365 Days of writing, 2026 – 76

Day 76 – Writing Exercise

That was the trouble with waiting rooms.  It was the calm before the storm.

Some days they were empty with a plethora of seats to choose from, and others where you couldn’t find anywhere to sit, or the last place was next to a screaming baby.

I hated being sick, but I hated going to the doctor more.

Today it was filling fast.  The old system was first come first served but that lasted a week because no one observed the rules.  The nurse would come out and ask who was next, and the jostling began.

Now you made an appointment and thought we were seen in appointment order.

That was fine, but as the day slid by, the times slid too, and a two pm appointment could very easily become a three thirty one.

That was the price of popularity.  Perhaps it was time for a change.

There was a new surgery on the main road not far from me, and there had been a letter drop advising of it opening.

It used all the problems of my usual practice as selling points for us, prospective patients to change.  The thing was, all the staff were Chinese.  I wondered if that meant we would have interpretation errors or language issues.

This was the problem with some of the doctors at the hospital, that language issue, only it was more international.

It was a good thing that I had a smattering of Mandarin from my days as a roving diplomat, before I met the one person who shared my desire to see the world.  She was sitting next to me, reading a novel on her Kindle, a present from our daughter.  We were both here to assess the practice.  For us and others.

Sitting in the new waiting room, the aromas of fresh paint, new carpet and an air freshener all compete with each other for dominance.   The chairs were comfortable, special seats for the aged, like us, away from the playpen for parents with children.

The magazines and newspapers were not from the 19th century, old doctors cast off’s for luxury houses, luxury cars, and hotels no one could afford.  Books in a bookshelf for all ages of children, contemporary magazines for parents with and without children.  And one or two for the retired, like us.

These were the front pages of one magazine, the golden years outfit our lives.  Melinda simply snorted almost in derision. Like me, we were still wondering when those golden years were going to start. And, she muttered, she was still trying to figure out how a 20-year-old columnist could know what our so-called golden years were.

If we had been in our 60s, they would be long gone.

There were only a few waiting; perhaps the idea of changing from the usual doctors with the gruff manner and quick turnaround hadn’t yet translated into enough disdain to make that change.

Perhaps they would let us crash test dummies pave the way, providing word-of-mouth recommendations, or not.

The young girl manning the reception desk, one of three, was bright and enthusiastic, a change from the dour, all-business middle-aged gossips, who didn’t wrestle too hard with the obligations of their NDA with their practice

The small town was one where everyone knew everyone else, and sadly, their business.  Perhaps in this practice, secrets would remain secrets.

A doctor came out and called a name. 

A lady sitting two seats along slowly got to her feet.  The sight of the youthful Chinese doctor seemed to worry her.

He added an aside, one that I translated as Don’t be scared.  I looked at her.  She seemed just that.

She had picked up on the Chinese words.

I said quietly as I stood to help her, “There’s nothing to worry about.  I wouldn’t be here if there was.”

She looked me up and down, then shuffled in his direction, shaking her head.  The last time I’d seen her was at the other surgery, giving the stern receptionist a lecture on lateness and how people didn’t have time for tardiness.

It had fallen on deaf ears.

I sat down again.

A few minutes later, it was our turn, right on the precise time of our appointment.  We were taken to a room that was equally fresh, new, and sterile, where the germs would die of fright long before they got to infect anyone.

Our doctor was female, and looked like she was fresh out of medical school and hardly had any accent at all.  Her English was perfect, and she knew her medical stuff.  She diagnosed Melinda’s ailment and a few other minor ailments that other doctors had dismissed, recommending a Chinese herbalist if she was so inclined.

She would be.

A reasonable payment, and we were on our way.

Taking the bus, as it pulled away from the curb, she asked, “What do you think?”

“Definitely.  What an interesting way to collect information on everyone who goes there.”

“You think there will be more?”

“Everywhere.  It’s the new method of intelligence gathering, and how easy is it to get everything you need to know about someone?”

“Gonna tell Joey?”

“Maybe.  He might think we’re paranoid again.”

“Maybe not then.  We’ll send a coded message.  That’ll get them thinking.”

I nodded.  I picked up a flyer off the floor.  Another new Surgery in the next town.  Chinese doctors. 

I showed it to Melinda.  “Infiltration by stealth.”  She sighed.  An intelligence agent’s work was never done; they just moved into surveillance. 

After all, who would suspect two old over-the-hill retirees?

©  Charles Heath  2026

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 3

Having got through my quota of words for the NANOWRIMO project, I turned my mind to another story I’m writing.

It started out as a bit of a lark, just to see if I could write a story that fitted around with an old castle we’d visited in Tuscany, after hearing stories of the pockmarks on the walls attributed to gunfire.

It conjured up a group of men occupying it with a single mission: to capture and return a high-ranking German boffin who wanted to defect to the Allies.

The twist is, of course, that the occupiers are British, sent there to facilitate the repatriation to England, but the men are really German double agents.

A bit far-fetched, but from some of the stories I’ve read and shows I’ve seen, it’s not quite beyond the realms of possibility.

And, after all, it is fiction.

So, parts of this story have been running around in my head, waiting for a time to put it on paper.  Now is that time.

So, three more episodes have just been completed, and I’m thinking of watching Von Ryans Express again just to keep the mood going.

Oh, and the NANOWRIMO project, it’s proceeding apace.

My spy survives the action-packed start, battered and bruised, and contemplating his next move. It’s tough where the only retirement plan you have open to you is death

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 2

I’m sitting at my desk surrounded by any number of scraps of paper with more storylines, written excerpts, parts of stories, and a number of chapters of a work in progress.

Does this happen to anyone else?

The business of writing requires a talent to keep focused on the one project and silence all the other screaming voices in your head, pouring out their side of the story.

But it’s not working.

I try to be determined in my efforts to edit my current completed novel, after letting it ‘rest’ in my head for a few months.

I planned to have some time off, but all of those prisoners in my head started clamouring for my attention.  A story I started some time ago needs revising, another story I wrote last year for NANOWRIMO has come back to haunt me, and characters, well, they’re out in the waiting room, pacing up and down, ready to tell me their life stories.

Is the temporary cure coffee or wine?

Now I think I really do need a holiday

Or a trip to the asylum.  Thank God this is not the early 20th century, or I might never return.  And if it’s named Bellview, it would be just another story to be written.

The author who went Bonkers!

And that spy who’s at the end of his tether, just think James Bond movie full on action start and you’ve got the first chapter done!

Does it ever end?

 

 

 

A to Z – April – 2026 – B

B is for – Bullies can be beaten

It was the sort of stuff spy novels had in abundance.

But it was my imagination, fuelled by scores of those very same stories all rolled into one, that I used to explain why I was missing from school to classmates who thought I was the most boring and uninteresting person they had ever known.

I knew what they’d say, so I was going to take them on a journey, and in my childish mind, I was going to make it as believable as I could.

Of course, what a child imagines to be true and what is are two very different things.

