365 Days of writing, 2026 – 76

Day 76 – Writing Exercise

That was the trouble with waiting rooms.  It was the calm before the storm.

Some days they were empty with a plethora of seats to choose from, and others where you couldn’t find anywhere to sit, or the last place was next to a screaming baby.

I hated being sick, but I hated going to the doctor more.

Today it was filling fast.  The old system was first come first served but that lasted a week because no one observed the rules.  The nurse would come out and ask who was next, and the jostling began.

Now you made an appointment and thought we were seen in appointment order.

That was fine, but as the day slid by, the times slid too, and a two pm appointment could very easily become a three thirty one.

That was the price of popularity.  Perhaps it was time for a change.

There was a new surgery on the main road not far from me, and there had been a letter drop advising of it opening.

It used all the problems of my usual practice as selling points for us, prospective patients to change.  The thing was, all the staff were Chinese.  I wondered if that meant we would have interpretation errors or language issues.

This was the problem with some of the doctors at the hospital, that language issue, only it was more international.

It was a good thing that I had a smattering of Mandarin from my days as a roving diplomat, before I met the one person who shared my desire to see the world.  She was sitting next to me, reading a novel on her Kindle, a present from our daughter.  We were both here to assess the practice.  For us and others.

Sitting in the new waiting room, the aromas of fresh paint, new carpet and an air freshener all compete with each other for dominance.   The chairs were comfortable, special seats for the aged, like us, away from the playpen for parents with children.

The magazines and newspapers were not from the 19th century, old doctors cast off’s for luxury houses, luxury cars, and hotels no one could afford.  Books in a bookshelf for all ages of children, contemporary magazines for parents with and without children.  And one or two for the retired, like us.

These were the front pages of one magazine, the golden years outfit our lives.  Melinda simply snorted almost in derision. Like me, we were still wondering when those golden years were going to start. And, she muttered, she was still trying to figure out how a 20-year-old columnist could know what our so-called golden years were.

If we had been in our 60s, they would be long gone.

There were only a few waiting; perhaps the idea of changing from the usual doctors with the gruff manner and quick turnaround hadn’t yet translated into enough disdain to make that change.

Perhaps they would let us crash test dummies pave the way, providing word-of-mouth recommendations, or not.

The young girl manning the reception desk, one of three, was bright and enthusiastic, a change from the dour, all-business middle-aged gossips, who didn’t wrestle too hard with the obligations of their NDA with their practice

The small town was one where everyone knew everyone else, and sadly, their business.  Perhaps in this practice, secrets would remain secrets.

A doctor came out and called a name. 

A lady sitting two seats along slowly got to her feet.  The sight of the youthful Chinese doctor seemed to worry her.

He added an aside, one that I translated as Don’t be scared.  I looked at her.  She seemed just that.

She had picked up on the Chinese words.

I said quietly as I stood to help her, “There’s nothing to worry about.  I wouldn’t be here if there was.”

She looked me up and down, then shuffled in his direction, shaking her head.  The last time I’d seen her was at the other surgery, giving the stern receptionist a lecture on lateness and how people didn’t have time for tardiness.

It had fallen on deaf ears.

I sat down again.

A few minutes later, it was our turn, right on the precise time of our appointment.  We were taken to a room that was equally fresh, new, and sterile, where the germs would die of fright long before they got to infect anyone.

Our doctor was female, and looked like she was fresh out of medical school and hardly had any accent at all.  Her English was perfect, and she knew her medical stuff.  She diagnosed Melinda’s ailment and a few other minor ailments that other doctors had dismissed, recommending a Chinese herbalist if she was so inclined.

She would be.

A reasonable payment, and we were on our way.

Taking the bus, as it pulled away from the curb, she asked, “What do you think?”

“Definitely.  What an interesting way to collect information on everyone who goes there.”

“You think there will be more?”

“Everywhere.  It’s the new method of intelligence gathering, and how easy is it to get everything you need to know about someone?”

“Gonna tell Joey?”

“Maybe.  He might think we’re paranoid again.”

“Maybe not then.  We’ll send a coded message.  That’ll get them thinking.”

I nodded.  I picked up a flyer off the floor.  Another new Surgery in the next town.  Chinese doctors. 

I showed it to Melinda.  “Infiltration by stealth.”  She sighed.  An intelligence agent’s work was never done; they just moved into surveillance. 

After all, who would suspect two old over-the-hill retirees?

©  Charles Heath  2026

Another excerpt from “Strangers We’ve Become” – A sequel to ‘What Sets Us Apart’

It was the first time in almost a week that I made the short walk to the cafe alone.  It was early, and the chill of the morning was still in the air.  In summer, it was the best time of the day.  When Susan came with me, it was usually much later, when the day was much warmer and less tolerable.

On the morning of the third day of her visit, Susan said she was missing the hustle and bustle of London, and by the end of the fourth she said, in not so many words, she was over being away from ‘civilisation’.  This was a side of her I had not seen before, and it surprised me.

She hadn’t complained, but it was making her irritable.  The Susan that morning was vastly different to the Susan on the first day.  So much, I thought, for her wanting to ‘reconnect’, the word she had used as the reason for coming to Greve unannounced.

It was also the first morning I had time to reflect on her visit and what my feelings were towards her.  It was the reason I’d come to Greve: to soak up the peace and quiet and think about what I was going to do with the rest of my life.

I sat in my usual corner.  Maria, one of two waitresses, came out, stopped, and there was no mistaking the relief in her manner.  There was an air of tension between Susan and Maria I didn’t understand, and it seemed to emanate from Susan rather than the other way around.  I could understand her attitude if it was towards Alisha, but not Maria.  All she did was serve coffee and cake.

When Maria recovered from the momentary surprise, she said, smiling, “You are by yourself?”  She gave a quick glance in the direction of my villa, just to be sure.

“I am this morning.  I’m afraid the heat, for one who is not used to it, can be quite debilitating.  I’m also afraid it has had a bad effect on her manners, for which I apologise.  I cannot explain why she has been so rude to you.”

“You do not have to apologise for her, David, but it is of no consequence to me.  I have had a lot worse.  I think she is simply jealous.”

It had crossed my mind, but there was no reason for her to be.  “Why?”

“She is a woman, I am a woman, she thinks because you and I are friends, there is something between us.”

It made sense, even if it was not true.  “Perhaps if I explained…”

Maria shook her head.  “If there is a hole in the boat, you should not keep bailing but try to plug the hole.  My grandfather had many expressions, David.  If I may give you one piece of advice, as much as it is none of my business, you need to make your feelings known, and if they are not as they once were, and I think they are not, you need to tell her.  Before she goes home.”

Interesting advice.  Not only a purveyor of excellent coffee, but Maria was also a psychiatrist who had astutely worked out my dilemma.  What was that expression, ‘not just a pretty face’?

“Is she leaving soon?” I asked, thinking Maria knew more about Susan’s movements than I did.

“You would disappoint me if you had not suspected as much.  Susan was having coffee and talking to someone in her office on a cell phone.  It was an intense conversation.  I should not eavesdrop, but she said being here was like being stuck in hell.  It is a pity she does not share your love for our little piece of paradise, is it not?”

“It is indeed.  And you’re right.  She said she didn’t have a phone, but I know she has one.  She just doesn’t value the idea of getting away from the office.  Perhaps her role doesn’t afford her that luxury.”

And perhaps Alisha was right about Maria, that I should be more careful.  She had liked Maria the moment she saw her.  We had sat at this very table, the first day I arrived.  I would have travelled alone, but Prendergast, my old boss, liked to know where ex-employees of the Department were, and what they were doing.

She sighed.  “I am glad I am just a waitress.  Your usual coffee and cake?”

“Yes, please.”

Several months had passed since we had rescued Susan from her despotic father; she had recovered faster than we had thought, and settled into her role as the new Lady Featherington, though she preferred not to use that title, but go by the name of Lady Susan Cheney.

I didn’t get to be a Lord, or have any title, not that I was expecting one.  What I had expected was that Susan, once she found her footing as head of what seemed to be a commercial empire, would not have time for details like husbands, particularly when our agreement made before the wedding gave either of us the right to end it.

There was a moment when I visited her recovering in the hospital, where I was going to give her the out, but I didn’t, and she had not invoked it.  We were still married, just not living together.

This visit was one where she wanted to ‘reconnect’ as she called it, and invite me to come home with her.  She saw no reason why we could not resume our relationship, conveniently forgetting she indirectly had me arrested for her murder, charges both her mother and Lucy vigorously pursued, and had the clone not returned to save me, I might still be in jail.

It was not something I would forgive or forget any time soon.

