicate me; but get a clearer idea why they shot each other.

Then there was only one call left.

A last phone call, one I’d hoped I wouldn’t have to make, and wouldn’t if my niece had left with the rest of her new family.

No one answered the phone.  I just said, “Target four dispatched, debt paid.  You now have a new enemy.”

That was it.  The receiver of the call would know exactly what the message meant.  I looked at my watch.  Just enough time to get home for the family Zoom call.

Who said life in the countryside was going to be boring?

…

©  Charles Heath  2026

What I learned about writing – Navigating the beta reader jungle

Navigating the Beta Reader Journey: Finding Your Tribe and Embracing the Feedback

You’ve poured your heart, soul, and countless hours into your manuscript. The final word is typed, the last paragraph polished (for the tenth time), and the initial exhilaration of “The End” begins to fade, replaced by a new, exciting, and slightly terrifying question: What now?

For many authors, the answer is: beta readers.

Beta readers are your book’s first audience. They’re not editors, but rather regular readers who offer fresh eyes and honest feedback on the story, characters, pacing, and overall impact before you dive into professional editing. Think of them as your secret weapon for uncovering blind spots and ensuring your manuscript truly shines.

But how do you find these elusive, invaluable individuals? And once you do, what should you expect from the experience? Let’s dive in.


Part 1: The Great Beta Reader Hunt – Finding Your Tribe

Finding the right beta readers is less about luck and more about strategic searching and clear communication. Here are some of the best places to look:

  1. Online Writing Communities:
    • Goodreads Groups: Many groups are specifically dedicated to beta reading and critique. Search for “beta readers,” “critique partners,” or your specific genre.
    • Facebook Groups: Similar to Goodreads, there are countless author and writer groups. Be sure to read group rules before posting your request.
    • Reddit: Subreddits like r/betareaders, r/DestructiveReaders (for advanced critiques), and r/writing often have threads or dedicated days for seeking feedback.
    • Dedicated Critique Sites (e.g., Scribophile, Critique Circle): These platforms operate on a credit system, where you earn credits by critiquing others’ work, which you then use to get critiques on your own. This ensures active participation and reciprocal feedback.
  2. Writer Friends & Networks:
    • Author Buddies: If you have author friends (even if they write in different genres), they can be excellent beta readers because they understand the writing process. You can even swap manuscripts.
    • Local Writing Groups: Check your local library, community centre, or independent bookstores for writing groups. These often have members eager to lend an eye.
    • Conference Connections: Anyone you’ve met at writing conferences or workshops could be a potential beta.
  3. Your Existing Audience (with caution):
    • If you have an email list, a strong social media following, or a blog, you might ask your most engaged readers.
    • Caveat: Ensure they understand they’re giving constructive criticism, not just fan praise. Make it clear you’re looking for honest feedback to improve, not just compliments.

Preparing Your “Beta Reader Ask”:

Before you send out that SOS, have these ready:

  • A concise Blurb/Synopsis: Something that hooks potential readers and accurately describes your book.
  • Genre & Word Count: Crucial for attracting readers who enjoy your type of story and have the time to commit.
  • Target Reader Profile: Who is your ideal reader? This helps betas assess if they’re a good fit.
  • Specific Questions: What kind of feedback are you looking for? (e.g., “Did the plot twists land?” “Were the characters believable?” “Was the pacing consistent?” “Where did you get confused or bored?”)
  • Timeline: Be realistic. A novel usually takes 2-4 weeks for a thorough read.
  • Desired Format: Do you want comments directly in the document, a questionnaire, or a general email?

Part 2: Embracing the Feedback – What to Expect

You’ve found your betas, sent out your manuscript, and the feedback starts rolling in. This is where the real growth happens, but it can also be an emotional rollercoaster.