But, like everything that ever happened to me, it didn’t start out as an opportunity to do the right thing; it was at the end of some very stinging barbs from Alistair Goodall, my tormentor and school bully.

I glared at him with all the hatred I could muster, which, considering he was a foot taller and about 50 pounds heavier than I, was really a waste of time.

He had just told everyone within hearing range that my absence had simply been because I was too scared to come to school, because he had threatened to beat me up.

It was true, but I wasn’t going to let that be my defining moment. Instead, I blurted out, “The whole family had to go into hiding because of things my father knew, and his life was in danger.”

Yes, we had gone away, but it was to another country, where my mother’s parents lived, and they had been killed in an accident. It was quite sudden; my mother and sister had gone first, and then my father and I followed. He had difficulty getting away, and it had been a last-minute decision.

He had to come back, and despite my pleas to leave me with my mother, he dragged me back, oblivious to the predicament I was in with Alistair Goodall.

Goodall looked at me incredulously at first, then with a smile. “Good try, squirt. You almost had me believing it. Your dad an informer? My dad’s a cop, so I’ll ask him, but we both know what he’s going to say.” He took a step closer. I braced for impact.

But then, realising I was digging a bigger hole, one that I might not get out of, “Your dad wouldn’t have a clue about witness protection. It wouldn’t be witness protection if everyone knew about it. This is stuff beyond his pay grade.”

I remembered a TV show I had seen while away, about witness protection, and how it was supposed to be secret, but the witness was sold out by the bad guy’s man in the police force.

“My dad’s very important,” he said, his voice raised an octave, a sure sign he was losing this war of words.

“Then if you went home and started asking questions about witnesses who are supposed to be in protection, then he would lose his job, or worse, go to jail for blabbing secrets.”

“Your blabbing secrets.”

“You’re threatening to beat me up if I don’t tell you where I’ve been. Just threatening me into telling you is going to get you into a heap of trouble. I suggest you let it go, and we keep this between us. Or can’t you keep secrets?”

“I can too.”

The whine in his voice told me that I had bested him, but for how long was a moot question. He was not going to keep this a secret.

The school term ended in an uneasy truce between Alistair and me, and the whole school broke for the summer holidays. It meant I could escape Alistair’s persecution, at least for a few weeks, time enough for the rest of the family to return, and a semblance of normalcy to return.

I had just about put the great lie out of my mind when Alistair turned up outside my house with a smug smile. That idea of keeping secrets was not one of his strong points.

“You’re really for it, now, squirt. My dad knows nothing about this crap story of yours. In fact, he copped a serve at work, and he’s coming around to put the pair of you straight.”

Damn. Why could the miserable twisted arse just let it go?

“You want to be anywhere but here when he gets here.”

He walked off laughing, thinking he’d bought me a whole new world of pain.

My father was home for a week, which was a shame, because he was never home, always busy, too busy to be bothered with any of us. It would have been better if he hadn’t, or my mother was here, which she was not, still delayed in her return.

I spent a good hour trying to think of how I was going to get out of this one, but whatever I did, there was no chance I was not going to get a beating for this. Goodall was a copper, and although my father said he was a bully and a terrible excuse for a local plod, as he called him, he was still the law. Previous infractions I had been accused of were all true, and it had got me into trouble and a warning; there had better not be a next time.

This was the next time, and it was a doozy.

There was only one path I could go down.

My father was in his study when I went to look for him. He was always working on something, with books and charts all over the desk. I never asked, and he never volunteered what his job was, but I would have to ask one day.

I knocked on the door and waited a minute or two before he asked me to come in.

“Did I hear you talking to someone before?”

“Alistair Goodall, bully son of the local copper. As bad as his father, he uses him as a shield. I’d complain about him, but you keep saying I have to man up. There’s no manning up against the likes of him.”

I had considered whinging about the kid, but I knew my father wouldn’t accept that as trying hard enough to find my own solution, and it was useless telling him there wasn’t one.

He looked at. “Your mother said you were being bullied. Why didn’t you come and see me?”

“You’re never home, and you reckon I have to sort it out myself. Bit hard when he’s taller and heavier than I am. And I don’t think you’d appreciate me hitting him with a baseball bat.”

“Drastic but effective, no doubt, but not worth the jail time. Why are you telling me this?”

“He wanted to know why I was away recently. I couldn’t tell him; he threatened to beat me up, so I made up a lie. The truth was too lame for a moron like him.”

“What lie?”

I told him and watched the already dark features go a lot darker.

“And you expected he wouldn’t take it to his father for confirmation?”

“Plods don’t get told anything, of course, he wouldn’t know, and even if it was true, no one from up the chain would share that with a fool like Goodall. Even I know that much.”

“How do you know all this stuff?”

“Reading. I’ve read a lot of books, seen films and TV shows. I know a lot of it is make-believe, but there has to be elements of it that are true. The point is that I told Alistair that it was a secret and asked him to keep it. I mean, in real circumstances, we would be trusting him, which you would think from all the bluster that he could. If it had been a test, he failed spectacularly. As for his father, sure, he would understand the nature of witness protection and the necessity for secrecy, so blabbing it to his superiors was wrong on so many levels. I’m sure they would have said they knew nothing about it, even if they did.”

My father thought about that for a minute, perhaps looking to point out the flaws in the logic, but I couldn’t see any.

“I don’t like Goodall. Got on my wrong side when he first became a Sergeant. Too smug by half, and, as you say, a bully who uses his position. You were wrong to lie. Now, go upstairs. I’ll deal with Goodall.”

I was sitting behind the wall at the top of the stairs, waiting for Goodall to come. I wondered if he would bring the toad Alistair with him.

The pounding on the door almost made my heart stop. My father took his time to answer the door, and then, “Sergeant Goodall, what do we owe the honour of this visit?” It was the most pleasant tone I’d ever heard my father use, to anyone.

“Mr. Laramie…” Goodall senior only had one level of speaking, loud and confrontational.

“Sergeant Goodall, there are two things I expect from any visitor who comes to my door: that the visitor addresses me in a civil tone and the other, not to make their cases on my doorstep. Now, if you give me your word you will be civil, I will invite you in.”

He must have nodded because I heard footsteps and the door closed. His office was on the ground floor, up the passage. I would be able to hear them if the door to the office weren’t closed.

“Now, Sergeant Goodall, what exactly is the problem?”

“Your son is telling preposterous lies.”

“Your son is a bully, and my son fears going to school because of him. I think you should be attending to your son’s proclivities rather than worrying about what my son says. Most kids his age speak utter gibberish at the best of times.”

A moment’s silence before, “It’s not the fact, it’s lies, it’s the nature of the lie.”

“Oh. The fact that we were away. Well, there’s something else you should be admonishing that wretch of a child of yours for. My son told him the truth. and gave him a warning that it was not to be put about, in fact, as I understand it, he told your son that it was to be kept secret, and because he believed your son, being the son of a respectable policeman who understands the nature of these sorts of secrets, could keep it. The fact that he couldn’t keep that simple secret disappointed my son, disappointed me, and disappointed the people who arranged our sojourn, while some very nasty people were put away. They are, at the very least, extremely disappointed that you were poking around in matters that were way above your pay grade. If my son comes home any time in the new year complaining about your son, I will forget about being magnanimous this one time, in the hope you can address the issues you have; if he comes home with a complaint, all bets are off. Do I make myself clear?”

