Day 51

Why do we write?

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It seems everyone has a reason, and for all of those whom I have talked to, mostly say they do it for the love of writing.

If we were writing to make our fortune, I’d say none of us would last longer than a year. For some of us, myself included, I never gave up my day job until I retired and then could devote myself to it with more effectiveness.

That idea of doing a 10-hour day and then going home to do another was never possible. Writing took a back seat and was done when I could. I kept writing to keep the creative e juices flowing but my heart was not in it.

Yes, I finished a few stories, and a book or two, but the non-exciting part of the exercise, editing and marketing never was my strong point, and it wasn’t until I retired that it all came together, and five books were published and another twenty in various stages of completion.

I do not write with the intention of becoming an international bestselling author. It’s a nice thought, but it’s a field where there are millions of others toiling away, and some will get that break, while others may never. My stories sell, people read them, and the reviews are satisfying. That’s enough for me.

Still, one day it might happen. We can never predict the future. I might write a story that some editor might read and think it’s worthy of being published. That would be nice. But, in the meantime, I will keep creating my quirky characters who inhabit a strange world, meet others like them, and who are equally as different, and sometimes combine to create a little magic.

And as the purveyor of happy endings, and in these perilous times where we all need a little cheering up more than we realise, perhaps after the story is over, they can look back over that short period of getting to know those people that it was time well spent.

Day 50

Today’s discussion point: autobiography.

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Who’s to say whose life would be more interesting than another.

Of course, we all think our lives are meaningful, and we have done many things that would interest someone else if we were to put them down on paper.

I have read a few, and some were quite good, they went on about a specific period, or periods where they had a role that, at the time, would have been designated secret, but once that had past, people could be told what really happened.

I speak of one person who was very involved in the machinations of World War Two from the British standpoint, and I found it fascinating.

Someone else, however, would have found it very boring. It was not Winston Churchill, whose life I did read about, but someone else that very few would remember.

I like reading the life stories of other writers and some of the material is quite fascinating, and sometimes blatant name-dropping. That period between the two world wars still fascinates me, and I would have loved to be involved with that group of writers.

Just to meet and talk to Ernest Hemmingway, for one. Or F Scott Fitzgerald as another. Then there is Agatha Christie or Ngaio Marsh, or Ian Fleming. The stories he must have to tell.

Going back in time, perhaps Wilkie Collins and very definitely Charles Dickens, Anthony Trollop and a quick trip over to Russia to drop in on Leo Tolstoy or even Boris Pasternak.

As for my story …. it would be thirty-five shades of boring.

Day 50

Today’s discussion point: autobiography.

…

Who’s to say whose life would be more interesting than another.

Of course, we all think our lives are meaningful, and we have done many things that would interest someone else if we were to put them down on paper.

I have read a few, and some were quite good, they went on about a specific period, or [periods where they had a role that, at the time, would have been designated secret, but once that had past, people could be told what really happened.

I speak of one person who was very involved in the machinations of World War Two from the British standpoint, and I found it fascinating.

Someone else, however, would have found it very boring. It was not Winston Churchill, whose life I did read about, but someone else that very few would remember.

I like reading the life stories of other writers and some of the material is quite fascinating, and sometimes blatant name-dropping. That period between the two world wars still fascinates me, and I would have loved to be involved with that group of writers.

Just to meet and talk to Ernest Hemmingway, for one. Or F Scott Fitzgerald as another. Then there is Agatha Christie or Ngaio Marsh, or Ian Fleming. The stories he must have to tell.

Going back in time, perhaps Wilkie Collins and very definitely Charles Dickens, Anthony Trollop and a quick trip over to Russia to drop in on Leo Tolstoy or even Boris Pasternak.

As for my story …. it would be thirty-five shades of boring.

Day 49

A writing exercise – starting with:

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The day he sold the house on Mulberry Lane where he had laid his head to sleep every night of his life was, he thought, the happiest he had ever been.

It was not as if it started out as a house of horrors, in fact, from the moment he could remember the house, about six or seven, it had been an idyllic refuge. That was what his mother had told him, before he went to boarding school, before she remarried, before that man who told him the first day they met he was going to send him away, as far away as possible.

Those days before his world was turned upside down…

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He stood in from of the cottage, now almost resumed by the forest it had been nestled in. He just just barely see the window on the second floor, a special room his first father had built into the roof, a room with a view of the valley and the small stream that ran through it, of the fields with the cattle and sheep, or crops, and then grass as far as they could see.