Expect a Mix of Feedback:

  1. The Good:
    • Validation: Someone loved your villain! A scene you adored resonated with them. This is fuel for your writing soul.
    • Clarity: They pinpointed exactly where something clicked, or where they understood your intentions.
    • Big Picture Insights: They spotted a plot hole, identified a character whose motivations were unclear, or suggested a pacing adjustment that makes perfect sense. This is gold.
  2. The Challenging (But Necessary):
    • Conflicting Opinions: One beta loves a character, another finds them annoying. One thinks a scene is too long, another wishes it were longer. This is normal! Not every reader will agree, and it’s your job to find the common threads and decide what resonates with your vision.
    • Areas of Weakness: They might point out plot inconsistencies, underdeveloped subplots, or moments where tension sags. These aren’t personal attacks; they’re opportunities for improvement.
    • Honest (Sometimes Blunt) Language: Some readers are more direct than others. Try to detach emotion and focus on the substance of the feedback.
  3. The Less Useful:
    • Line Edits/Typos: While appreciated, this isn’t their primary job. Don’t base major revisions on these.
    • Vague Statements: “I just didn’t like it.” Without specifics, this is hard to act on.
    • Personal Preferences vs. Objective Issues: “I don’t like fantasy” isn’t helpful if you wrote a fantasy novel. Focus on feedback that points to structural or storytelling problems, not just taste.

How to Process Beta Reader Feedback:

  • Take a Deep Breath: It’s your baby, and hearing criticism can sting. Give yourself time to cool down before responding or making decisions.
  • Don’t Defend: Listen, read, absorb. Thank them for their time and honesty. This isn’t a debate.
  • Look for Patterns: If multiple betas point out the same issue (e.g., “The beginning was slow,” “I didn’t understand why Character X did that”), that’s a signal to pay serious attention.
  • Trust Your Gut (Ultimately): You are the author. While beta feedback is crucial, you don’t have to implement every suggestion. It’s your story. Weigh the advice against your artistic vision.
  • Keep Perspective: Beta readers are giving you their time and opinion for free (usually). Their goal is to help you make your book better.

Beta readers are an invaluable part of the writing journey, bridging the gap between your solitary creation and the wider world of readers. By proactively seeking them out and approaching their feedback with an open mind, you set your manuscript up for its best possible chance of success. Happy hunting, and happy revising!

365 Days of Writing, 2026 – My Second Story 28

More about my second novel

…

In a day of going over old ground and making it new again, I have revisited Zoe’s residence in Paris at the time John called, and found it empty, except for some kid who was all ‘get lost or suffer the consequences.’

Who is he?  We flesh out that story and how it relates to Zoe and those early days.

Similarly, I’m still not happy with how Worthington discovers Zoe; this is going to need some more work and definitely a rewrite.

In fact, I might have to revisit his whole appearance in the story and make it a little less bombastic and a little more subdued, seething with anger.

The whole Marseilles episode is good; it’s just the end and this discovery of who is behind Zoe’s abduction that needs a little work.  This is where we sow the enigmatic seeds of Romanov and his purpose for wanting Zoe, if it is not revenge, as it is assumed.

Similarly, that whole thing with the Russian Minister and Anton needs a lot more work because there appears to be a connection between him and Romanov, but there’s not.  This is just Olga leaning on her connections to get a result.

Then Zoe takes off to find Romanov, or is it those seeking revenge? It’s not quite clear, and it leaves John to contemplate his future.  Perhaps a piece here between them that sets the tone for the relationship over the coming months would be good, and the trigger that sets John off on a quest to find her.

His excuses at the moment are wishy-washy at best.

Phew!!!  Never knew self-criticism could be so harsh!

…

365 Days of Writing, 2026 – My Second Story 28

More about my second novel

…

In a day of going over old ground and making it new again, I have revisited Zoe’s residence in Paris at the time John called, and found it empty, except for some kid who was all ‘get lost or suffer the consequences.’

Who is he?  We flesh out that story and how it relates to Zoe and those early days.

Similarly, I’m still not happy with how Worthington discovers Zoe; this is going to need some more work and definitely a rewrite.