“He was not lying?”

“He was trying to avoid being beaten up by a thug, Goodall. He trusted your boy, and he let him down badly. This matter should not be discussed, here or anywhere, and I expect by the time you pass through my front door, the matter of our sojourn will be forgotten, and the problem with your child will be on the way to being resolved. Now, if that’s all….”

A few seconds later, I heard Goodall being bundled out the door, and it closed firmly behind him.

My father took a risk, but it paid off.

By the end of the summer holidays, Goodall had moved on to another station and taken his wretched son with him.

Goodall wasn’t the only bully at that school, but I learned a new way to deal with them, one that didn’t include elaborate lies. Those I saved for the stories I started writing.

©  Charles Heath 2025-2026

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 75

Day 75 – One page at a time

Why Writing a Novel One Page at a Time Is the Secret Weapon Most Authors Overlook

“Write a page a day and the novel will finish itself.” — Anonymous

If you’ve ever stared at a blank screen, imagined the weight of a 70,000‑word manuscript, and felt the panic rise like a tide, you’re not alone. The biggest obstacle to finishing a novel is rarely a lack of ideas; it’s the mental mountain of “I have to finish this whole book right now.”

What if you could dismantle that mountain, one tiny, manageable step at a time? The answer is surprisingly simple: abandon the fantasy of “finishing the novel” as a single, monolithic goal and instead commit to writing just one page a day.

In this post, we’ll explore why the one‑page approach works, the psychology behind it, real‑world examples, and a step‑by‑step action plan you can start using tonight. By the time you reach the end, you’ll see that the “surprise” isn’t that you finish—it’s how effortlessly you get there.


1. The Myth of the “Finish‑the‑Book” Goal

A. The All‑Or‑Nothing Trap

When you set a goal like “write a novel,” the brain treats it as an all‑or‑nothing problem. The sheer scale triggers the same response as an Everest climb: overwhelm, fear, procrastination. Research from the University of Hertfordshire shows that people who frame large projects as a single goal are 30 % more likely to abandon them than those who break the project into micro‑tasks.

B. Perfectionism’s Hidden Hand

A “finish the book” mindset also feeds perfectionism. You wait for the perfect scene, the perfect line, the perfect chapter—until the page never appears. The result? Writer’s block masquerading as high standards.

C. The Illusion of Progress

Even if you write a little each day, the numbers stay hidden. Ten pages written in a week feels modest when you’re measuring against “70‑page chapters.” The lack of visible milestones robs you of the dopamine hit that keeps motivation alive.


2. Why One Page Works

BenefitHow It Helps You
Concrete, measurable outputA page is easy to count. You see progress instantly.
Low entry barrierTen minutes of focus can produce a page—no marathon sessions needed.
Reduces anxietySmaller stakes mean less fear of failure.
Builds a habit loopCue → Write one page → Reward (tick, momentum) → Repeat.
Creates a natural editing rhythmYou finish a page, step back, and can revise before moving on.

The Science of Micro‑Goals

A 2019 study published in Psychology of Learning found that micro‑goals (tasks taking under 15 minutes) trigger a greater sense of competence than larger goals, boosting intrinsic motivation. One page typically fits that time frame, making it the perfect sweet spot for the brain’s reward system.


3. Real‑World Proof: Authors Who Swore by the Page

AuthorMethodResult
Stephen King“Write 1,000 words a day” (~4 pages) – never missed a day for decades.Over 60 novels; the habit kept his output steady.
Haruki MurakamiWrites 2–3 pages each morning before his day job.Completed Kafka on the Shore and 1Q84 while running marathons.
Anne Lamott“Write one paragraph a day; if you can’t, write a sentence.”Finished Bird by Bird while caring for a newborn.
Neil GaimanSets a daily “page target” for short stories; uses a physical notebook to count.Produced American Gods and a prolific short‑story catalog.

Notice the pattern: the smallest unit—page, paragraph, even sentence—becomes the anchor. None of these writers waited for the perfect novel outline; they just kept turning pages.


4. The Surprising Result: You’ll Actually Finish

When you commit to one page per day, three things happen simultaneously:

  1. Momentum builds – Each page creates a tiny sense of achievement that compounds.
  2. Structure emerges – By the 30th day, you’ll have a “first draft” that can be reorganised, not a jumble of ideas.
  3. Deadline pressure evaporates – The goal is no longer a distant, intimidating deadline but a daily ritual you can control.

Mathematically, 70 pages (the rough length of a short novel) is just 70 days—a little over two months. Even if you write three pages a week, you’ll be done in under six months. The math feels doable, the habit feels natural, and the surprise is that you actually cross the finish line.


5. How to Implement the One‑Page Method Right Now

Step 1: Define Your “One Page”

  • Word count: Roughly 250–300 words (standard manuscript format).
  • Format: Use a dedicated notebook or a digital file titled “Page 1 – Draft” so you never lose track.

Step 2: Set a Concrete Cue

  • Morning coffee → open the document.
  • After lunch walk → pull out your notebook.
  • Pre‑bedtime → fire up a blank page.
    Pick a cue that fits your daily rhythm; consistency beats intensity.

Step 3: Time‑Box It (Optional)

  • Set a timer for 15 minutes.
  • Write until the timer ends or you’ve filled the page—whichever comes first.
    If you finish early, use the extra minutes to edit the page you just wrote.

Step 4: Track and Celebrate

  • Physical tracker: Tick a calendar for each page completed.
  • Digital tracker: Use a habit‑app (Habitica, Streaks) to log progress.
  • Celebrate weekly milestones (e.g., “10 pages = 10‑minute coffee break”).

Step 5: Review Every 10 Pages

  • Pause, read what you’ve written, and note any patterns, gaps, or ideas for restructuring.
  • This mini‑revision prevents the dreaded “edit‑later” pileup.

Step 6: Adjust When Needed

  • If life gets busy, aim for half a page instead of skipping entirely.
  • If inspiration strikes, you can double‑up—but keep the habit as the core.

6. Overcoming Common Objections

ObjectionReality CheckPractical Fix
“One page a day is too slow.”A finished novel is a marathon, not a sprint.Remember the compound effect: 1 page × 365 days = 365 pages—enough for a full novel and a sequel.
“What about quality?”Quality emerges from revision, not first‑draft speed.Use the 10‑page review to tidy prose and tighten plot.
“I’ll lose momentum on a bad day.”Bad days happen; the habit is forgiving.Write a sentence or bullet outline on off days—still a page in the notebook.
“My story needs big scenes; a page feels fragmented.”Treat each page as a scene slice; you can always expand later.Write a “scene map” after 10 pages to see where each fragment fits.
“I’m a full‑time worker; I can’t spare 15 minutes.”Micro‑tasks fit into any schedule.Pair the page with existing routines (commute, lunch break).