There were other reasons why I was reluctant to stay with her, like forgetting small details, an irregularity in her character I found odd.  She looked the same, she sounded the same, she basically acted the same, but my mind was telling me something was not right.  It was not the Susan I first met, even allowing for the ordeal she had been subjected to.

But, despite those misgivings, there was no question in my mind that I still loved her, and her clandestine arrival had brought back all those feelings.  But as the days passed, I began to get the impression my feelings were one-sided and she was just going through the motions.

Which brought me to the last argument, earlier, where I said if I went with her, it would be business meetings, social obligations, and quite simply her ‘celebrity’ status that would keep us apart.  I reminded her that I had said from the outset I didn’t like the idea of being in the spotlight, and when I reiterated it, she simply brushed it off as just part of the job, adding rather strangely that I always looked good in a suit.  The flippancy of that comment was the last straw, and I left before I said something I would regret.

I knew I was not a priority.  Maybe somewhere inside me, I had wanted to be a priority, and I was disappointed when I was not.

And finally, there was Alisha.  Susan, at the height of the argument, had intimated she believed I had an affair with her, but that elephant was always in the room whenever Alisha was around.  It was no surprise when I learned Susan had asked Prendergast to reassign her to other duties. 

At least I knew what my feelings for Alisha were, and there were times when I had to remember she was persona non grata.  Perhaps that was why Susan had her banished, but, again, a small detail; jealousy was not one of Susan’s traits when I first knew her.

Perhaps it was time to set Susan free.

When I swung around to look in the direction of the lane where my villa was, I saw Susan.  She was formally dressed, not in her ‘tourist’ clothes, which she had bought from one of the local clothing stores.  We had fun that day, shopping for clothes, a chore I’d always hated.  It had been followed by a leisurely lunch, lots of wine and soul searching.

It was the reason why I sat in this corner; old habits die hard.  I could see trouble coming from all directions, not that Susan was trouble or at least I hoped not, but it allowed me the time to watch her walking towards the cafe in what appeared to be short, angry steps; perhaps the culmination of the heat wave and our last argument.

She glared at me as she sat, dropping her bag beside her on the ground, where I could see the cell phone sitting on top.  She followed my glance down, and then she looked unrepentant back at me.

Maria came back at the exact moment she was going to speak.  I noticed Maria hesitate for a second when she saw Susan, then put her smile in place to deliver my coffee.

Neither spoke nor looked at each other.  I said, “Susan will have what I’m having, thanks.”

Maria nodded and left.

“Now,” I said, leaning back in my seat, “I’m sure there’s a perfectly good explanation as to why you didn’t tell me about the phone, but that first time you disappeared, I’d guessed you needed to keep in touch with your business interests.  I thought it somewhat unwisethat you should come out when the board of one of your companies was trying to remove you, because of what was it, an unexplained absence?  All you had to do was tell me there were problems and you needed to remain at home to resolve them.”

My comment elicited a sideways look, with a touch of surprise.

“It was unfortunate timing on their behalf, and I didn’t want you to think everything else was more important than us.  There were issues before I came, and I thought the people at home would be able to manage without me for at least a week, but I was wrong.”

“Why come at all.  A phone call would have sufficed.”

“I had to see you, talk to you.  At least we have had a chance to do that.  I’m sorry about yesterday.  I once told you I would not become my mother, but I’m afraid I sounded just like her.  I misjudged just how much this role would affect me, and truly, I’m sorry.”

An apology was the last thing I expected.

“You have a lot of work to do catching up after being away, and of course, in replacing your mother and gaining the requisite respect as the new Lady Featherington.  I think it would be for the best if I were not another distraction.  We have plenty of time to reacquaint ourselves when you get past all these teething issues.”

“You’re not coming with me?”  She sounded disappointed.

“I think it would be for the best if I didn’t.”

“Why?”

“It should come as no surprise to you that I’ve been keeping an eye on your progress.  You are so much better doing your job without me.  I told your mother once that when the time came I would not like the responsibilities of being your husband.  Now that I have seen what it could possibly entail, I like it even less.  You might also want to reconsider our arrangement, after all, we only had a marriage of convenience, and now that those obligations have been fulfilled, we both have the option of terminating it.  I won’t make things difficult for you if that’s what you want.”

It was yet another anomaly, I thought; she should look distressed, and I would raise the matter of that arrangement.  Perhaps she had forgotten the finer points.  I, on the other hand, had always known we would not last forever.  The perplexed expression, to me, was a sign she might have forgotten.

Then, her expression changed.  “Is that what you want?”

“I wasn’t madly in love with you when we made that arrangement, so it was easy to agree to your terms, but inexplicably, since then, my feelings for you changed, and I would be sad if we parted ways.  But the truth is, I can’t see how this is going to work.”

“In saying that, do you think I don’t care for you?”

That was exactly what I was thinking, but I wasn’t going to voice that opinion out loud.  “You spent a lot of time finding new ways to make my life miserable, Susan.  You and that wretched friend of yours, Lucy.  While your attitude improved after we were married, that was because you were going to use me when you went to see your father, and then almost let me go to prison for your murder.”

“I had nothing to do with that, other than to leave, and I didn’t agree with Lucy that you should be made responsible for my disappearance.  I cannot be held responsible for the actions of my mother.  She hated you; Lucy didn’t understand you, and Millie told me I was stupid for not loving you in return, and she was right.  Why do you think I gave you such a hard time?  You made it impossible not to fall in love with you, and it nearly changed my mind about everything I’d been planning so meticulously.  But perhaps there was a more subliminal reason why I did because after I left, I wanted to believe, if anything went wrong, you would come and find me.”

“How could you possibly know that I’d even consider doing something like that, given what you knew about me?”

“Prendergast made a passing comment when my mother asked him about you; he told us you were very good at finding people and even better at fixing problems.”

“And yet here we are, one argument away from ending it.”

I could see Maria hovering, waiting for the right moment to deliver her coffee, then go back and find Gianna, the café owner, instead.  Gianna was more abrupt and, for that reason, was rarely seen serving the customers.  Today, she was particularly cantankerous, banging the cake dish on the table and frowning at Susan before returning to her kitchen.  Gianna didn’t like Susan either.

Behind me, I heard a car stop, and when she looked up, I knew it was for her.  She had arrived with nothing, and she was leaving with nothing.

She stood.  “Last chance.”

“Forever?”

She hesitated and then shook away the look of annoyance on her face.  “Of course not.  I wanted you to come back with me so we could continue working on our relationship.  I agree there are problems, but it’s nothing we can’t resolve if we try.”

I had been trying.  “It’s too soon for both of us, Susan.  I need to be able to trust you, and given the circumstances, and all that water under the bridge, I’m not sure if I can yet.”

She frowned at me.  “As you wish.”  She took an envelope out of her bag and put it on the table.  “When you are ready, it’s an open ticket home.  Please make it sooner rather than later.  Despite what you think of me, I have missed you, and I have no intention of ending it between us.”

That said, she glared at me for a minute, shook her head, then walked to the car.  I watched her get in and the car drive slowly away.

No kiss, no touch, no looking back. 

© Charles Heath 2018-2025

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A to Z – April – 2026 – C

C is for – Coming home

“I’m sorry,” Barnaby said in his usual matter-of-fact manner, “but this is the end. You have done your bit. Now it’s time to move on.”

Sitting next to Barnaby in the back of the limousine, I could not believe what I was hearing. “This is the end?”

“No. Just the end of your service. You have gone above and beyond. We are grateful, very grateful. But now it’s time to reintegrate into the world.

“Where are we?”

“In the city we picked you up from all those years ago.”

“Cinnamon Falls?”

The limousine slowed and then stopped. The shades went up on all the windows of the car, and I could see a park, the bandstand, and a row of dead-looking rose bushes. There was a layer of snow on the ground and piled up by the side of the road.

“Your hometown.”

Was it? I was sure I came from some small backwater place, but it was so long ago, and I’d been to so many places, what I was looking at was as alien as if they had dropped me off on Mars.

“Sure as hell doesn’t look like anywhere I’d come from.”

“Well, our records don’t lie. You have your ID, which is your real name, documents to prove it, and a bank account with enough funds to tide you over till you find a job.”

“Job?”

“Yes. You know. A place where you go, toil for eight hours and then go home. You’ll get the hang of it.”

“And if I don’t?”

“Impossible. You’ve been trained to be anyone, anywhere, and do anything. I have complete faith in you.”

“Will I see you again, anyone again?”

“No. When you get out of the car, that’s it. We never existed. Now, it’s time to go.”

I could see there was no arguing with Barnaby. He had said, a long time ago, this time would come. It had. I opened the door. A cold blast of air came in.

I shrugged. “Thanks for the ride.”

In more ways than one.