In fact, I might have to revisit his whole appearance in the story and make it a little less bombastic and a little more subdued, seething with anger.

The whole Marseilles episode is good; it’s just the end and this discovery of who is behind Zoe’s abduction that needs a little work.  This is where we sow the enigmatic seeds of Romanov and his purpose for wanting Zoe, if it is not revenge, as it is assumed.

Similarly, that whole thing with the Russian Minister and Anton needs a lot more work because there appears to be a connection between him and Romanov, but there’s not.  This is just Olga leaning on her connections to get a result.

Then Zoe takes off to find Romanov, or is it those seeking revenge? It’s not quite clear, and it leaves John to contemplate his future.  Perhaps a piece here between them that sets the tone for the relationship over the coming months would be good, and the trigger that sets John off on a quest to find her.

His excuses at the moment are wishy-washy at best.

Phew!!!  Never knew self-criticism could be so harsh!

…

What I learned about writing – Coffee isn’t a panacea

Coffee, Crumbs, and Creativity: The Writer’s Fuel Dilemma

There’s a specific kind of alchemy that happens when you’re truly in the writing zone. Words flow, ideas connect, and the world outside the screen (or notebook) fades into a hazy, unimportant blur. It’s a magical, almost spiritual state where the story dictates the pace and you’re merely its conduit.

But let’s be honest, that magic often comes at a cost, doesn’t it?

The Sustenance Struggle

For many of us, the quest for sustained creative output inevitably clashes with the very human need for sustenance. The ubiquitous cup of coffee, the endless mug of tea – these become less a beverage and more a life support system. We sip, we type, we chase the next sentence, convinced that stopping for something as mundane as a meal will shatter the fragile spell.

The thought of breaking that momentum, of stepping away from a scene that’s finally unravelling just right, for a sandwich or a proper dinner, feels like artistic treason. We tell ourselves we don’t have time. We can’t interrupt the process. The words are right there.

The Inevitable Crash

This fierce dedication, while admirable in its intensity, is a double-edged sword. Our brains, despite their boundless capacity for imagination, are still physical organs. They run on glucose, not just caffeine and sheer willpower. Our bodies, too, require fuel and rest.

So, what happens? We push through. We ignore the growling stomach, the flickering headache, the creeping brain fog. We power through on adrenaline and the rapidly diminishing returns of our stimulant of choice. Until, of course, the well dries up.

The words blur. The plot holes yawn. The characters suddenly feel flat. That vibrant spring of inspiration suddenly looks suspiciously like a dry puddle. We drop from exhaustion, or are forced to stop because the mental engine has finally sputtered out. The creative fire is banked, not because the ideas are gone, but because the vessel carrying them is depleted.

Refuelling for the Long Haul

It’s in this forced pause that the deeper sustenance often arrives. Sleep isn’t just downtime; it’s vital processing time. It’s where your subconscious untangles plot knots, brews new ideas from disparate elements, and recharges the very batteries you’ve drained. Perhaps dreams, those wild, untamed narratives of our minds, become fertile ground for unexpected inspiration, offering a fresh perspective when you finally return to the page.

The lesson? Nurturing your body isn’t a distraction from your craft; it’s an integral part of it. Think of fueling yourself not as an interruption, but as an investment into longer, more productive, and ultimately more enjoyable writing sessions.

  • Pre-emptive Power: Before you dive deep, have a proper meal or at least a substantial snack. Think protein and complex carbs to avoid that precipitous sugar crash.
  • Hydrate Smarter: Water is your brain’s best friend. Keep a bottle within reach and sip regularly.
  • Strategic Breaks: A five-minute stretch, a quick walk to the kitchen for that piece of fruit, genuinely stepping away for a meal – these aren’t breaks from writing, they’re part of a sustainable writing practice. They allow your subconscious to work, your eyes to rest, and your body to refuel.
  • Listen to Your Body: Learn to recognise the early signs of fatigue and hunger. Don’t wait until you’re crashing to address them.