7. Bonus: Enhancing the One‑Page Habit with Simple Tools

  1. Pomodoro Timer – 2×7‑minute intervals give you a focused burst plus a quick break.
  2. Word Processor Templates – Pre‑set margins, font (Times New Roman, 12 pt), and line spacing; you won’t waste time formatting.
  3. Voice‑to‑Text Apps – If you’re on the go, dictate a page and edit later.
  4. Physical “Page‑Box” – Keep a small box where you drop a printed page each night; the tactile ritual reinforces progress.

8. The Final Thought: Let the Page Be Your Compass

Writing a novel is often portrayed as a heroic quest, a battle against an invisible beast. The one‑page method reframes it as a daily walk—steady, purposeful, and ultimately rewarding.

When you stop treating the novel as a gigantic, unscalable project and start seeing it as a collection of 250‑word steps, the surprise isn’t that you finish—it’s that the finish line never felt frightening to begin with.

Ready to try? Grab a notebook, set your cue, and write that first page tonight. In a week, you’ll have a tiny chapter; in a month, a solid manuscript. And soon enough, you’ll be holding the completed story you once thought impossible.

Happy writing—one page at a time.

A to Z – April – 2026 – B

B is for – Bullies can be beaten

It was the sort of stuff spy novels had in abundance.

But it was my imagination, fuelled by scores of those very same stories all rolled into one, that I used to explain why I was missing from school to classmates who thought I was the most boring and uninteresting person they had ever known.

I knew what they’d say, so I was going to take them on a journey, and in my childish mind, I was going to make it as believable as I could.

Of course, what a child imagines to be true and what is are two very different things.

But, like everything that ever happened to me, it didn’t start out as an opportunity to do the right thing; it was at the end of some very stinging barbs from Alistair Goodall, my tormentor and school bully.

I glared at him with all the hatred I could muster, which, considering he was a foot taller and about 50 pounds heavier than I, was really a waste of time.

He had just told everyone within hearing range that my absence had simply been because I was too scared to come to school, because he had threatened to beat me up.

It was true, but I wasn’t going to let that be my defining moment. Instead, I blurted out, “The whole family had to go into hiding because of things my father knew, and his life was in danger.”

Yes, we had gone away, but it was to another country, where my mother’s parents lived, and they had been killed in an accident. It was quite sudden; my mother and sister had gone first, and then my father and I followed. He had difficulty getting away, and it had been a last-minute decision.

He had to come back, and despite my pleas to leave me with my mother, he dragged me back, oblivious to the predicament I was in with Alistair Goodall.

Goodall looked at me incredulously at first, then with a smile. “Good try, squirt. You almost had me believing it. Your dad an informer? My dad’s a cop, so I’ll ask him, but we both know what he’s going to say.” He took a step closer. I braced for impact.

But then, realising I was digging a bigger hole, one that I might not get out of, “Your dad wouldn’t have a clue about witness protection. It wouldn’t be witness protection if everyone knew about it. This is stuff beyond his pay grade.”

I remembered a TV show I had seen while away, about witness protection, and how it was supposed to be secret, but the witness was sold out by the bad guy’s man in the police force.

“My dad’s very important,” he said, his voice raised an octave, a sure sign he was losing this war of words.

“Then if you went home and started asking questions about witnesses who are supposed to be in protection, then he would lose his job, or worse, go to jail for blabbing secrets.”

“Your blabbing secrets.”

“You’re threatening to beat me up if I don’t tell you where I’ve been. Just threatening me into telling you is going to get you into a heap of trouble. I suggest you let it go, and we keep this between us. Or can’t you keep secrets?”

“I can too.”

The whine in his voice told me that I had bested him, but for how long was a moot question. He was not going to keep this a secret.

The school term ended in an uneasy truce between Alistair and me, and the whole school broke for the summer holidays. It meant I could escape Alistair’s persecution, at least for a few weeks, time enough for the rest of the family to return, and a semblance of normalcy to return.

I had just about put the great lie out of my mind when Alistair turned up outside my house with a smug smile. That idea of keeping secrets was not one of his strong points.

“You’re really for it, now, squirt. My dad knows nothing about this crap story of yours. In fact, he copped a serve at work, and he’s coming around to put the pair of you straight.”

Damn. Why could the miserable twisted arse just let it go?

“You want to be anywhere but here when he gets here.”

He walked off laughing, thinking he’d bought me a whole new world of pain.

My father was home for a week, which was a shame, because he was never home, always busy, too busy to be bothered with any of us. It would have been better if he hadn’t, or my mother was here, which she was not, still delayed in her return.

I spent a good hour trying to think of how I was going to get out of this one, but whatever I did, there was no chance I was not going to get a beating for this. Goodall was a copper, and although my father said he was a bully and a terrible excuse for a local plod, as he called him, he was still the law. Previous infractions I had been accused of were all true, and it had got me into trouble and a warning; there had better not be a next time.

This was the next time, and it was a doozy.

There was only one path I could go down.

My father was in his study when I went to look for him. He was always working on something, with books and charts all over the desk. I never asked, and he never volunteered what his job was, but I would have to ask one day.

I knocked on the door and waited a minute or two before he asked me to come in.

“Did I hear you talking to someone before?”

“Alistair Goodall, bully son of the local copper. As bad as his father, he uses him as a shield. I’d complain about him, but you keep saying I have to man up. There’s no manning up against the likes of him.”

I had considered whinging about the kid, but I knew my father wouldn’t accept that as trying hard enough to find my own solution, and it was useless telling him there wasn’t one.

He looked at. “Your mother said you were being bullied. Why didn’t you come and see me?”

“You’re never home, and you reckon I have to sort it out myself. Bit hard when he’s taller and heavier than I am. And I don’t think you’d appreciate me hitting him with a baseball bat.”

“Drastic but effective, no doubt, but not worth the jail time. Why are you telling me this?”

“He wanted to know why I was away recently. I couldn’t tell him; he threatened to beat me up, so I made up a lie. The truth was too lame for a moron like him.”

“What lie?”

I told him and watched the already dark features go a lot darker.

“And you expected he wouldn’t take it to his father for confirmation?”

“Plods don’t get told anything, of course, he wouldn’t know, and even if it was true, no one from up the chain would share that with a fool like Goodall. Even I know that much.”

“How do you know all this stuff?”

“Reading. I’ve read a lot of books, seen films and TV shows. I know a lot of it is make-believe, but there has to be elements of it that are true. The point is that I told Alistair that it was a secret and asked him to keep it. I mean, in real circumstances, we would be trusting him, which you would think from all the bluster that he could. If it had been a test, he failed spectacularly. As for his father, sure, he would understand the nature of witness protection and the necessity for secrecy, so blabbing it to his superiors was wrong on so many levels. I’m sure they would have said they knew nothing about it, even if they did.”

My father thought about that for a minute, perhaps looking to point out the flaws in the logic, but I couldn’t see any.