It was his playground, the play hide and seek, to go down to the stream and swin on hot days in the summer, or pretend that he was a pirate on the high seas.

And then after dinner, a story from his mother, he lay his head on the pillow and dreamed of the adventures he would have when he grew up.

Then, on a cold stormy night that world changed a little. His father had been in an accident and he was not coming home. it was just going to be them, and that life would not change.

For what seemed a long time, it didn’t. Then another man came, a man who seemed to make his mother happy, but there was something about him. He didn’t like him, and he soon discovered the man didn’t like him.

There was a wedding, and they went away, leaving him with his Aunt, a rather severe woman who lived in Scotland, a long way away from his house in the forest. He was there for what seemed a long time, then hos mother returned alone and told him that his new father wanted to travel, and that she was going to travel with him and he would be going to a special school for children with parents that travelled.

He asked why he couldn’t go with them, but she said was that he was better off in the special school. He would live there, and get a special education, one that if he stay with them, he wouldn’t. Then, as suddenly as she appeared, she was gone.

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He did not know that it would be the last time he would see her. He did not know that his mother had left responsibility for him with his Aunt. He was upset when she didn’t visit him at the school, or come get him during the holidays. Those times he went to Scotland to stay with his aunt.

He did not know until he left the school that his mother had died that first year in boarding school, or that his new father had murdered he and stole her fortune and his inheritance.

And now, standing in front of that house where he had been happiest, he tried very hard to remember his father and his mother, but not remember either of them. Only that horrid man who had stolen everything from them.

That man he had buried at the back of the house down the bottom of the well.

He spend six years tracking him down, and when he made an appointment to see him, the man had not recognised him. It took a week to assume his identity and take everything back. What was left of the fortune, the inheritance which hadn’t been touched, and the house which he discovered the man had not visited or maintained. The man had perpetrated the same evil of a dozen other women, and he took all of that too.

Then he told the man what he’d done and told him if he wanted it back to come to the cottage in the forest. He was surprised the man agreed.

He had advertised the property, and had a single buyer contact him. The original owner of the property. The offer was acceptable, they shok hands on the deal, and after a final look, and a lot of memories returning briefly, he left.

Those memories were of his childhood, and now that chapter had closed, he could finally get on with his life.

…

©  Charles Heath  2025

Day 49

A writing exercise – starting with:

…

The day he sold the house on Mulberry Lane where he had laid his head to sleep every night of his life was, he thought, the happiest he had ever been.

It was not as if it started out as a house of horrors, in fact, from the moment he could remember the house, about six or seven, it had been an idyllic refuge. That was what his mother had told him, before he went to boarding school, before she remarried, before that man who told him the first day they met he was going to send him away, as far away as possible.

Those days before his world was turned upside down…

…

He stood in from of the cottage, now almost resumed by the forest it had been nestled in. He just just barely see the window on the second floor, a special room his first father had built into the roof, a room with a view of the valley and the small stream that ran through it, of the fields with the cattle and sheep, or crops, and then grass as far as they could see.

It was his playground, the play hide and seek, to go down to the stream and swin on hot days in the summer, or pretend that he was a pirate on the high seas.

And then after dinner, a story from his mother, he lay his head on the pillow and dreamed of the adventures he would have when he grew up.

Then, on a cold stormy night that world changed a little. His father had been in an accident and he was not coming home. it was just going to be them, and that life would not change.

For what seemed a long time, it didn’t. Then another man came, a man who seemed to make his mother happy, but there was something about him. He didn’t like him, and he soon discovered the man didn’t like him.

There was a wedding, and they went away, leaving him with his Aunt, a rather severe woman who lived in Scotland, a long way away from his house in the forest. He was there for what seemed a long time, then hos mother returned alone and told him that his new father wanted to travel, and that she was going to travel with him and he would be going to a special school for children with parents that travelled.

He asked why he couldn’t go with them, but she said was that he was better off in the special school. He would live there, and get a special education, one that if he stay with them, he wouldn’t. Then, as suddenly as she appeared, she was gone.

…

He did not know that it would be the last time he would see her. He did not know that his mother had left responsibility for him with his Aunt. He was upset when she didn’t visit him at the school, or come get him during the holidays. Those times he went to Scotland to stay with his aunt.

He did not know until he left the school that his mother had died that first year in boarding school, or that his new father had murdered he and stole her fortune and his inheritance.

And now, standing in front of that house where he had been happiest, he tried very hard to remember his father and his mother, but not remember either of them. Only that horrid man who had stolen everything from them.

That man he had buried at the back of the house down the bottom of the well.