I got out, took a last look at the old man, then closed the door. I watched the car drive off, until it turned the corner and disappeared.

It was the first day of the rest of my life.

Cinnamon Falls was one of those small, forgettable little towns scattered about the Midwest.  My parents had been ranchers, as had their parents before them and so on.

Other family members were shopkeepers, soldiers on the frontier, and immigrants before that. 

Now, I had no idea who they were.

My parents had died very recently, my older brother, Sherman, and his wife, Madeleine, the proverbial childhood sweetheart he’d known from grade school, who were the ranchers now, were the only family I knew.

The rest had died out or moved on.

I stood on the sidewalk and looked at the bandstand.  My first kiss was under that roof, with a girl called Amy Deacon, the minister’s daughter.

He was a fire-and-brimstone preacher of the old school who castigated his flock every Sunday about sins and the wrath of God.  Everyone was too scared not to turn up.

I wondered what had happened to her.  Married to Archie, her prom date no doubt.  I was going to ask her, but somehow never got around to it.  She was my first love, the one who really hurt when it didn’t work out.

The first flakes of snow that had been chasing us into town started to fall, and it was going to get cold.  There was no time to look up whether Sherman, my brother, was still on the farm; that was a tomorrow job.

Today I’d get a room at the hotel and decide what to do tomorrow.

The Falls Motel was old and decrepit when I left 20 years ago and hadn’t improved except for a coat of paint.

The sign had a missing ‘l’ in Falls, and the no vacancy sign had no ‘ancy’.  There were three cars outside the 20 rooms, which meant it was not full.

Darkness was setting in as I reached the front door, and it opened with a screech from unoiled hinges.  Perhaps that was how the receptionist knew there was a customer.

Or not.  After a minute, I banged on the desk bell, the one that had a handwritten sign that said, ‘ring for service’. 

Not immediate service anyway.

A girl about 15 or so came out of the back room, swaying to music that I couldn’t hear.  Ear buds.

She pulled one out and said, “What do you want?”

The obvious, I thought.  “You do have rooms for the night, don’t you?”

She looked at me like I was from another planet.  “Duh.  You want a room?”

“Please.”

She shoved a book in front of me with a pen without a lid.  “Sign in.”

I put my name and no address because I didn’t have one, then scribbled a signature.

“Card or cash.”

“Cash.”  I pulled out my wallet.

“A hundred bucks.”

It was a bit more than the last time I stayed there.

She slapped a key with the number 10 attached to it.  “You want breakfast, the diner’s 200 yards up the road.  Leave by 10 am.”

By the time I got to the door, she was gone.

The snow was falling harder by the time I reached the door.  Two rooms I passed that had cars out the front had TV’s blaring. 

When I opened the door, I was greeted by a combination of disuse and disinfectant.  It could be worse.  It could be better.

The bathroom had soap and shampoo, the bed had clean sheets, and the TV had CNN.  It was as much as anyone could hope for.

Like any time in a new or different city, I woke slightly disoriented.  It took a minute or two to remember who I was and why I was there.  Not on an operation, but as a cast-off.

It was still dark, but early, about the time I usually woke.  The snow had stopped, but the cold had become more intense.  I put the air conditioner on, but it only blew cold air.

I dressed and headed up to the diner.

It was once owned by a relative, but it was clear that someone else owned it now.  None of my relatives was Chinese.  I sat at the counter, and a middle-aged lady who looked like one of my grade teachers served coffee.

There were a half dozen customers, some sitting in booths, and the chef behind the servery was looking busy.  He shoved two plates of fried stuff on the servery and banged a bell.  The middle-aged lady collected and delivered them to a man and a woman in a booth.

They had been arguing quietly as I came in and were now looking at me.  Townspeople trying to identify a stranger, perhaps.

The middle-aged lady returned.  “From outta town?”

“Yes and no.  I’ll have the special.”

It didn’t say what it was, but it was one of three items on the menu board above the servery.

She wrote it down and gave it to the chef.

The coffee was oddly good.

A police car pulled up outside the diner in a specially marked parking space, and a Deputy got out.  He was slightly older than me, bigger and stronger and in his tailored uniform looked good.

Ben Frasher.  Dad was a sheriff; his dad was a sheriff, it was how things worked.  Ben, though, has been a wild youth, so it was a surprise to see he had followed in his father’s footsteps.

He adjusted the uniform after getting out, holstered the gun, looked at his reflection on the car window, and then came in.

A younger girl, a waitress come bounding out of the back.  “Deputy Frasher, the usual?”

He smiled.  “Of course, Daisy.”  A nod to the middle-aged lady, a quick look around at the customers, and then stopping at me.

I’d changed considerably in 20 years, and he might not recognise me.

“Jack Dawson?”  There was incredulity in his tone.

“It might not be.”

“But there again it might.  When did you get back?”

To him, it seemed like it was only yesterday I left town.

“Last night.”

He came over and sat on the seat next to mine.  I would have preferred he hadn’t, but he was the law.

“Been home?”

“No.”

“Going home?”

“Depends.”

My brother was either going to welcome me or shoot me.  He had threatened the latter when I told him I had to go.  It wasn’t for the reasons he thought it was, and not the lies certain people spread after I was gone.

20 years was a long time, maybe they’d forgotten, but knowing this town, I doubted it.

“You won’t be welcome.”

An understatement.  “It’s been a long time.”

“I can take you, of you like.  It might help prevent trouble.”

It might, or I might not get there.  The Frashers, father and sons, never liked us.  “I’ve got to collect a car and take myself.  Thanks for offering.”

The young waitress put a takeaway cup of coffee on the counter in front of him and smiled.

He nodded in her direction.  “Thanks, Daisy.”  He picked it up and walked slowly towards the door, then stopped and turned.  “No trouble, Jack.  This is a peaceful town now.”

It was odd that he thought that I would be the one to start any trouble when, in the first instance, in what could only be described as an ambush, father and son Frasher came after my brother and me based on a lie.

And if anything, the only one in our family who had the right to pick up a shotgun and use it would be me, not my brother.  We both knew who the problem was and who took the fall, but it was how they spun the story after I left.

I was never expected to come back.  I never expected that I would be deposited back in my hometown. 

Maybe Barnaby didn’t know what he had done, but that was hard to believe when he often bragged that he knew everything and could be trusted.  This was just the sort of stunt he would pull, either as a test or an active scenario.

It was not a test.

It was a scenario that was designed to take a problem off his hands.

The middle-aged server dropped a takeaway coffee on the counter in front of me.  “It’s cold out, and you’ll need it.”

“You weren’t one of my grade teachers, were you?  Miss Penman?”  I thought I recognised her.

She smiled.  “My mother.  You’re Jack Dawson.  She always said you were one of the good ones.  I didn’t believe for a moment you were the one who burned the Frasher barn down.  They haven’t improved over the years, doubt they ever will.  You were lucky to escape this place.”

She picked up the empty plate.  “Don’t hang around.  Go see your brother, then leave quietly.  The town is not the same one you left behind.”

I’d seen that expression before, many times.  Fear.  And sadness.

“I’m not planning on staying.  I wasn’t planning on visiting, but sometimes shit happens.”

“That it does.”

The car rental place had three cars out front.  The storefront had been recently painted, and the windows looked new.

It looked to me like they’d been replaced, and a closer look, before going in, showed glass fragments inside, under the ledge.

Intimidation?

The man behind the counter was not a local.  The car company was a branch of a well-known brand.  He looked up as I came in.

“How can I help you?”

“I have a car booked.”

“Name?”

“Dawson.”

He looked at his computer and frowned.  “This tells me you cancelled the booking.”

“Ten minutes ago?”

He looked at the screen.  He shook his head and didn’t look at me.

“Frasher called you.  Which car was set aside?”

“The red Acura.”

I held out my hand.  “Don’t mess with the people who made the booking.  Frasher is about to find that out.”

He took the key off the wall rack and gave it to me.  “There’s no excess if you have an accident.  Try to return it in the same condition as you picked it up.  A full tank of gas would be appreciated.  Have a nice day, Mr Dawson.”

Before I got in the car, I looked up and down the street.  Next block, tucked in behind a Ford, was a cruiser.  Watching and waiting.

The Frashers were worried.  My return caused them more angst than my family simply because I was the one who knew the truth.

I got in the car, pulled out of the parking space and onto the main road that passed through the town, and then on to the crossroad five miles outside of town.

The police cruiser followed me, keeping pace.

At the intersection where the lane to what used to be my home and the main road in and out of town, two cruisers and a large Suburban, the vehicle of choice for the current sheriff, blocked the three roads.

Another cruiser joined the one behind me, and when I stopped, about five cars from the roadblock, they stopped a similar distance behind me.