“I don’t like Goodall. Got on my wrong side when he first became a Sergeant. Too smug by half, and, as you say, a bully who uses his position. You were wrong to lie. Now, go upstairs. I’ll deal with Goodall.”

I was sitting behind the wall at the top of the stairs, waiting for Goodall to come. I wondered if he would bring the toad Alistair with him.

The pounding on the door almost made my heart stop. My father took his time to answer the door, and then, “Sergeant Goodall, what do we owe the honour of this visit?” It was the most pleasant tone I’d ever heard my father use, to anyone.

“Mr. Laramie…” Goodall senior only had one level of speaking, loud and confrontational.

“Sergeant Goodall, there are two things I expect from any visitor who comes to my door: that the visitor addresses me in a civil tone and the other, not to make their cases on my doorstep. Now, if you give me your word you will be civil, I will invite you in.”

He must have nodded because I heard footsteps and the door closed. His office was on the ground floor, up the passage. I would be able to hear them if the door to the office weren’t closed.

“Now, Sergeant Goodall, what exactly is the problem?”

“Your son is telling preposterous lies.”

“Your son is a bully, and my son fears going to school because of him. I think you should be attending to your son’s proclivities rather than worrying about what my son says. Most kids his age speak utter gibberish at the best of times.”

A moment’s silence before, “It’s not the fact, it’s lies, it’s the nature of the lie.”

“Oh. The fact that we were away. Well, there’s something else you should be admonishing that wretch of a child of yours for. My son told him the truth. and gave him a warning that it was not to be put about, in fact, as I understand it, he told your son that it was to be kept secret, and because he believed your son, being the son of a respectable policeman who understands the nature of these sorts of secrets, could keep it. The fact that he couldn’t keep that simple secret disappointed my son, disappointed me, and disappointed the people who arranged our sojourn, while some very nasty people were put away. They are, at the very least, extremely disappointed that you were poking around in matters that were way above your pay grade. If my son comes home any time in the new year complaining about your son, I will forget about being magnanimous this one time, in the hope you can address the issues you have; if he comes home with a complaint, all bets are off. Do I make myself clear?”

“He was not lying?”

“He was trying to avoid being beaten up by a thug, Goodall. He trusted your boy, and he let him down badly. This matter should not be discussed, here or anywhere, and I expect by the time you pass through my front door, the matter of our sojourn will be forgotten, and the problem with your child will be on the way to being resolved. Now, if that’s all….”

A few seconds later, I heard Goodall being bundled out the door, and it closed firmly behind him.

My father took a risk, but it paid off.

By the end of the summer holidays, Goodall had moved on to another station and taken his wretched son with him.

Goodall wasn’t the only bully at that school, but I learned a new way to deal with them, one that didn’t include elaborate lies. Those I saved for the stories I started writing.

©  Charles Heath 2025-2026

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 75

Day 75 – One page at a time

Why Writing a Novel One Page at a Time Is the Secret Weapon Most Authors Overlook

“Write a page a day and the novel will finish itself.” — Anonymous

If you’ve ever stared at a blank screen, imagined the weight of a 70,000‑word manuscript, and felt the panic rise like a tide, you’re not alone. The biggest obstacle to finishing a novel is rarely a lack of ideas; it’s the mental mountain of “I have to finish this whole book right now.”

What if you could dismantle that mountain, one tiny, manageable step at a time? The answer is surprisingly simple: abandon the fantasy of “finishing the novel” as a single, monolithic goal and instead commit to writing just one page a day.

In this post, we’ll explore why the one‑page approach works, the psychology behind it, real‑world examples, and a step‑by‑step action plan you can start using tonight. By the time you reach the end, you’ll see that the “surprise” isn’t that you finish—it’s how effortlessly you get there.


1. The Myth of the “Finish‑the‑Book” Goal

A. The All‑Or‑Nothing Trap

When you set a goal like “write a novel,” the brain treats it as an all‑or‑nothing problem. The sheer scale triggers the same response as an Everest climb: overwhelm, fear, procrastination. Research from the University of Hertfordshire shows that people who frame large projects as a single goal are 30 % more likely to abandon them than those who break the project into micro‑tasks.

B. Perfectionism’s Hidden Hand

A “finish the book” mindset also feeds perfectionism. You wait for the perfect scene, the perfect line, the perfect chapter—until the page never appears. The result? Writer’s block masquerading as high standards.

C. The Illusion of Progress

Even if you write a little each day, the numbers stay hidden. Ten pages written in a week feels modest when you’re measuring against “70‑page chapters.” The lack of visible milestones robs you of the dopamine hit that keeps motivation alive.


2. Why One Page Works

BenefitHow It Helps You
Concrete, measurable outputA page is easy to count. You see progress instantly.
Low entry barrierTen minutes of focus can produce a page—no marathon sessions needed.
Reduces anxietySmaller stakes mean less fear of failure.
Builds a habit loopCue → Write one page → Reward (tick, momentum) → Repeat.
Creates a natural editing rhythmYou finish a page, step back, and can revise before moving on.

The Science of Micro‑Goals

A 2019 study published in Psychology of Learning found that micro‑goals (tasks taking under 15 minutes) trigger a greater sense of competence than larger goals, boosting intrinsic motivation. One page typically fits that time frame, making it the perfect sweet spot for the brain’s reward system.


3. Real‑World Proof: Authors Who Swore by the Page

AuthorMethodResult
Stephen King“Write 1,000 words a day” (~4 pages) – never missed a day for decades.Over 60 novels; the habit kept his output steady.
Haruki MurakamiWrites 2–3 pages each morning before his day job.Completed Kafka on the Shore and 1Q84 while running marathons.
Anne Lamott“Write one paragraph a day; if you can’t, write a sentence.”Finished Bird by Bird while caring for a newborn.
Neil GaimanSets a daily “page target” for short stories; uses a physical notebook to count.Produced American Gods and a prolific short‑story catalog.

Notice the pattern: the smallest unit—page, paragraph, even sentence—becomes the anchor. None of these writers waited for the perfect novel outline; they just kept turning pages.


4. The Surprising Result: You’ll Actually Finish

When you commit to one page per day, three things happen simultaneously:

  1. Momentum builds – Each page creates a tiny sense of achievement that compounds.
  2. Structure emerges – By the 30th day, you’ll have a “first draft” that can be reorganised, not a jumble of ideas.
  3. Deadline pressure evaporates – The goal is no longer a distant, intimidating deadline but a daily ritual you can control.

Mathematically, 70 pages (the rough length of a short novel) is just 70 days—a little over two months. Even if you write three pages a week, you’ll be done in under six months. The math feels doable, the habit feels natural, and the surprise is that you actually cross the finish line.


5. How to Implement the One‑Page Method Right Now

Step 1: Define Your “One Page”

  • Word count: Roughly 250–300 words (standard manuscript format).
  • Format: Use a dedicated notebook or a digital file titled “Page 1 – Draft” so you never lose track.