So, next time you feel that familiar pull into the writing vortex, pause for a moment. Ask yourself: Is my body fueled? Is my mind sustained? Because the most brilliant stories are often born not just from passion, but from the well-being that allows that passion to truly flourish.

How do you navigate the delicate dance between creative flow and basic needs? Share your tips for staying nourished and inspired in the comments below!

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 191

Day 191 – Writing exercise

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The last time I had visited my Grandmother’s house, it was for my Grandfather’s death.  We had all solemnly attended the funeral, and dutifully turned up at the wake.

It had been a splendid affair.

My grandfather had been an influential and well-respected man in the community and in his field, in fact everywhere except his family.

It was a very sad day.

My grandmother then had to endure the loss of her husband and then years of squabbling, legal battles, and finally ostracisation.

That was where I learned the hard way that money was the root of all evil.

It was where I realised that I didn’t know my parents, once warm, loving people who taught us that the most important asset any person had was their family.  That was until eighty-five million dollars was suddenly up for grabs.

Then every one of those money-grubbing children of hers decided it was theirs for the taking.  The schemes each one of them devised, their treatment of what they thought was a weak and vulnerable old lady, was unbelievable and disgraceful.

I got to see it first hand, because out of every one of the forty six living descendants of Martha Evelyn Elizabeth Wallace, nee Williams, Evelyn, a cousin, and I were the only two who never saw the profit we could make, only the friendship and help that old lady needed.

I never wanted her money, or anything, other than helping her see out the last years of her life in the comfort and ease that she deserved.  No one mentioned the sacrifices she had made, or the help she had given willingly and without expectation.

When she died at the age of 92, she had lived through many different eras, seen changes we took for granted, and had become a walking encyclopaedia of the past.  The rest saw an opportunity to financially gain from her death.

They never expected the battle that ensued.

But, the question was, why did I take my grandmother’s side and not join the United family front?

I landed on her doorstep at the age of eight, the youngest of five children, the one the others wanted nothing to do with.  The others were teens and old enough to go travelling with our parents.

Apparently I would ruin their vacation experience, I was told.  So I was taken to Grandma’s whether she liked it or not.  I remember that one conversation between my father, who dropped me off and Grandma.  She said his selfishness and thoughtless behaviour would come back to bite him.

Then came the words I would never forget.  He said I was a useless son and fitting that he stay with an equally useless mother-in-law.  Words spoken in anger, she said, and therefore his true feelings on the matter.

They had never seen eye to eye on anything.

After witnessing that, she told me never to get too wrapped up in an argument because you always said words you could never take back.

From that year on, everything they travelled, they left me at Grandma’s.

She took that terrified, teary, eight-year-old up to the most magnificent room I had ever seen, a room that overlooked the gardens and the sea beyond it. It set free my imagination, that desire to be anything other than that useless son my father called me.

It drove the desire to write, and I had a reader and mentor by my side from the beginning.  She had seen my potential as a writer long before anyone else, and truth be known, she had sent my work to people she knew, people who mattered more than the opinion of my own family.

The house, she said later, had brought that alive. She always read my stories, and later my novels.  They were always, in part, based on her telling me about an aspect of her life.

Then there was Evelyn.

She was my cousin, the daughter of my father’s older brother, a man of little tact and great expectations, and her family’s black sheep.  The last of the litter, her father said, the day she came home with bad grades.

That’s when she was sent to a private school, one designed to take ‘bad eggs’ and straighten them out.  It was a school full of maladjusted and, she said, evil children, who preyed on the weak and disoriented to make themselves feel better.

She ran away, fell into the abyss, and for a while no one spoke about.  I couldn’t believe that any family would abandon a child like that.

And then I remembered what my family had done to me.

I found her after a search of places no one would willingly go to, and took her to Grandma’s.  She knew exactly what to do, and over the course of the next year, we helped her find a way out of the abyss.