He spend six years tracking him down, and when he made an appointment to see him, the man had not recognised him. It took a week to assume his identity and take everything back. What was left of the fortune, the inheritance which hadn’t been touched, and the house which he discovered the man had not visited or maintained. The man had perpetrated the same evil of a dozen other women, and he took all of that too.

Then he told the man what he’d done and told him if he wanted it back to come to the cottage in the forest. He was surprised the man agreed.

He had advertised the property, and had a single buyer contact him. The original owner of the property. The offer was acceptable, they shok hands on the deal, and after a final look, and a lot of memories returning briefly, he left.

Those memories were of his childhood, and now that chapter had closed, he could finally get on with his life.

…

©  Charles Heath  2025

Day 48

Heartbreak as inspiration

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It’s the one feeling we never want to feel, and yet we can experience it in various forms, many times during our lifetime.

Reading the average Mills and Book, there are always large doses of heartbreak, whether it is at the start when the girl expects that a particular dinner date is a proposal, but instead is the breakup, to the middle where misinterpretation of events with exes or rivals sends one or the other into a heartbreaking spiral.

it depends on the story you want to tell. You can have a spy story with an incidental affair that might lead to something more interesting, only to have one or the other caught in the crossfire. I remember one particular James Bond film where Mrs Bond was killed in a drive-by.

I must say the actress playing her was my favourite at the time, and I was very, very unhappy.

Undoubtedly, a break-up and the memories of that relationship could lead to writing a compelling narrative, and in fact, some of the more starker memories of my own have been translated into several stories and one book. So far.

Something else I realised, quite a number of autobiographies I have read have touched on the subject in many different ways, some benefitting from the experience, others finding it hard to get over, particularly when it is a first love. They are the most potent, and the most painful when it comes to an end.

Day 48

Heartbreak as inspiration

…

It’s the one feeling we never want to feel, and yet we can experience it in various forms, many times during our lifetime.

Reading the average Mills and Book, there are always large doses of heartbreak, whether it is at the start when the girl expects that a particular dinner date is a proposal, but instead is the breakup, to the middle where misinterpretation of events with exes or rivals sends one or the other into a heartbreaking spiral.

it depends on the story you want to tell. You can have a spy story with an incidental affair that might lead to something more interesting, only to have one or the other caught in the crossfire. I remember one particular James Bond film where Mrs Bond was killed in a drive-by.

I must say the actress playing her was my favourite at the time, and I was very, very unhappy.

Undoubtedly, a break-up and the memories of that relationship could lead to writing a compelling narrative, and in fact, some of the more starker memories of my own have been translated into several stories and one book. So far.

Something else I realised, quite a number of autobiographies I have read have touched on the subject in many different ways, some benefitting from the experience, others finding it hard to get over, particularly when it is a first love. They are the most potent, and the most painful when it comes to an end.

Daya 46 and 47

A writing exercise

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This end-of-week writing exercise is to take a particular painting, one of three suggestions, and write a story.

Well, I haven’t exactly been doing this forever, but as a variation, I take photographs and write stories around them.

I call it ‘A photograph from the inspiration bin’.

Nearly all of my short stories come from a photograph, either one I’ve taken or one that I’ve found on a royalty-free site.

However, today, it’s going to be different. I’m picking a painting and writing a story.

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Night Windows by Edward Hopper, 1928

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It’s not so much that my apartment building was across the street, that it was overlooking another that had an occupant who was not afraid to pull the curtains and take what privacy that might offer.

At first, it was disconcerting, because I had a little balcony and on the warm summer nights I would put a blanket down and lie down, staring up at the sky, not that any part of it could be clearly discerned.

What that balcony offered was any coolness that was on offer and the sounds of the city gently drifting up to my level. Sounds often soothing enough to put me to sleep.

But it was the apartment opposite, one level lower, a corner with three windows, and the room that was clearly set aside to sit and relax.

The first time Josie appeared in that room, the first time I saw her was the day after she moved in. It was not hard, in the confines of the apartment building on that part of the street, to notice who came and who went.

She stood at the window and surveyed what were to be her neighbours, her eyes finally resting on my balcony, not that I was looking, but when I did, our eyes met, and she smiled.

It was the beginning of summer. Life was easy, and the post-war malaise had long dissipated into a feeling that things could only get better. The newspapers were calling it the Roaring Twenties.

Over the next few weeks, she appeared at odd times, opening the windows and taking in the breeze. I took to speculating what her profession might be and landed on the most obvious showgirl.