Step 2: Set a Concrete Cue

  • Morning coffee → open the document.
  • After lunch walk → pull out your notebook.
  • Pre‑bedtime → fire up a blank page.
    Pick a cue that fits your daily rhythm; consistency beats intensity.

Step 3: Time‑Box It (Optional)

  • Set a timer for 15 minutes.
  • Write until the timer ends or you’ve filled the page—whichever comes first.
    If you finish early, use the extra minutes to edit the page you just wrote.

Step 4: Track and Celebrate

  • Physical tracker: Tick a calendar for each page completed.
  • Digital tracker: Use a habit‑app (Habitica, Streaks) to log progress.
  • Celebrate weekly milestones (e.g., “10 pages = 10‑minute coffee break”).

Step 5: Review Every 10 Pages

  • Pause, read what you’ve written, and note any patterns, gaps, or ideas for restructuring.
  • This mini‑revision prevents the dreaded “edit‑later” pileup.

Step 6: Adjust When Needed

  • If life gets busy, aim for half a page instead of skipping entirely.
  • If inspiration strikes, you can double‑up—but keep the habit as the core.

6. Overcoming Common Objections

ObjectionReality CheckPractical Fix
“One page a day is too slow.”A finished novel is a marathon, not a sprint.Remember the compound effect: 1 page × 365 days = 365 pages—enough for a full novel and a sequel.
“What about quality?”Quality emerges from revision, not first‑draft speed.Use the 10‑page review to tidy prose and tighten plot.
“I’ll lose momentum on a bad day.”Bad days happen; the habit is forgiving.Write a sentence or bullet outline on off days—still a page in the notebook.
“My story needs big scenes; a page feels fragmented.”Treat each page as a scene slice; you can always expand later.Write a “scene map” after 10 pages to see where each fragment fits.
“I’m a full‑time worker; I can’t spare 15 minutes.”Micro‑tasks fit into any schedule.Pair the page with existing routines (commute, lunch break).

7. Bonus: Enhancing the One‑Page Habit with Simple Tools

  1. Pomodoro Timer – 2×7‑minute intervals give you a focused burst plus a quick break.
  2. Word Processor Templates – Pre‑set margins, font (Times New Roman, 12 pt), and line spacing; you won’t waste time formatting.
  3. Voice‑to‑Text Apps – If you’re on the go, dictate a page and edit later.
  4. Physical “Page‑Box” – Keep a small box where you drop a printed page each night; the tactile ritual reinforces progress.

8. The Final Thought: Let the Page Be Your Compass

Writing a novel is often portrayed as a heroic quest, a battle against an invisible beast. The one‑page method reframes it as a daily walk—steady, purposeful, and ultimately rewarding.

When you stop treating the novel as a gigantic, unscalable project and start seeing it as a collection of 250‑word steps, the surprise isn’t that you finish—it’s that the finish line never felt frightening to begin with.

Ready to try? Grab a notebook, set your cue, and write that first page tonight. In a week, you’ll have a tiny chapter; in a month, a solid manuscript. And soon enough, you’ll be holding the completed story you once thought impossible.

Happy writing—one page at a time.

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 2

I’m sitting at my desk surrounded by any number of scraps of paper with more storylines, written excerpts, parts of stories, and a number of chapters of a work in progress.

Does this happen to anyone else?

The business of writing requires a talent to keep focused on the one project and silence all the other screaming voices in your head, pouring out their side of the story.

But it’s not working.

I try to be determined in my efforts to edit my current completed novel, after letting it ‘rest’ in my head for a few months.

I planned to have some time off, but all of those prisoners in my head started clamouring for my attention.  A story I started some time ago needs revising, another story I wrote last year for NANOWRIMO has come back to haunt me, and characters, well, they’re out in the waiting room, pacing up and down, ready to tell me their life stories.

Is the temporary cure coffee or wine?

Now I think I really do need a holiday

Or a trip to the asylum.  Thank God this is not the early 20th century, or I might never return.  And if it’s named Bellview, it would be just another story to be written.

The author who went Bonkers!

And that spy who’s at the end of his tether, just think James Bond movie full on action start and you’ve got the first chapter done!

Does it ever end?

 

 

 

NaNoWriMo – April – 2026 – Day 1

I’m supposed to be writing my quota of words for NaNoWriMo, but there’s a problem.

After a late night, the Maple Leafs are playing the Philadelphia Flyers at 9 am our time, Brisbane, so I’ve got to get up and put it on.

And yes, the usual problem crops up: the internet is running slowly, and connecting to the live feed is traumatic. It starts working, just in time for the national anthems, and once again, we can hear that of our adopted country, Canada.

Then we get to see the first few minutes before the internet dies. What can you expect when the government takes on a huge infrastructure project? Delays, cost overruns, and compromises are expected as it looks to rein in costs. Result: an internet that’s utter crap.

We get to see parts of the first period, none of the second. I call my daughter, who’s as invested in ice hockey as we are, and she tells us she’s using a different host. We change, and it all comes good, so much so we get to see the last period, the overtime, and then an exemplary bout of goalkeeping from Frederick Anderson, opps, sorry, he’s moved on, and it’s someone else, to win us the game in the shootout.

By that time it’s afternoon.

Time for writing? No. I have to make some meatball pasta with spaghetti for tonight.

That consumes the next couple of hours.

Perhaps it’s for the best. I’ve got a title and a few scribbled notes about a tired spy, and never being let off the hook. Getting that start, sometimes, is harder than the next 400 pages. As for words written, maybe later.

A to Z – April – 2026 – A

A is for – A Ghost from the past

Sometimes, when you are in the moment, you don’t get to see what comes out of left field.

First, the inheritance.

A castle, yes, a real castle with a moat and a drawbridge.  Towers at each corner and a thousand acres of adjoining lands

Second, the responsibility.

Not to hand it over to the blood-sucking developers who wanted to turn the property into a golf course and millionaire condos.

Third, the fact that my life was so consumed with work, and then more work.

I didn’t know just how hard it was to run an estate such as the castle and its surroundings.  I had no idea how my grandmother had done it or why she had picked me for the job.

My brother would have made a better fist of it, but he was too busy chasing the girl of his dreams in Bermuda. Now, he had his inheritance.

He felt sorry for me after briefly lamenting that our grandmother hadn’t left him the place.

Good thing, too. He would have sold it out from under us and blown away any chance of regaining the affinity we were supposed to have with the land we had inhabited since William the Conqueror.

Our names were in the Doomsday Book.

This morning was like any other morning: busy, and I was out of my depth. The help I had, those who had last helped grandmother, had lost their patience with the new Master, and several had given their notice.

I was trying to organise replacements with a hiring company in London, and it looked like I would have to go down

That’s when Broadhurst, the butler, whom my grandmother specifically asked to keep on, came in, after lightly rapping on the door to the study, which was supposed to be my refuge.

“What is it that can’t wait?” I asked in a slightly testy tone.  It was not his fault I was losing it, but there was a limit, and I’d reached it.

“There’s a lady to see you, Miss Emily Wentworth.”

“Who is she?”