It gave rise to the charitable trust and the desire to help abandoned children like I had been, and children who landed in that awful abyss Evelyn had fallen into, because she had nowhere else to go, an enterprise my father said was like throwing good money after bad.

As Evelyn recovered, she told us her story, and how grateful she was to get a second chance, something that would never happen at home. 

Once she was well enough, she made it her mission to be that one person my grandmother could always rely on, other than me.

She already knew how cruel people could be, and it hadn’t surprised her when her parents, like each of the other children, turned against our grandmother.

It had always been decided for her what she was supposed to do with her life, and that was to get a law degree.  She had hated the idea.

But one day, when sitting around the breakfast table, Grandma said it would be an advantage one day if at least one of us knew the law.  Perhaps then she could see the coming storm from her children

From that conversation, she decided to go to university.  After graduating, she never felt like she had the confidence to practise it, even after breezing through the bar exam. 

In fact, it was not until the first of Grandmother’s children launched a legal case against her that she suddenly discovered just how much payback was going to cost them.

It was like watching the transformation of a mouse into a war lord, the first day of what we called the war of the roses, mostly because it felt like it had taken thirty years to finally win.

And win so emphatically she did, to the extent that in a fit of rage, her own father had castigated her and praised her in the same sentence.

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The driveway from the front gates to the front door was about a mile long, with a collenade of elm trees that in spring showed what Mother Nature was capable of.

I had stopped on the bridge, built in Roman style, that crossed the creek that fed the lake that then ran to the ocean.  You could just see it through the trees on the edge of the lawns.

It was where you got your first look at the magnificent Tudor-style house, a picture right out of an English history book.  It never failed to fill me with a feeling of pride just to be standing there

It had also made my blood boil when learning of my father, uncles and aunts’ plan to sell the place to a resort owner and have them chop it up into a golf course and lakeside condos.

Desecration, my Grandmother had said.

Desecration indeed.

The short drive to the gravel-covered space at the front of the house took only a few minutes, and I was not the first to arrive.

Evelyn’s beat-up BMW was sitting in that coveted closest to the front door spot, and Wenders had the Bentley out, which meant something was afoot.

It had taken both of us a while to wrap our heads around the house staffing arrangements and the fact we were not allowed to do anything for ourselves.

Or to treat the servants as servants but as fully trained employees who were there to do specific jobs, just like others did in offices and factories.

Here there were kitchen staff who cooked.  There were wait staff who were like normal wait staff in restaurants.  There were housekeeping staff like in hotels that did housekeeping duties.  There were gardening staff who maintained the grounds. There were mechanical staff who ran the machinery and the fleet of cars.  There were farm staff because there was a farm as part of the property.

We were fully functional and fully self-sufficient.  And it had been that way for over a hundred years.

And it was hard to accept that I was the master of the house, and Evelyn the mistress.  My girlfriend would not become yet mistress if she married me, and she was fine with it. 

Both of us moved into the house about five years before grandmother died, and had been training forever to take over.  I had thought it would be much harder, but then we had managers, the head butler, and the head house mistress, two people who had been born in the house itself and trained from the first day to do the roles they had inherited from their parents and their parents before them.

My father never understood how that worked or why it worked.  He and the rest of them had failed to understand the significance of the house and the people who called it home.  They just considered the house and the people in it expendable, items on a balance sheet, something that could be sold and forgotten.

He had never met everyone who worked there as I did, starting with that first visit at eight years old, as did Evelyn after she moved in.  That they were not just people; they were family.  They too had mostly spent their whole lives there, or if they moved away, they eventually came back.

All of this went through my mind: how it had been a battle to keep it all together, how the siblings kept throwing up endless legal challenges, before she died, and then after.

None had been able to contest the will.  It was cast in stone.  I knew that because Evelyn had crafted it, knowing how the law worked and knowing what evil people were capable of.

After she had rebuffed all of their suits, she had been offered a position with one of the legal firms hired by the siblings, a very prestigious and expensive legal practice, to which she declined.  She could not, she said, ever work for a firm that would submit such scurrilous legal actions.