An odd thought popped into my head: if I had a gang, they could be robbing the main street shops right now because all the police were here.

I typed a message on the phone and sent it to the one number in my contact list, then got out of the car.  I did not have a weapon like I would usually, so it was an unusual feeling.

It is, I thought, what it is.  not the time to be worrying about consequences.

The sheriff and his mentors did likewise; those other than the sheriff waited by their cars, weapons drawn but not pointing them at me.

Yet.

I walked to the front of my car and leaned against the bonnet, hands where they could see them.  Deputies in this county had a reputation for shooting first and asking questions later.

The sheriff walked five steps towards me and stopped.  He took a moment, then took off the dark glasses.  He looked old and tired.

“Sheriff Frasher,” I said in my most congenial tone.  What came out sounded like I was being strangled.

“Jack.”  He shifted his weight from foot to foot, as if his boots were new and hurting his feet.  Then, “You need to turn around and go back to the airport, and back to where you came from.  This town doesn’t need or want you.”

“I think that’s more about you not wanting me here, Sheriff.”

“I want what’s best for the town.  That means not having you here to stir up trouble.”

I looked around at the deputies by their vehicles.  Three of them were Frashers.  I guess anyone could be a Deputy these days.

“I’m not here to stir up trouble.  I’m just here to see my brother, but with all this attention, I have to wonder why you don’t want me to see him.”

“He might not want to see you.”

True, but the sheriff could not know that for sure.  “Well, be that as it may, I will still be visiting my brother.”

“Just… ” His cell phone started ringing. 

I saw him look at the screen with a perplexed expression before answering.  The stiffening of the shoulders and the almost standing to attention told me this was neither a conversation he wanted, but, most of all, wasn’t expecting.

To tell the truth, neither was I, nor at least not as soon as this.  But then Barnaby always knew how to put the wind up people, people whom others never dared to try.

I heard the sheriff distinctly say no several times, and ‘of course’ once near the end of the conversation.

A few seconds later, it was over.  After another long, mournful glare at the screen, he put the phone back in his pocket.

Then he looked at me with a curious expression. 

“Just who the hell are you?”

“No one.  I’m sure if you looked me up, you would find no trace of me from the day I left this town till I arrived back yesterday.”

“Then how…”

“That is a long story.”

A sudden gust of wind came from the north, bringing with it the promise of more snow.  It was not the time to be standing around talking.

I shivered, partly because of the cold, but mostly from a momentary memory of another time, in another country, with similar people, people obsessed with wealth and power.

Frasher was either too stupid or too stubborn to let this go.

“Enlighten me.”

I sighed.  Light snow started to fall out of the sky.  The wind picked up, and a blizzard was in the offing.  I left in a blizzard, to me it was an omen.

“Giles Bentley, Sheriff.”  I held up my cell phone.  “You have a choice.  Now.  In five minutes, you won’t.  I’m sure you and your deputies have better things to do.”

He still didn’t look happy, but then, once I mentioned the name that had not been mentioned before, he didn’t have much of a choice.  And given his expression, he knew he had overstepped.

“Wrap it up, boys, and get back to work.  Now.”

They didn’t need to be told twice.  The snow was coming down much thicker and settling on everything.  Another half hour we would be snowed in.

I got back in my car and started the engine.  By the time I was ready to drive, all but the Sheriff’s vehicle had gone.  A last look at me, he got in his vehicle and moved to the side of the road.

As I drove past, I could see him on his cell phone, talking and gesturing, like a man who knew his time was up.

Everybody had a piper they had to pay.  Frasher was no exception.  Barnaby was no exception.  Neither was I.  There was always someone above our pay grade pulling strings.

My father made a mistake 20 years ago, and I paid the price for that mistake.  No one but my father and Giles Bentley knew exactly what it was, and Frasher had been the one to oversee it.

Lies had been told by all three to cover it up.

I was never supposed to return to Cinnamon Falls, but Frasher senior and my father had both died recently, and Barnaby decided that I should not be punished any more.

It was the subject of a text I received just as I was about to finally fall asleep.  Typical poor timing that was Barnaby’s modus operandi.

I hadn’t been retired.  I had been released, my sentence over.  My troubles were over. 

I drove those last five miles wondering if I could ever just close my eyes and sleep peacefully, the sort of sleep where you weren’t expecting trouble, where you no longer had to look over your shoulder.  A 20-year habit that would be hard to break.

I drove under the sign that announced you were entering the Excelsior Ranch, the Dawson family home for over a hundred and fifty years, reputedly won by Alexander Dawson in a card game.

Such stories were told and retold until they became just that, stories with no basis in fact; they just sounded good on paper.

The thing is, it was true, we had the piece of paper, signed by the hapless Bentley, the gambler and wastrel relative, who lost it in a card game, a document witnessed by a Frasher.

It was a story that changed depending on who told it.  Now it didn’t matter.  All promises and obligations were discharged.  The Excelsior belonged to the Dawsons.  The County Sheriff would always be a Frasher, and the Bentleys had a presidential candidate who didn’t need a scandal.

I felt sorry for Sheriff Frasher.  Well, maybe not.  The Frashers always were dumb as dog shit.

I stopped the car at the bottom of the stairs leading up to the veranda where Sherman and Madeleine were waiting.

I got out, and for a moment, the snow stopped swirling.  Long enough for me to get up the stairs and under cover.

“Jack.”  Sherman held out his hand.

“Sherman.”  I took it, and we shook hands like two men sealing a deal.

Then it was hugs all round until I saw Amy Deacon standing back.  She smiled and said, in her usual laconic manner, “You are a sight for sore eyes, young Jack.”

I was home, once and for all.

©  Charles Heath  2025-2026

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 76

Day 76 – Writing Exercise

That was the trouble with waiting rooms.  It was the calm before the storm.

Some days they were empty with a plethora of seats to choose from, and others where you couldn’t find anywhere to sit, or the last place was next to a screaming baby.

I hated being sick, but I hated going to the doctor more.

Today it was filling fast.  The old system was first come first served but that lasted a week because no one observed the rules.  The nurse would come out and ask who was next, and the jostling began.

Now you made an appointment and thought we were seen in appointment order.

That was fine, but as the day slid by, the times slid too, and a two pm appointment could very easily become a three thirty one.

That was the price of popularity.  Perhaps it was time for a change.

There was a new surgery on the main road not far from me, and there had been a letter drop advising of it opening.

It used all the problems of my usual practice as selling points for us, prospective patients to change.  The thing was, all the staff were Chinese.  I wondered if that meant we would have interpretation errors or language issues.

This was the problem with some of the doctors at the hospital, that language issue, only it was more international.

It was a good thing that I had a smattering of Mandarin from my days as a roving diplomat, before I met the one person who shared my desire to see the world.  She was sitting next to me, reading a novel on her Kindle, a present from our daughter.  We were both here to assess the practice.  For us and others.

Sitting in the new waiting room, the aromas of fresh paint, new carpet and an air freshener all compete with each other for dominance.   The chairs were comfortable, special seats for the aged, like us, away from the playpen for parents with children.

The magazines and newspapers were not from the 19th century, old doctors cast off’s for luxury houses, luxury cars, and hotels no one could afford.  Books in a bookshelf for all ages of children, contemporary magazines for parents with and without children.  And one or two for the retired, like us.

These were the front pages of one magazine, the golden years outfit our lives.  Melinda simply snorted almost in derision. Like me, we were still wondering when those golden years were going to start. And, she muttered, she was still trying to figure out how a 20-year-old columnist could know what our so-called golden years were.

If we had been in our 60s, they would be long gone.

There were only a few waiting; perhaps the idea of changing from the usual doctors with the gruff manner and quick turnaround hadn’t yet translated into enough disdain to make that change.

Perhaps they would let us crash test dummies pave the way, providing word-of-mouth recommendations, or not.

The young girl manning the reception desk, one of three, was bright and enthusiastic, a change from the dour, all-business middle-aged gossips, who didn’t wrestle too hard with the obligations of their NDA with their practice

The small town was one where everyone knew everyone else, and sadly, their business.  Perhaps in this practice, secrets would remain secrets.

A doctor came out and called a name. 

A lady sitting two seats along slowly got to her feet.  The sight of the youthful Chinese doctor seemed to worry her.

He added an aside, one that I translated as Don’t be scared.  I looked at her.  She seemed just that.

She had picked up on the Chinese words.

I said quietly as I stood to help her, “There’s nothing to worry about.  I wouldn’t be here if there was.”

She looked me up and down, then shuffled in his direction, shaking her head.  The last time I’d seen her was at the other surgery, giving the stern receptionist a lecture on lateness and how people didn’t have time for tardiness.

It had fallen on deaf ears.

I sat down again.