“I believe an old friend of your grandmother’s who hadn’t seen her for years came to visit.”

“You did tell me she died recently?”

“Not part of my remit, sir,” with the most inscrutable expression I’d ever seen.  He could be covered in blood, a knife in each hand, and still look that inscrutable.

I glared at him.  Nothing, apparently, was part of his remit.

“Where is she?’

“In the drawing room, sir.”

“Tea for two?”

“Already in hand, sir.”

He could make the word sir sound like an insult, and had it not been for my grandmother’s insistence that he stay on, I would have long since tossed him to the wolves.

I looked over towards Mary, my late grandmother’s personal assistant, a woman who was as impossible to work with as she was a walking encyclopaedia of my grandmother’s reign as mistress.

“You know an Emily Wentworth?”

“No, sir.  Not in the ten years I was working with her.”

“Who do you think she is?”

“Someone from before my time.  She knew a lot of different people.  Hundreds of Christmas cards.  Christmas was an event, sir.”

“Thank you, Mary.  We’ll pick this up later.”

I went down the passage and left towards the drawing room, my favourite room in the building.  It was where breakfast was served, where the book collection, dating back well over two hundred years, existed.

When I was feeling overwhelmed, I just found a first edition of one of my favourite authors, the same into the luxurious leather lounge chairs, and read.

I opened the double doors to the room and went in.  The sun was out, and the gardens were looking immaculate.

An old lady, older than my grandmother, stood by the window looking out.  She turned as I came into the room.

“Young David, I believe?”

“Miss Wentworth.  You have me at a disadvantage.”

“Oh, I’m an old friend, very old, and hadn’t realised she had recently passed.  I am so sorry for your loss.”

“Thank you.  What can I do for you?”

“Your grandmother once said that I’d I ever needed a place to stay. I would be very welcome to stay here with her.  It seems that might be difficult now that she is no longer here.”

“Slightly.  She did not mention you in any of the papers she left for me.”  They had mentioned about a hundred others, some I was familiar with, others she warned me about, and the rest were worth half a line or two.

At least there were no scheming relatives I had to challenge to a duel.

Yet.

She rummaged around in her voluminous handbag and pulled out a yellowed, crumpled envelope and handed it to me.  “This might explain the circumstances.”

I took it.  It had a furious aroma of mildew and mothballs.  I took out the single folded sheet and read,

My dear Emily,

It was with interest and alarm that I read of your predicament, first in the newspaper and then in your letter.

I always suspected that Adolf was one of those men.
You poor thing.  Of course, you may come and stay for as long as it takes to regain your sanity.

I am looking forward to your imminent arrival.

Love, Matilda

It was my grandmother’s writing.  But it was dated 13th December 1957, some 68 years ago.  The woman before me had to be approaching a hundred, but hardly looked a day over seventy.

“You do realise this invitation was written 69l8 years ago.”

“I was in America.  It took a long time to get here.”

I was waiting for her to tell me she had walked, but no.  She chose to leave the conversation right there.

I shrugged.

“Have you been here before?”

“On the occasion of her wedding to your grandfather.  Did she tell you about me?”

“She did not.”

“Pity.  It might have been possible you were my grandson, but your grandfather chose her, not me.  There’s a story there, but not today.”

Broadhurst appeared as if I had summoned him.  He had a habit of doing that, and it was scary.

“Sir?”

I shook my head.  “Take her to whatever spare room is available.  She will be staying for a while.  Tell the cook, there’s an extra person for dinner.”

“Thank you,” she said.  “Your grandmother was right about you.”

It wasn’t until after she left the room that I realised that she couldn’t know anything about me.  If she had not seen my grandmother in 68 years, how could she know about the 40-year-old grandson?

A question to ask at dinner.

..

I spent the afternoon reading through my grandmother’s diaries for that period from 75 years ago, and sure enough, Emily Wentworth was there, large as life, the girl who was bold, brave, and rebellious

The girl who got into mischief at Miss Irene Davenport’s Finishing school, where apparently raggle-taggle guttersnipes were turned into elegant and charming young ladies.

I could not imagine my grandmother being a raggle-taggle guttersnipe.  Emily Wentworth was a different story and had that look of defiance even now.  I could be easily persuaded to believe Emily would lead her well and truly down the garden path.

I remember my mother once telling me how she had easily been led in her younger days.  It was hard to imagine it, in her later years, when she presented as almost formidable.

It seemed those days at the finishing school would have made interesting reading, but pages had been ripped out, perhaps because she preferred to forget about them.

There was, however, a section around the time of her wedding to my grandfather.

The incomparable and treacherous Miss Emily Wentworth arrived this morning; in defiance of her mother’s orders, she was barred at the gate.

That despicable act of trying to entrap Herbert in an attempt to snatch him away from me was about as low as she could get.  This is the girl who could have any man she wanted.

And with Herbert denying the affair, well, this wedding is hanging by a knife’s edge.  Daddy wants to kill him and is certain to challenge him to a duel at dawn.

It’s an impossible situation.

There was nothing more written until two weeks later, the first day of her honeymoon, with the wonderful Herbert.

Two weeks of intrigue.  I was looking forward to dinner.

I had dined formally once since I had arrived at the castle.  A group of my grandmother’s friends insisted on a wake, and Broadhurst and two serving girls presided over what could only be described as a feast.

Although there would be two of us, it would be no less a feast, presided over by Broadhurst and Anna, who attended breakfast time.

One feature of dinner was dressing up, a tradition I took seriously, as did Emily, who had an amazing gown befitting the dowager she was.

I escorted her into the dining room, and Broadhurst made sure she was seated comfortably.  There was no sitting at either end of a table that sat 24.  We’d need cell phones to talk.

We started with a glass of champagne and the first verbal duel. I led with the first question, “Tell me about Miss Irene Davenport’s Finishing School.”

She smiled, “My, if I were a betting woman, I would not have expected that question.  Miss Davenport.”  She closed her eyes and, after a few seconds, sighed.   “Yes.  All the girls believed she was a witch.”

“At that age, somewhere around sixteen, I think, all girls would have thought that.  After being indulged by your parents all your life, I guess running into a formidable disciplinarian would have been a shock.”

She looked at me with a curious expression, one that told me that she had probably thought I would not have such knowledge.

“You must have had some interesting conversations with your grandmother.”

“She maintained a diary, well, quite a few.”

An almost imperceptible change in expression.  “Well, that’s surprising.  She never struck me as a person who would.  Certainly, she never mentioned it, and we were best friends, shared everything when we were younger.”

Perhaps without realising that she had overstepped certain boundaries.  Or that Emily was that sort of friend who assumed she could.  I had read more about the relationship that existed between them, and my interpretation was that Emily was more worldly than her friend and had to a certain extent, both taken advantage of the situation and of her naivety.

It made me wonder just why she was here.

The question was asked in a tone that suggested an answer or comment to repudiate it was expected, a test to see exactly how much I knew.  She had not lost any of her powers of manipulation.