Jamieson, head butler, had opened the door and was waiting for me to enter.  Sometimes it felt like a staircase to paradise going up the front steps, but today, it was just another day.

I hadn’t been able to write for a few months now, and I had the publisher’s editor calling, asking about my next book.  Writing had been the last thing on my mind after grandmother’s passing, but today, coming back from London, it felt like the drive had cleared a few of the cobwebs out.

“Sir,” he said, standing almost as if at attention.  “I assume the drive up was pleasant?”

“I had Four Seasons playing, and it seemed to lighten my mood.  Pleasant indeed, Jamieson.”

“I understand the mechanics would like to look your car over.  That time I’m told.”

“It always seems that time for something.”

“Yes.  Mistress Evelyn was saying something about another matter, the annual charity ball.”

“Oh.”

“Oh indeed, sir.  Consider yourself reminded.”

“Thank you, Jamieson.  Where would I be without you?”

“Up the proverbial creek, I believe, sir.”

He waited until I was inside, standing on the polished tiles and a few steps from the main entrance hall that had two adjacent staircases leading up to the first floor, and the statue of a likeness of Helen of Troy with his wife’s face in the middle.  It was breathtaking, a marble statue commissioned by the first owner of the building, my earliest tracable ancestor.

It was one of many surprises that had met me on that first visit.

“Is Evelyn…?”

“In the ballroom?  Yes.”

“Thank you, Jamieson.”

“Would you like tea to be served?”

“Something stronger might be needed, but yes.  That would be appreciated.”

“I will arrange it.”

The ballroom was at the rear of the house, opening out onto a large paved area which could be covered if extra space was required.  The renovation had been the last thing grandmother had initiated, and she hadn’t lived to see it completed.

It was where she intended the annual charity ball to be held because it had grown too large for the current venue.  This year it would be held here, in her honour.  Tickets were required, and the funds raised went to the family charity trust, something else her children had tried to take.

Evelyn had made sure that attempt also failed.  They had kept their positions as Trustees, but a motion had been passed to strip them of voting rights, her last act of defiance.  It was after they thought they had enough votes on the board to oust their mother, and install Evelyn’s father as chairman.  In the end, they did not.

Evelyn was fretting, but it was not about the organisation; it was about confronting her father again.  It was about the same amount of apprehension I had seeing mine.  It had been nearly a year before the courts finally dismissed all their lawsuits. 

Words were said that couldn’t be taken back.

But as Trustees with or without voting rights, they were entitled to be invited.  Grandmother had always told us that we should never stoop to their level, that we should remain aloof, but it was difficult, and I was glad she was not there to witness our momentary lapse.

And, she said, above all, the work of the charity came before everything else, and that our deeds were to be measured by others, not by ourselves.

It was part of the charity’s fiftieth anniversary speech, the one the chairman was to read, but as she had passed, it was left to me.  I was not relishing it.  I had trouble enough doing book readings and signing.

Evelyn was standing in the middle of the ballroom under one of the three restored chandeliers, a feature of a room that had one wall featuring painted landscapes of the nearby countryside.

It was like the pages of a history book.

“In a princess outfit and a diamond and silver tiara, you would look like you owned the room, a palace if you will.  Certainly you would be the belle of the ball.”

She turned, saw me and smiled.

“You came, Sam.”

“How could I not?  I live here, well, mostly here.  My editor is asking politely for my next book, and frankly I’m not feeling like it.”

“It’ll come.  What do you think?  It’s exactly how Grandma’s envisioned it.  Those paintings, my God, visual history.  Did you know she had them in storage?”

I shook my head.  “No. You know what she was like.  There’s treasure to be found, if and when we get the chance to pick up a shovel.”

“There you go.  The next book is already writing itself.  The lost treasure in Derbyshire.  We have three hundred tickets sold.  A full house.”

“The family?”

“Thirty-five.  I told them politely that they have to pay or they would be turned away at the door.”