A few minutes later, it was our turn, right on the precise time of our appointment.  We were taken to a room that was equally fresh, new, and sterile, where the germs would die of fright long before they got to infect anyone.

Our doctor was female, and looked like she was fresh out of medical school and hardly had any accent at all.  Her English was perfect, and she knew her medical stuff.  She diagnosed Melinda’s ailment and a few other minor ailments that other doctors had dismissed, recommending a Chinese herbalist if she was so inclined.

She would be.

A reasonable payment, and we were on our way.

Taking the bus, as it pulled away from the curb, she asked, “What do you think?”

“Definitely.  What an interesting way to collect information on everyone who goes there.”

“You think there will be more?”

“Everywhere.  It’s the new method of intelligence gathering, and how easy is it to get everything you need to know about someone?”

“Gonna tell Joey?”

“Maybe.  He might think we’re paranoid again.”

“Maybe not then.  We’ll send a coded message.  That’ll get them thinking.”

I nodded.  I picked up a flyer off the floor.  Another new Surgery in the next town.  Chinese doctors. 

I showed it to Melinda.  “Infiltration by stealth.”  She sighed.  An intelligence agent’s work was never done; they just moved into surveillance. 

After all, who would suspect two old over-the-hill retirees?

©  Charles Heath  2026

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 3

Having got through my quota of words for the NANOWRIMO project, I turned my mind to another story I’m writing.

It started out as a bit of a lark, just to see if I could write a story that fitted around with an old castle we’d visited in Tuscany, after hearing stories of the pockmarks on the walls attributed to gunfire.

It conjured up a group of men occupying it with a single mission: to capture and return a high-ranking German boffin who wanted to defect to the Allies.

The twist is, of course, that the occupiers are British, sent there to facilitate the repatriation to England, but the men are really German double agents.

A bit far-fetched, but from some of the stories I’ve read and shows I’ve seen, it’s not quite beyond the realms of possibility.

And, after all, it is fiction.

So, parts of this story have been running around in my head, waiting for a time to put it on paper.  Now is that time.

So, three more episodes have just been completed, and I’m thinking of watching Von Ryans Express again just to keep the mood going.

Oh, and the NANOWRIMO project, it’s proceeding apace.

My spy survives the action-packed start, battered and bruised, and contemplating his next move. It’s tough where the only retirement plan you have open to you is death

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 2

I’m sitting at my desk surrounded by any number of scraps of paper with more storylines, written excerpts, parts of stories, and a number of chapters of a work in progress.

Does this happen to anyone else?

The business of writing requires a talent to keep focused on the one project and silence all the other screaming voices in your head, pouring out their side of the story.

But it’s not working.

I try to be determined in my efforts to edit my current completed novel, after letting it ‘rest’ in my head for a few months.

I planned to have some time off, but all of those prisoners in my head started clamouring for my attention.  A story I started some time ago needs revising, another story I wrote last year for NANOWRIMO has come back to haunt me, and characters, well, they’re out in the waiting room, pacing up and down, ready to tell me their life stories.

Is the temporary cure coffee or wine?

Now I think I really do need a holiday

Or a trip to the asylum.  Thank God this is not the early 20th century, or I might never return.  And if it’s named Bellview, it would be just another story to be written.

The author who went Bonkers!

And that spy who’s at the end of his tether, just think James Bond movie full on action start and you’ve got the first chapter done!

Does it ever end?

 

 

 

A to Z – April – 2026 – B

B is for – Bullies can be beaten

It was the sort of stuff spy novels had in abundance.

But it was my imagination, fuelled by scores of those very same stories all rolled into one, that I used to explain why I was missing from school to classmates who thought I was the most boring and uninteresting person they had ever known.

I knew what they’d say, so I was going to take them on a journey, and in my childish mind, I was going to make it as believable as I could.

Of course, what a child imagines to be true and what is are two very different things.

But, like everything that ever happened to me, it didn’t start out as an opportunity to do the right thing; it was at the end of some very stinging barbs from Alistair Goodall, my tormentor and school bully.

I glared at him with all the hatred I could muster, which, considering he was a foot taller and about 50 pounds heavier than I, was really a waste of time.

He had just told everyone within hearing range that my absence had simply been because I was too scared to come to school, because he had threatened to beat me up.

It was true, but I wasn’t going to let that be my defining moment. Instead, I blurted out, “The whole family had to go into hiding because of things my father knew, and his life was in danger.”

Yes, we had gone away, but it was to another country, where my mother’s parents lived, and they had been killed in an accident. It was quite sudden; my mother and sister had gone first, and then my father and I followed. He had difficulty getting away, and it had been a last-minute decision.

He had to come back, and despite my pleas to leave me with my mother, he dragged me back, oblivious to the predicament I was in with Alistair Goodall.

Goodall looked at me incredulously at first, then with a smile. “Good try, squirt. You almost had me believing it. Your dad an informer? My dad’s a cop, so I’ll ask him, but we both know what he’s going to say.” He took a step closer. I braced for impact.

But then, realising I was digging a bigger hole, one that I might not get out of, “Your dad wouldn’t have a clue about witness protection. It wouldn’t be witness protection if everyone knew about it. This is stuff beyond his pay grade.”

I remembered a TV show I had seen while away, about witness protection, and how it was supposed to be secret, but the witness was sold out by the bad guy’s man in the police force.

“My dad’s very important,” he said, his voice raised an octave, a sure sign he was losing this war of words.

“Then if you went home and started asking questions about witnesses who are supposed to be in protection, then he would lose his job, or worse, go to jail for blabbing secrets.”

“Your blabbing secrets.”

“You’re threatening to beat me up if I don’t tell you where I’ve been. Just threatening me into telling you is going to get you into a heap of trouble. I suggest you let it go, and we keep this between us. Or can’t you keep secrets?”

“I can too.”

The whine in his voice told me that I had bested him, but for how long was a moot question. He was not going to keep this a secret.

The school term ended in an uneasy truce between Alistair and me, and the whole school broke for the summer holidays. It meant I could escape Alistair’s persecution, at least for a few weeks, time enough for the rest of the family to return, and a semblance of normalcy to return.

I had just about put the great lie out of my mind when Alistair turned up outside my house with a smug smile. That idea of keeping secrets was not one of his strong points.

“You’re really for it, now, squirt. My dad knows nothing about this crap story of yours. In fact, he copped a serve at work, and he’s coming around to put the pair of you straight.”

Damn. Why could the miserable twisted arse just let it go?

“You want to be anywhere but here when he gets here.”

He walked off laughing, thinking he’d bought me a whole new world of pain.

My father was home for a week, which was a shame, because he was never home, always busy, too busy to be bothered with any of us. It would have been better if he hadn’t, or my mother was here, which she was not, still delayed in her return.

I spent a good hour trying to think of how I was going to get out of this one, but whatever I did, there was no chance I was not going to get a beating for this. Goodall was a copper, and although my father said he was a bully and a terrible excuse for a local plod, as he called him, he was still the law. Previous infractions I had been accused of were all true, and it had got me into trouble and a warning; there had better not be a next time.

This was the next time, and it was a doozy.

There was only one path I could go down.

My father was in his study when I went to look for him. He was always working on something, with books and charts all over the desk. I never asked, and he never volunteered what his job was, but I would have to ask one day.

I knocked on the door and waited a minute or two before he asked me to come in.

“Did I hear you talking to someone before?”

“Alistair Goodall, bully son of the local copper. As bad as his father, he uses him as a shield. I’d complain about him, but you keep saying I have to man up. There’s no manning up against the likes of him.”

I had considered whinging about the kid, but I knew my father wouldn’t accept that as trying hard enough to find my own solution, and it was useless telling him there wasn’t one.

He looked at. “Your mother said you were being bullied. Why didn’t you come and see me?”

“You’re never home, and you reckon I have to sort it out myself. Bit hard when he’s taller and heavier than I am. And I don’t think you’d appreciate me hitting him with a baseball bat.”

“Drastic but effective, no doubt, but not worth the jail time. Why are you telling me this?”

“He wanted to know why I was away recently. I couldn’t tell him; he threatened to beat me up, so I made up a lie. The truth was too lame for a moron like him.”

“What lie?”

I told him and watched the already dark features go a lot darker.

“And you expected he wouldn’t take it to his father for confirmation?”

“Plods don’t get told anything, of course, he wouldn’t know, and even if it was true, no one from up the chain would share that with a fool like Goodall. Even I know that much.”

“How do you know all this stuff?”