Then, one night, I saw her peering out into the night, glancing in every direction as the rain began to fall, and I had to beat a hasty retreat.

Ten minutes later, there was a light rapping on my door; a surprise because I had yet to cultivate any acquainted in my building even though I had seen and briefly spoken to several.

I waited until a second knock and then went over to the door and opened it.

The girl from across the road, half damp from walking in the rain, water in her hair, and a few drops running down the side of her face.

“Hello,” she said.

I thought she had come to tell me to stop looking over. It was difficult not to, given how close the buildings were, and it was not as if one could look in that direction and not see her.

“Hello to you.”

“May I come on?”

I nodded and stood to one side to let her pass. A passing thought, she was very brave to enter the apartment, not knowing who was there.

I closed the door but did not lock it. She crossed to the window and looked out, then turned.

“Would you like a towel?”

“I am a bit damp, aren’t I. I misjudged how heavy it was. Yes, if you have a spare.”

I did, fetched it, and gave it to her, then I waited until she’d finished. I think it was an advantage that her hair was short.

Then, after another glance over at her apartment, one indeed partially open, the soft lighting left on casting a subdued glow over the room, she looked at me.

“I wanted to look at what my living room looked like from the outside.”

“I believe some people would kill just to get that room. You were lucky if you were rich, perhaps?”

“My grandmother’s, I’m afraid, and I am only staying there while she takes the steamer to Europe for the summer. Then it’s back to the farm.”

“First time?”

“No, we come once a year. I came this time to audition for dancing roles in stage productions or cabarets, but it’s a brutal business. A country girl like me has a lot to learn, and I’d hate to come here without anything, and try to make it.”

“Have you had any success?”

I had to admit I was surprised that she made the effort to come over, in fact, to work out which apartment I was in, that she would want to.

“No. Got sore feet and aches in places I never knew existed. It’s a lonely business. I see you out there soaking up what little breeze there is, and I wondered how you manage.”

“You should not be so trusting.”

“Call it country girl common sense, but I can tell good from bad. You spend more time pretending I’m not there. That, to me, says a little about your character. My name is Josie, short for Josephine, but I hate Jo.”

“Tim, short for Timothy, and only my parents use Timothy when they’re angry with me, which was most of the time.”

We shook hands or perhaps touched hands.

“City boy?”

“No. Midwest, I learned to ride a horse before I could walk. I don’t hate it, but there’s a lot of worlds out there, and I want to see some of it before I have to go back. How long are you here?”

“A couple of months. I don’t see success on the horizon. I thought my dancing skills were quite good. Perhaps back in Wisconsin, maybe, but not here. Can I call you a friend?”

“If you are in need of one.”

She smiled. “In a place like this, at least one.”

“Would you like to have dinner one night? There’s a diner not far away, and the food is quite good.”

“A date?”

“Dinner. Is that a date?”

“It’s whatever you want it to be. If you can work out my apartment number, call on me tomorrow night.”

…

©  Charles Heath  2025

Daya 46 and 47

A writing exercise

…

This end-of-week writing exercise is to take a particular painting, one of three suggestions, and write a story.

Well, I haven’t exactly been doing this forever, but as a variation, I take photographs and write stories around them.

I call it ‘A photograph from the inspiration bin’.

Nearly all of my short stories come from a photograph, either one I’ve taken or one that I’ve found on a royalty-free site.

However, today, it’s going to be different. I’m picking a painting and writing a story.

…

Night Windows by Edward Hopper, 1928

…

It’s not so much that my apartment building was across the street, that it was overlooking another that had an occupant who was not afraid to pull the curtains and take what privacy that might offer.

At first, it was disconcerting, because I had a little balcony and on the warm summer nights I would put a blanket down and lie down, staring up at the sky, not that any part of it could be clearly discerned.

What that balcony offered was any coolness that was on offer and the sounds of the city gently drifting up to my level. Sounds often soothing enough to put me to sleep.

But it was the apartment opposite, one level lower, a corner with three windows, and the room that was clearly set aside to sit and relax.

The first time Josie appeared in that room, the first time I saw her was the day after she moved in. It was not hard, in the confines of the apartment building on that part of the street, to notice who came and who went.

She stood at the window and surveyed what were to be her neighbours, her eyes finally resting on my balcony, not that I was looking, but when I did, our eyes met, and she smiled.

It was the beginning of summer. Life was easy, and the post-war malaise had long dissipated into a feeling that things could only get better. The newspapers were calling it the Roaring Twenties.

Over the next few weeks, she appeared at odd times, opening the windows and taking in the breeze. I took to speculating what her profession might be and landed on the most obvious showgirl.