“You didn’t.”  I could see my mother’s face.  Purple with rage.

“I did.  Everyone else has to pay.”

She signed.  Just mentioning our parents was exhausting.

“Have you even got a gown?”

I knew her well enough to know she hadn’t and wouldn’t, so I had made arrangements.

When she didn’t answer, I said, “Not a problem, I have your fairy godmother coming tomorrow, so don’t make me have to come and find you.”

…

As the newly elected chairman of the board of Trustees for the charity trust that my grandmother had created to fund the charity initiatives, and also accept outside donations, it was my job to greet the incoming guests at the main entrance to the ballroom at the rear of the house.

Cars would stop in the portico, and guests would step out onto the red carpet, which ran from the bottom of the steps to just inside the entrance.

There, Evelyn and her team of ushers would give each guest a welcome drink and a moment to gather themselves before ushering them to their table. 

Her fairy godmother had found the ideal dress, and in it she looked every bit a princess, right down to the tiara, one of Grandmother’s heirlooms left to Evelyn.  All that was missing was the magic wand.

She was dazzling.

About a hundred guests had passed through the receiving area before my family’s motorcade arrived.  My parents were in a chauffeur-driven limousine; for them, appearances were everything, and my siblings in their ‘posh’ cars followed suit.  That notion of displaying wealth as power had found itself flowing down the tree.

Jamieson opened the doors in concert with the chauffeur, giving me time to adjust the bow tie and collar that was slowly strangling me.  I hated dress-up occasions

My father was first out.  None of this ladies first thing with him.

He looked me up and down.  “You still pleased with yourself?”

“Why would I be?  I was only following orders.  Your mother-in-law, Dad.  Who was it again who told me I had to respect my elders?”

My mother joined him, and chose not to speak.  It was a shame the mother I once knew and loved had disappeared, and turned into what was standing before me.

She could light up a room just by walking into it.  Tonight was going to be a test.  The scandal of the bitter fight with grandmother had made them disliked enemies, and particularly so of those who were attending tonight.

“We also taught you that family was everything.”

“Until you think you can use it as an ATM.  Enjoy the night, Mum, Dad.  Let the animosity rest for one day at least.”

He just shook his head and started walking up the stairs.

My siblings were just rude, but it was not because they naturally were; it was because they were jealous and angry they had not paid closer attention to the one person who could have made their lives better.

Their failures, by contrast, in their home, when they didn’t achieve expectations, were met with sympathy.  Mine and Evelyn’s failures hadn’t, and I could never understand why.

I simply greeted them politely, and they kept walking.  Even their children were rude. 

After Evelyn’s father arrived and started up the stairs, I saw Elizabeth, the girl I was hoping to ask to marry me when I gathered enough courage, had arrived and was waving from the top of the stairs.

She was there to give Evelyn moral support when her father arrived.  That moral support was needed now.  He was almost upon her.

A few minutes later she came down the stairs in that manner that made it look like a grand entrance.  She had done exactly that on our staircase to the foyer, and a grand entrance it had been.

Tonight she was equally as stunning as my cousin.

“Passed with flying colours,” she said, referring to Evelyn.  “They didn’t believe she was their daughter.  Where on earth did you find that dress?  It is nothing short of stunning.”

“She has a fairy godmother.”

“Does that mean she can only stay till midnight?”

“More than likely.”

“Your parents are up there, doing their thing, like all of this was their work.” 

Even after I explained what they were like, she still couldn’t believe they were exactly how I portrayed them.  Given the yardstick she had lived with, she couldn’t comprehend people being so bad they would simply dump their kid.

“They’re never going to change, and it doesn’t matter.  The people who matter know the truth.  Besides, Jamieson snubbed them.  To me that sums up all our feelings towards them.”

She squeezed my hand and smiled.  Another limousine just stopped.

…

Inside the ballroom there were two hundred and ninety-eight guests.  Two could not come because of health reasons.