“Reading. I’ve read a lot of books, seen films and TV shows. I know a lot of it is make-believe, but there has to be elements of it that are true. The point is that I told Alistair that it was a secret and asked him to keep it. I mean, in real circumstances, we would be trusting him, which you would think from all the bluster that he could. If it had been a test, he failed spectacularly. As for his father, sure, he would understand the nature of witness protection and the necessity for secrecy, so blabbing it to his superiors was wrong on so many levels. I’m sure they would have said they knew nothing about it, even if they did.”

My father thought about that for a minute, perhaps looking to point out the flaws in the logic, but I couldn’t see any.

“I don’t like Goodall. Got on my wrong side when he first became a Sergeant. Too smug by half, and, as you say, a bully who uses his position. You were wrong to lie. Now, go upstairs. I’ll deal with Goodall.”

I was sitting behind the wall at the top of the stairs, waiting for Goodall to come. I wondered if he would bring the toad Alistair with him.

The pounding on the door almost made my heart stop. My father took his time to answer the door, and then, “Sergeant Goodall, what do we owe the honour of this visit?” It was the most pleasant tone I’d ever heard my father use, to anyone.

“Mr. Laramie…” Goodall senior only had one level of speaking, loud and confrontational.

“Sergeant Goodall, there are two things I expect from any visitor who comes to my door: that the visitor addresses me in a civil tone and the other, not to make their cases on my doorstep. Now, if you give me your word you will be civil, I will invite you in.”

He must have nodded because I heard footsteps and the door closed. His office was on the ground floor, up the passage. I would be able to hear them if the door to the office weren’t closed.

“Now, Sergeant Goodall, what exactly is the problem?”

“Your son is telling preposterous lies.”

“Your son is a bully, and my son fears going to school because of him. I think you should be attending to your son’s proclivities rather than worrying about what my son says. Most kids his age speak utter gibberish at the best of times.”

A moment’s silence before, “It’s not the fact, it’s lies, it’s the nature of the lie.”

“Oh. The fact that we were away. Well, there’s something else you should be admonishing that wretch of a child of yours for. My son told him the truth. and gave him a warning that it was not to be put about, in fact, as I understand it, he told your son that it was to be kept secret, and because he believed your son, being the son of a respectable policeman who understands the nature of these sorts of secrets, could keep it. The fact that he couldn’t keep that simple secret disappointed my son, disappointed me, and disappointed the people who arranged our sojourn, while some very nasty people were put away. They are, at the very least, extremely disappointed that you were poking around in matters that were way above your pay grade. If my son comes home any time in the new year complaining about your son, I will forget about being magnanimous this one time, in the hope you can address the issues you have; if he comes home with a complaint, all bets are off. Do I make myself clear?”

“He was not lying?”

“He was trying to avoid being beaten up by a thug, Goodall. He trusted your boy, and he let him down badly. This matter should not be discussed, here or anywhere, and I expect by the time you pass through my front door, the matter of our sojourn will be forgotten, and the problem with your child will be on the way to being resolved. Now, if that’s all….”

A few seconds later, I heard Goodall being bundled out the door, and it closed firmly behind him.

My father took a risk, but it paid off.

By the end of the summer holidays, Goodall had moved on to another station and taken his wretched son with him.

Goodall wasn’t the only bully at that school, but I learned a new way to deal with them, one that didn’t include elaborate lies. Those I saved for the stories I started writing.

©  Charles Heath 2025-2026

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 75

Day 75 – One page at a time

Why Writing a Novel One Page at a Time Is the Secret Weapon Most Authors Overlook

“Write a page a day and the novel will finish itself.” — Anonymous

If you’ve ever stared at a blank screen, imagined the weight of a 70,000‑word manuscript, and felt the panic rise like a tide, you’re not alone. The biggest obstacle to finishing a novel is rarely a lack of ideas; it’s the mental mountain of “I have to finish this whole book right now.”

What if you could dismantle that mountain, one tiny, manageable step at a time? The answer is surprisingly simple: abandon the fantasy of “finishing the novel” as a single, monolithic goal and instead commit to writing just one page a day.

In this post, we’ll explore why the one‑page approach works, the psychology behind it, real‑world examples, and a step‑by‑step action plan you can start using tonight. By the time you reach the end, you’ll see that the “surprise” isn’t that you finish—it’s how effortlessly you get there.


1. The Myth of the “Finish‑the‑Book” Goal

A. The All‑Or‑Nothing Trap

When you set a goal like “write a novel,” the brain treats it as an all‑or‑nothing problem. The sheer scale triggers the same response as an Everest climb: overwhelm, fear, procrastination. Research from the University of Hertfordshire shows that people who frame large projects as a single goal are 30 % more likely to abandon them than those who break the project into micro‑tasks.

B. Perfectionism’s Hidden Hand

A “finish the book” mindset also feeds perfectionism. You wait for the perfect scene, the perfect line, the perfect chapter—until the page never appears. The result? Writer’s block masquerading as high standards.

C. The Illusion of Progress

Even if you write a little each day, the numbers stay hidden. Ten pages written in a week feels modest when you’re measuring against “70‑page chapters.” The lack of visible milestones robs you of the dopamine hit that keeps motivation alive.


2. Why One Page Works

BenefitHow It Helps You
Concrete, measurable outputA page is easy to count. You see progress instantly.
Low entry barrierTen minutes of focus can produce a page—no marathon sessions needed.
Reduces anxietySmaller stakes mean less fear of failure.
Builds a habit loopCue → Write one page → Reward (tick, momentum) → Repeat.
Creates a natural editing rhythmYou finish a page, step back, and can revise before moving on.

The Science of Micro‑Goals

A 2019 study published in Psychology of Learning found that micro‑goals (tasks taking under 15 minutes) trigger a greater sense of competence than larger goals, boosting intrinsic motivation. One page typically fits that time frame, making it the perfect sweet spot for the brain’s reward system.


3. Real‑World Proof: Authors Who Swore by the Page

AuthorMethodResult
Stephen King“Write 1,000 words a day” (~4 pages) – never missed a day for decades.Over 60 novels; the habit kept his output steady.
Haruki MurakamiWrites 2–3 pages each morning before his day job.Completed Kafka on the Shore and 1Q84 while running marathons.
Anne Lamott“Write one paragraph a day; if you can’t, write a sentence.”Finished Bird by Bird while caring for a newborn.
Neil GaimanSets a daily “page target” for short stories; uses a physical notebook to count.Produced American Gods and a prolific short‑story catalog.

Notice the pattern: the smallest unit—page, paragraph, even sentence—becomes the anchor. None of these writers waited for the perfect novel outline; they just kept turning pages.


4. The Surprising Result: You’ll Actually Finish

When you commit to one page per day, three things happen simultaneously:

  1. Momentum builds – Each page creates a tiny sense of achievement that compounds.
  2. Structure emerges – By the 30th day, you’ll have a “first draft” that can be reorganised, not a jumble of ideas.
  3. Deadline pressure evaporates – The goal is no longer a distant, intimidating deadline but a daily ritual you can control.

Mathematically, 70 pages (the rough length of a short novel) is just 70 days—a little over two months. Even if you write three pages a week, you’ll be done in under six months. The math feels doable, the habit feels natural, and the surprise is that you actually cross the finish line.


5. How to Implement the One‑Page Method Right Now

Step 1: Define Your “One Page”

  • Word count: Roughly 250–300 words (standard manuscript format).
  • Format: Use a dedicated notebook or a digital file titled “Page 1 – Draft” so you never lose track.

Step 2: Set a Concrete Cue

  • Morning coffee → open the document.
  • After lunch walk → pull out your notebook.
  • Pre‑bedtime → fire up a blank page.
    Pick a cue that fits your daily rhythm; consistency beats intensity.

Step 3: Time‑Box It (Optional)

  • Set a timer for 15 minutes.
  • Write until the timer ends or you’ve filled the page—whichever comes first.
    If you finish early, use the extra minutes to edit the page you just wrote.

Step 4: Track and Celebrate

  • Physical tracker: Tick a calendar for each page completed.
  • Digital tracker: Use a habit‑app (Habitica, Streaks) to log progress.
  • Celebrate weekly milestones (e.g., “10 pages = 10‑minute coffee break”).

Step 5: Review Every 10 Pages

  • Pause, read what you’ve written, and note any patterns, gaps, or ideas for restructuring.
  • This mini‑revision prevents the dreaded “edit‑later” pileup.

Step 6: Adjust When Needed

  • If life gets busy, aim for half a page instead of skipping entirely.
  • If inspiration strikes, you can double‑up—but keep the habit as the core.