Then, one night, I saw her peering out into the night, glancing in every direction as the rain began to fall, and I had to beat a hasty retreat.

Ten minutes later, there was a light rapping on my door; a surprise because I had yet to cultivate any acquainted in my building even though I had seen and briefly spoken to several.

I waited until a second knock and then went over to the door and opened it.

The girl from across the road, half damp from walking in the rain, water in her hair, and a few drops running down the side of her face.

“Hello,” she said.

I thought she had come to tell me to stop looking over. It was difficult not to, given how close the buildings were, and it was not as if one could look in that direction and not see her.

“Hello to you.”

“May I come on?”

I nodded and stood to one side to let her pass. A passing thought, she was very brave to enter the apartment, not knowing who was there.

I closed the door but did not lock it. She crossed to the window and looked out, then turned.

“Would you like a towel?”

“I am a bit damp, aren’t I. I misjudged how heavy it was. Yes, if you have a spare.”

I did, fetched it, and gave it to her, then I waited until she’d finished. I think it was an advantage that her hair was short.

Then, after another glance over at her apartment, one indeed partially open, the soft lighting left on casting a subdued glow over the room, she looked at me.

“I wanted to look at what my living room looked like from the outside.”

“I believe some people would kill just to get that room. You were lucky if you were rich, perhaps?”

“My grandmother’s, I’m afraid, and I am only staying there while she takes the steamer to Europe for the summer. Then it’s back to the farm.”

“First time?”

“No, we come once a year. I came this time to audition for dancing roles in stage productions or cabarets, but it’s a brutal business. A country girl like me has a lot to learn, and I’d hate to come here without anything, and try to make it.”

“Have you had any success?”

I had to admit I was surprised that she made the effort to come over, in fact, to work out which apartment I was in, that she would want to.

“No. Got sore feet and aches in places I never knew existed. It’s a lonely business. I see you out there soaking up what little breeze there is, and I wondered how you manage.”

“You should not be so trusting.”

“Call it country girl common sense, but I can tell good from bad. You spend more time pretending I’m not there. That, to me, says a little about your character. My name is Josie, short for Josephine, but I hate Jo.”

“Tim, short for Timothy, and only my parents use Timothy when they’re angry with me, which was most of the time.”

We shook hands or perhaps touched hands.

“City boy?”

“No. Midwest, I learned to ride a horse before I could walk. I don’t hate it, but there’s a lot of worlds out there, and I want to see some of it before I have to go back. How long are you here?”

“A couple of months. I don’t see success on the horizon. I thought my dancing skills were quite good. Perhaps back in Wisconsin, maybe, but not here. Can I call you a friend?”

“If you are in need of one.”

She smiled. “In a place like this, at least one.”

“Would you like to have dinner one night? There’s a diner not far away, and the food is quite good.”

“A date?”

“Dinner. Is that a date?”

“It’s whatever you want it to be. If you can work out my apartment number, call on me tomorrow night.”

…

©  Charles Heath  2025

My story 4

Most spies are loners.  They don’t like help, except in rare circumstances, and certainly don’t want a partner that could at any time be used for leverage.

Those are the rules, be responsible for or to anyone else, no permanent home, and with the motto, by any and all means available.

Oh, and the one attribute that makes them look like everyone else, that ability to blend in, anywhere, and not look like exactly what they are.

I personally have that down to a fine art.  No one notices me, even when I stand at the bar waiting to get a drink.  People seem to not see me, or there are too many other distractions to get their attention.

This time our protagonist is going to be on the way back from a disastrous mission that almost killed him.  After a year of rehabilitation, the aches and pains are still there, and the mental scars have not healed.

There are questions, so far with no answers, and that will be a thread we’ll be following.

Of course, if the protagonist is male, then the partner is female, and, of course, is the type that commands the attention of every male in a crowded bar.

Whatever happened to ordinary women?

Well, this is the spy business.  We don’t do ordinary.

But…

There’s always a first time.

I’m thinking; the proverbial shy and reserved librarian, conservatively dressed, hair always in a severe bun, glasses, and ten years off the pace for fashion trends.

Clever, and dangerous, the type of woman who goes hang gliding, or parachuting, just for the hell of it.

Maybe this time we might make a slight adjustment, she was once a librarian, one that fell for a chap from the wrong side of the tracks.  He escaped and she got five years in jail.

And there’s nothing like jail to take the innocence away and leave something very savage behind.

It’s not beyond the realms of possibility she will have fake blonde hair with green streaks.