Everyone but the immediate family were in great spirits and, for the most part, ignored them.  Not deliberately, but because they had shown their uncharitable side.

The night was about celebrating my grandmother; it was not about her children, nor about her children using the occasion to further their own agendas.

I drifted around checking on everyone to make sure their wishes were being fulfilled.  Evelyn was making sure everything was coming out of the kitchen and onto the tables exactly as it should.  She was supposed to let the catering staff handle it. 

In the end, I had to sidetrack her before Mrs Stevens, the head housekeeper and in charge of the catering, strangled her.  It was better for her to be acquainting herself with the donors.

Before dessert was served, I had to make a speech.  I hated making speeches, or standing up in front of a crowd as big as this, or even as small as ten.

When the orchestra stopped playing music, that was my cue to step up to the podium.  By the time I reached the microphone, the noise had died.  I could have literally heard a pin drop, and nearly three hundred pairs of eyes were looking at me.

I had the prompt cards on the lectern ready to go.

A few seconds passed, then I made a decision.

“Welcome, one and all, to the Annual Gala Ball, in aid of the Wallace Charity Foundation.  We decided to dedicate this event to my grandmother, Martha Wallace.  Without her vision, her passion and her stamina, none of us would be here today.”

I looked around the room, and those who were applauding; that generosity did not extend to the family.  I wasn’t surprised.  If my father was standing here in my place, he would be basking in the applause, because he would have made it about him.

“Oddly enough, that idea she had came quite simply from the fact that, at the age of eight, my father chose to leave me here while the rest of the family went on vacation. 

She could see how that could be distressing, and I remember asking her about what happened to all the other children who were dropped somewhere by their parents simply because they were a perceived problem.

It turns out quite a few.  Not that year but the next, when I arrived once again on her doorstep, she said that I was no longer alone.  She had spent the time and money refurbishing the farm labourers’ cottages into facilities that would take up to twenty children off the street.

From there she would provide clean linen, a roof over their heads and proper food to eat.  Those that wanted to be helped stayed.  Those that didn’t, we realised we needed to work harder.

They were taught skills; they got to work on the farm because children need to be doing something, and given a basic education and lessons on how to survive out there in the world and not end up in the scrap heap of discarded and forgotten humanity.

When my cousin Evelyn arrived, we were given a new avenue to pursue.  How many people were sleeping on the streets, with no money, no prospects, and in constant danger?

We expanded and included them to the point where we had fifty here with us at any time. 

Tonight we are pleased to inform you that, with the help of your donations, we’re starting two new initiatives: the first, we are adding deserted and abandoned wives and victims of domestic violence with children and nowhere to go.  The second is fully funded wards at several hospitals to look after rape victims, and giving them the support they desperately need in the worst moment in their life.

We can’t save everybody, and it distresses me to say that, but we’re working on it.”

I let that sink in and then proposed a toast to the memory of Martha Wallace.

That done, I could see my father rise out of his chair. He’d bided his time long enough, and I suspected he was about to air his grievances.

I picked up my phone and sent him the prepared text message, just in case.  He wasn’t going to keep out of the spotlight.  This was a room he could work.

He stopped the moment it vibrated in his pocket.  He was a creature of habit and would always answer it wherever he was.

It was a simple message.  A photo of him in a sleazy hotel room, in bed with my aunt and coincidentally Evelyn’s mother.  The paragon of morality was being immoral.  And since my mother controlled the purse strings, he didn’t need to rock the boat.

He looked at the phone, then looked directly at me.  I put my phone away and stepped down.  He put his back in his pocket and sat down.

Grandma would be pleased with me.  There was no shouting match and regrettable words uttered. 

I looked over at Evelyn standing to one side of her father and talking with her family group.  There was tension there, but they were talking.

I guess it was time I tried to do the same with mine.  At the very least, I could feel my grandmother was walking beside me, ready to help in any way she could.

And yes, in that moment I got the inspiration for my next novel.

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©  Charles Heath  2026