6. Overcoming Common Objections

ObjectionReality CheckPractical Fix
“One page a day is too slow.”A finished novel is a marathon, not a sprint.Remember the compound effect: 1 page × 365 days = 365 pages—enough for a full novel and a sequel.
“What about quality?”Quality emerges from revision, not first‑draft speed.Use the 10‑page review to tidy prose and tighten plot.
“I’ll lose momentum on a bad day.”Bad days happen; the habit is forgiving.Write a sentence or bullet outline on off days—still a page in the notebook.
“My story needs big scenes; a page feels fragmented.”Treat each page as a scene slice; you can always expand later.Write a “scene map” after 10 pages to see where each fragment fits.
“I’m a full‑time worker; I can’t spare 15 minutes.”Micro‑tasks fit into any schedule.Pair the page with existing routines (commute, lunch break).

7. Bonus: Enhancing the One‑Page Habit with Simple Tools

  1. Pomodoro Timer – 2×7‑minute intervals give you a focused burst plus a quick break.
  2. Word Processor Templates – Pre‑set margins, font (Times New Roman, 12 pt), and line spacing; you won’t waste time formatting.
  3. Voice‑to‑Text Apps – If you’re on the go, dictate a page and edit later.
  4. Physical “Page‑Box” – Keep a small box where you drop a printed page each night; the tactile ritual reinforces progress.

8. The Final Thought: Let the Page Be Your Compass

Writing a novel is often portrayed as a heroic quest, a battle against an invisible beast. The one‑page method reframes it as a daily walk—steady, purposeful, and ultimately rewarding.

When you stop treating the novel as a gigantic, unscalable project and start seeing it as a collection of 250‑word steps, the surprise isn’t that you finish—it’s that the finish line never felt frightening to begin with.

Ready to try? Grab a notebook, set your cue, and write that first page tonight. In a week, you’ll have a tiny chapter; in a month, a solid manuscript. And soon enough, you’ll be holding the completed story you once thought impossible.

Happy writing—one page at a time.

A to Z – April – 2026 – B

B is for – Bullies can be beaten

It was the sort of stuff spy novels had in abundance.

But it was my imagination, fuelled by scores of those very same stories all rolled into one, that I used to explain why I was missing from school to classmates who thought I was the most boring and uninteresting person they had ever known.

I knew what they’d say, so I was going to take them on a journey, and in my childish mind, I was going to make it as believable as I could.

Of course, what a child imagines to be true and what is are two very different things.

But, like everything that ever happened to me, it didn’t start out as an opportunity to do the right thing; it was at the end of some very stinging barbs from Alistair Goodall, my tormentor and school bully.

I glared at him with all the hatred I could muster, which, considering he was a foot taller and about 50 pounds heavier than I, was really a waste of time.

He had just told everyone within hearing range that my absence had simply been because I was too scared to come to school, because he had threatened to beat me up.

It was true, but I wasn’t going to let that be my defining moment. Instead, I blurted out, “The whole family had to go into hiding because of things my father knew, and his life was in danger.”

Yes, we had gone away, but it was to another country, where my mother’s parents lived, and they had been killed in an accident. It was quite sudden; my mother and sister had gone first, and then my father and I followed. He had difficulty getting away, and it had been a last-minute decision.

He had to come back, and despite my pleas to leave me with my mother, he dragged me back, oblivious to the predicament I was in with Alistair Goodall.

Goodall looked at me incredulously at first, then with a smile. “Good try, squirt. You almost had me believing it. Your dad an informer? My dad’s a cop, so I’ll ask him, but we both know what he’s going to say.” He took a step closer. I braced for impact.

But then, realising I was digging a bigger hole, one that I might not get out of, “Your dad wouldn’t have a clue about witness protection. It wouldn’t be witness protection if everyone knew about it. This is stuff beyond his pay grade.”

I remembered a TV show I had seen while away, about witness protection, and how it was supposed to be secret, but the witness was sold out by the bad guy’s man in the police force.

“My dad’s very important,” he said, his voice raised an octave, a sure sign he was losing this war of words.

“Then if you went home and started asking questions about witnesses who are supposed to be in protection, then he would lose his job, or worse, go to jail for blabbing secrets.”

“Your blabbing secrets.”

“You’re threatening to beat me up if I don’t tell you where I’ve been. Just threatening me into telling you is going to get you into a heap of trouble. I suggest you let it go, and we keep this between us. Or can’t you keep secrets?”

“I can too.”

The whine in his voice told me that I had bested him, but for how long was a moot question. He was not going to keep this a secret.

The school term ended in an uneasy truce between Alistair and me, and the whole school broke for the summer holidays. It meant I could escape Alistair’s persecution, at least for a few weeks, time enough for the rest of the family to return, and a semblance of normalcy to return.

I had just about put the great lie out of my mind when Alistair turned up outside my house with a smug smile. That idea of keeping secrets was not one of his strong points.

“You’re really for it, now, squirt. My dad knows nothing about this crap story of yours. In fact, he copped a serve at work, and he’s coming around to put the pair of you straight.”

Damn. Why could the miserable twisted arse just let it go?

“You want to be anywhere but here when he gets here.”

He walked off laughing, thinking he’d bought me a whole new world of pain.

My father was home for a week, which was a shame, because he was never home, always busy, too busy to be bothered with any of us. It would have been better if he hadn’t, or my mother was here, which she was not, still delayed in her return.

I spent a good hour trying to think of how I was going to get out of this one, but whatever I did, there was no chance I was not going to get a beating for this. Goodall was a copper, and although my father said he was a bully and a terrible excuse for a local plod, as he called him, he was still the law. Previous infractions I had been accused of were all true, and it had got me into trouble and a warning; there had better not be a next time.

This was the next time, and it was a doozy.

There was only one path I could go down.

My father was in his study when I went to look for him. He was always working on something, with books and charts all over the desk. I never asked, and he never volunteered what his job was, but I would have to ask one day.

I knocked on the door and waited a minute or two before he asked me to come in.

“Did I hear you talking to someone before?”

“Alistair Goodall, bully son of the local copper. As bad as his father, he uses him as a shield. I’d complain about him, but you keep saying I have to man up. There’s no manning up against the likes of him.”

I had considered whinging about the kid, but I knew my father wouldn’t accept that as trying hard enough to find my own solution, and it was useless telling him there wasn’t one.

He looked at. “Your mother said you were being bullied. Why didn’t you come and see me?”

“You’re never home, and you reckon I have to sort it out myself. Bit hard when he’s taller and heavier than I am. And I don’t think you’d appreciate me hitting him with a baseball bat.”

“Drastic but effective, no doubt, but not worth the jail time. Why are you telling me this?”

“He wanted to know why I was away recently. I couldn’t tell him; he threatened to beat me up, so I made up a lie. The truth was too lame for a moron like him.”

“What lie?”

I told him and watched the already dark features go a lot darker.

“And you expected he wouldn’t take it to his father for confirmation?”

“Plods don’t get told anything, of course, he wouldn’t know, and even if it was true, no one from up the chain would share that with a fool like Goodall. Even I know that much.”

“How do you know all this stuff?”

“Reading. I’ve read a lot of books, seen films and TV shows. I know a lot of it is make-believe, but there has to be elements of it that are true. The point is that I told Alistair that it was a secret and asked him to keep it. I mean, in real circumstances, we would be trusting him, which you would think from all the bluster that he could. If it had been a test, he failed spectacularly. As for his father, sure, he would understand the nature of witness protection and the necessity for secrecy, so blabbing it to his superiors was wrong on so many levels. I’m sure they would have said they knew nothing about it, even if they did.”

My father thought about that for a minute, perhaps looking to point out the flaws in the logic, but I couldn’t see any.

“I don’t like Goodall. Got on my wrong side when he first became a Sergeant. Too smug by half, and, as you say, a bully who uses his position. You were wrong to lie. Now, go upstairs. I’ll deal with Goodall.”

I was sitting behind the wall at the top of the stairs, waiting for Goodall to come. I wondered if he would bring the toad Alistair with him.

The pounding on the door almost made my heart stop. My father took his time to answer the door, and then, “Sergeant Goodall, what do we owe the honour of this visit?” It was the most pleasant tone I’d ever heard my father use, to anyone.

“Mr. Laramie…” Goodall senior only had one level of speaking, loud and confrontational.

“Sergeant Goodall, there are two things I expect from any visitor who comes to my door: that the visitor addresses me in a civil tone and the other, not to make their cases on my doorstep. Now, if you give me your word you will be civil, I will invite you in.”

He must have nodded because I heard footsteps and the door closed. His office was on the ground floor, up the passage. I would be able to hear them if the door to the office weren’t closed.

“Now, Sergeant Goodall, what exactly is the problem?”

“Your son is telling preposterous lies.”

“Your son is a bully, and my son fears going to school because of him. I think you should be attending to your son’s proclivities rather than worrying about what my son says. Most kids his age speak utter gibberish at the best of times.”

A moment’s silence before, “It’s not the fact, it’s lies, it’s the nature of the lie.”

“Oh. The fact that we were away. Well, there’s something else you should be admonishing that wretch of a child of yours for. My son told him the truth. and gave him a warning that it was not to be put about, in fact, as I understand it, he told your son that it was to be kept secret, and because he believed your son, being the son of a respectable policeman who understands the nature of these sorts of secrets, could keep it. The fact that he couldn’t keep that simple secret disappointed my son, disappointed me, and disappointed the people who arranged our sojourn, while some very nasty people were put away. They are, at the very least, extremely disappointed that you were poking around in matters that were way above your pay grade. If my son comes home any time in the new year complaining about your son, I will forget about being magnanimous this one time, in the hope you can address the issues you have; if he comes home with a complaint, all bets are off. Do I make myself clear?”

“He was not lying?”

“He was trying to avoid being beaten up by a thug, Goodall. He trusted your boy, and he let him down badly. This matter should not be discussed, here or anywhere, and I expect by the time you pass through my front door, the matter of our sojourn will be forgotten, and the problem with your child will be on the way to being resolved. Now, if that’s all….”

A few seconds later, I heard Goodall being bundled out the door, and it closed firmly behind him.

My father took a risk, but it paid off.

By the end of the summer holidays, Goodall had moved on to another station and taken his wretched son with him.

Goodall wasn’t the only bully at that school, but I learned a new way to deal with them, one that didn’t include elaborate lies. Those I saved for the stories I started writing.

©  Charles Heath 2025-2026

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 75

Day 75 – One page at a time

Why Writing a Novel One Page at a Time Is the Secret Weapon Most Authors Overlook

“Write a page a day and the novel will finish itself.” — Anonymous

If you’ve ever stared at a blank screen, imagined the weight of a 70,000‑word manuscript, and felt the panic rise like a tide, you’re not alone. The biggest obstacle to finishing a novel is rarely a lack of ideas; it’s the mental mountain of “I have to finish this whole book right now.”

What if you could dismantle that mountain, one tiny, manageable step at a time? The answer is surprisingly simple: abandon the fantasy of “finishing the novel” as a single, monolithic goal and instead commit to writing just one page a day.

In this post, we’ll explore why the one‑page approach works, the psychology behind it, real‑world examples, and a step‑by‑step action plan you can start using tonight. By the time you reach the end, you’ll see that the “surprise” isn’t that you finish—it’s how effortlessly you get there.


1. The Myth of the “Finish‑the‑Book” Goal

A. The All‑Or‑Nothing Trap

When you set a goal like “write a novel,” the brain treats it as an all‑or‑nothing problem. The sheer scale triggers the same response as an Everest climb: overwhelm, fear, procrastination. Research from the University of Hertfordshire shows that people who frame large projects as a single goal are 30 % more likely to abandon them than those who break the project into micro‑tasks.

B. Perfectionism’s Hidden Hand

A “finish the book” mindset also feeds perfectionism. You wait for the perfect scene, the perfect line, the perfect chapter—until the page never appears. The result? Writer’s block masquerading as high standards.

C. The Illusion of Progress

Even if you write a little each day, the numbers stay hidden. Ten pages written in a week feels modest when you’re measuring against “70‑page chapters.” The lack of visible milestones robs you of the dopamine hit that keeps motivation alive.


2. Why One Page Works

BenefitHow It Helps You
Concrete, measurable outputA page is easy to count. You see progress instantly.
Low entry barrierTen minutes of focus can produce a page—no marathon sessions needed.
Reduces anxietySmaller stakes mean less fear of failure.
Builds a habit loopCue → Write one page → Reward (tick, momentum) → Repeat.
Creates a natural editing rhythmYou finish a page, step back, and can revise before moving on.

The Science of Micro‑Goals

A 2019 study published in Psychology of Learning found that micro‑goals (tasks taking under 15 minutes) trigger a greater sense of competence than larger goals, boosting intrinsic motivation. One page typically fits that time frame, making it the perfect sweet spot for the brain’s reward system.


3. Real‑World Proof: Authors Who Swore by the Page

AuthorMethodResult
Stephen King“Write 1,000 words a day” (~4 pages) – never missed a day for decades.Over 60 novels; the habit kept his output steady.
Haruki MurakamiWrites 2–3 pages each morning before his day job.Completed Kafka on the Shore and 1Q84 while running marathons.
Anne Lamott“Write one paragraph a day; if you can’t, write a sentence.”Finished Bird by Bird while caring for a newborn.
Neil GaimanSets a daily “page target” for short stories; uses a physical notebook to count.Produced American Gods and a prolific short‑story catalog.

Notice the pattern: the smallest unit—page, paragraph, even sentence—becomes the anchor. None of these writers waited for the perfect novel outline; they just kept turning pages.


4. The Surprising Result: You’ll Actually Finish

When you commit to one page per day, three things happen simultaneously:

  1. Momentum builds – Each page creates a tiny sense of achievement that compounds.
  2. Structure emerges – By the 30th day, you’ll have a “first draft” that can be reorganised, not a jumble of ideas.
  3. Deadline pressure evaporates – The goal is no longer a distant, intimidating deadline but a daily ritual you can control.

Mathematically, 70 pages (the rough length of a short novel) is just 70 days—a little over two months. Even if you write three pages a week, you’ll be done in under six months. The math feels doable, the habit feels natural, and the surprise is that you actually cross the finish line.


5. How to Implement the One‑Page Method Right Now

Step 1: Define Your “One Page”

  • Word count: Roughly 250–300 words (standard manuscript format).
  • Format: Use a dedicated notebook or a digital file titled “Page 1 – Draft” so you never lose track.

Step 2: Set a Concrete Cue

  • Morning coffee → open the document.
  • After lunch walk → pull out your notebook.
  • Pre‑bedtime → fire up a blank page.
    Pick a cue that fits your daily rhythm; consistency beats intensity.

Step 3: Time‑Box It (Optional)

  • Set a timer for 15 minutes.
  • Write until the timer ends or you’ve filled the page—whichever comes first.
    If you finish early, use the extra minutes to edit the page you just wrote.

Step 4: Track and Celebrate

  • Physical tracker: Tick a calendar for each page completed.
  • Digital tracker: Use a habit‑app (Habitica, Streaks) to log progress.
  • Celebrate weekly milestones (e.g., “10 pages = 10‑minute coffee break”).

Step 5: Review Every 10 Pages

  • Pause, read what you’ve written, and note any patterns, gaps, or ideas for restructuring.
  • This mini‑revision prevents the dreaded “edit‑later” pileup.

Step 6: Adjust When Needed

  • If life gets busy, aim for half a page instead of skipping entirely.
  • If inspiration strikes, you can double‑up—but keep the habit as the core.

6. Overcoming Common Objections

ObjectionReality CheckPractical Fix
“One page a day is too slow.”A finished novel is a marathon, not a sprint.Remember the compound effect: 1 page × 365 days = 365 pages—enough for a full novel and a sequel.
“What about quality?”Quality emerges from revision, not first‑draft speed.Use the 10‑page review to tidy prose and tighten plot.
“I’ll lose momentum on a bad day.”Bad days happen; the habit is forgiving.Write a sentence or bullet outline on off days—still a page in the notebook.
“My story needs big scenes; a page feels fragmented.”Treat each page as a scene slice; you can always expand later.Write a “scene map” after 10 pages to see where each fragment fits.
“I’m a full‑time worker; I can’t spare 15 minutes.”Micro‑tasks fit into any schedule.Pair the page with existing routines (commute, lunch break).

7. Bonus: Enhancing the One‑Page Habit with Simple Tools

  1. Pomodoro Timer – 2×7‑minute intervals give you a focused burst plus a quick break.
  2. Word Processor Templates – Pre‑set margins, font (Times New Roman, 12 pt), and line spacing; you won’t waste time formatting.
  3. Voice‑to‑Text Apps – If you’re on the go, dictate a page and edit later.
  4. Physical “Page‑Box” – Keep a small box where you drop a printed page each night; the tactile ritual reinforces progress.

8. The Final Thought: Let the Page Be Your Compass

Writing a novel is often portrayed as a heroic quest, a battle against an invisible beast. The one‑page method reframes it as a daily walk—steady, purposeful, and ultimately rewarding.

When you stop treating the novel as a gigantic, unscalable project and start seeing it as a collection of 250‑word steps, the surprise isn’t that you finish—it’s that the finish line never felt frightening to begin with.

Ready to try? Grab a notebook, set your cue, and write that first page tonight. In a week, you’ll have a tiny chapter; in a month, a solid manuscript. And soon enough, you’ll be holding the completed story you once thought impossible.

Happy writing—one page at a time.