“Yes.  It was what I understood from her writing.  Typical girlish stuff.  She never mentioned anything about her time at Miss Davenport’s to my mother or to me, but she did tell me about her dancing lessons in Paris, under Mademoiselle Dubois.  She always insisted that the foundation for becoming a proper gentleman was grooming, manners, and being able to execute a perfect tango.”

“That’s one thing she excelled at, the tango.  It was what brought Matilda and Herbert together.  They could set the dance floor alight.”

Was it said as a wistful memory or with just a touch of envy?

“Sadly, my rendition of the tango is somewhat lacking.  She tried to smooth the rough edges, but I think in the end, she decided I was a lost cause.”

“Are you married?”

“No.  There hasn’t been a one to dazzle with my dancing skills or lack thereof.  I lack that certain charm my father and grandfather possessed.  Now, being lord of the manor, what girl would want to live in a draughty castle?”

“More than you could imagine.”  That was a wistful expression, and given what I’d read, perhaps she had at one time been one of them.

It was the right time for soup to be served.

Broadhurst had selected a very good Cabernet Sauvignon from the cellar and had poured two glasses.

The entrees were beef cheek, something I’d had before and found that a little went a long way, but no less an amazing dish.

A bit like the conversation at that time, she was picking over the memories of her best friend that she could share, perhaps with the intent of finding out how much I did know.

It was leading us into the main course, roast beef and Yorkshire pudding, which I’d had before and could take or leave.  But given the culinary experience of my grandmother’s selection of cook, I was preparing myself for an experience.

It was something I could get used to.

It also bothered me that it was difficult to consume all of the food that was prepared, given that there was mostly one of me, and the twenty-odd permanent staff who lived and worked in the castle, and on the estate.  There were a hundred or so others who didn’t.

My grandmother had decided that meals were to be provided for all those working in the castle and nearby, and I had extended that to everyone who requested a meal.  It meant hiring more staff, much needed in an area where unemployment was growing.  It was a discussion that I’d had with Mary, who had been juggling requests from organisations and individuals for employment opportunities, and one project in particular, a live-in farming community where troubled youth could break the spiral into crime and drugs by being given something useful to occupy their minds.

I know my grandmother would have taken it on in an instant.

“How are you finding being lord of the manor, as you call it?”

“More interesting than living in a tiny flat in a run-down building.”

She seemed surprised.  “You were not always wealthy.  Your mother, I believe, was a countess.”

Yes.  She was.  Married to a man who was a Count, a real Count with a real title, but one who had no money and had married her thinking he could tap into her family’s wealth and restore his fortunes.

It worked for a year before he got greedy, and his grandmother cut her off.  She got pregnant, he hung around until after I was born, and then he left.  Or not so much left as he started innumerable affairs, and Mother kicked him out.

After that, it was all downhill.  Grandmother and mother were estranged and never spoke to each other again after she had been cut off.  I visited from time to time once I left home, only because I knew my mother would explode if she knew I was seeing her.  Then my mother died, a drug overdose, the end of a very unhappy life, and I disappeared into obscurity.  It seemed appropriate because, for a long time, I blamed her for my mother’s death.

“In name only, there was a title and nothing else but a pile of debts.  I’m ashamed to say my father was a scoundrel of the worst sort and only hastened my troubled mother’s path to the grave.  Wealth had never made her happy.  In fact, it was a curse.  To be honest, being lord of the manor has no real meaning. I live in a bigger house and eat better food, but my job is endlessly trying to juggle impossible projects and demanding people.”

“Perhaps you should just tell them all where to go and move to the Bahamas.  You don’t have to burden yourself with other people’s problems.”

Was that what she would do?  I had to ask.  “What would you do in my place?”

The look of amusement turned into a smile.  “I admit, once upon a time, I had thought about it.  Would it be worth pursuing Herbert to become the Marquis and Marquess?  I also admit that I envied Matilda because she had it all and never had to struggle once in her life.  It was annoying sometimes to listen to her complain endlessly about how bad it was.  I’m not sure what she writes, but I suspect there’ll be comments on me that are hardly flattering.”

She took a deep breath and took a moment.  Perhaps she was considering how far she would share her experiences.  Decision made.

“I get it.  We were teenagers, young, at times stupid, and sometimes volatile.  It’s one of the most testing times that period from 15 to 21, and we had some interesting arguments, bust-ups, and reconciliations.  But we ended up best friends, as you can see by that letter, written after she married Herbert.”

Anna came and cleared the dishes from the table and left us wondering what was for dessert.  I could use some coffee to dilute the effects of the wine.

When Broadhurst brought out the tray, I knew instantly it was my favourite, a pudding my grandmother insisted on when I visited.

Roly Poly.

I could see Emily’s eyes light up when she saw it.

Of course, there could be no more conversation until we had devoured two helpings, one with custard, the other with clotted cream.  I could not remember the last time I had it because I could never find the recipe, or that is to say, the proper recipe.

Then, when the coffee came, along with a vintage Portuguese port, I could see she had more to say.

“Let’s stop dancing around the elephant in the room.”

It was a curious expression, one my grandmother used and at times my mother.  I’d been known to use it myself.

“You will have read, no doubt, about my efforts to steal Herbert away from your grandmother.  It’s true.  I did.  Try, that is.  I got tired of her telling me how he was the one, that he had only eyes for her, that there was no other woman for him.  It was tosh, but I doubt she would have believed me if I told her he was dating two other girls at the same time he was dating her.”

It was not surprising, after what my mother had told me.  The affairs continued after the wedding, mostly unknown to his wife.

“It was a month before the wedding, and Matilda had organised a birthday party for him and invited a few close friends.  One of those was a girl called Eloise, daughter of a Duke, another of Miss Davenport’s protégés, and as it happens, a former girlfriend of said Herbert.  I knew from a friend of a friend that they were still an item, only more on the hush-hush side because his family needed the family connection to Matildas.”

In my mind, I would have thought a Duke was better than a Marquis, but I could be wrong.  But the story that marriages were arranged for such reasons was common and had an element of truth, especially considering the times.  Could I believe it of my grandmother, perhaps?  She had always said she would have married for love, that she had never been forced into marriage, but it could have been orchestrated by scheming parents.

“Did you try?”

“Of course, and was disappointed when he turned up in my room late one night, one where Matilda decided she needed a heart-to-heart. It was as if I expected him to come; I had dropped hints, not expecting him to act on them.  He did. She came, and it all blew up.”

“Yet you came to the wedding?”

“Matilda’s mother contacted me about a week later, after Matilda had told Herbert that the wedding was off and that she never wanted to see me again.  It was quite an affair.  The problem was that Herbert’s parents couldn’t afford for this match to come to fruition.  She asked me what my game was, and I told her it was simply to prove that Herbert was not exactly the man he made himself out to be and that I never had any intention of trying to seduce him.”

At a time when there was a far stricter moral code enforced on daughters, it was not hard to imagine the scenes that played out in those weeks before the wedding.  Men could virtually do whatever they liked, and women couldn’t because of the risk to their virtue and getting a reputation that could ruin their position in society.  I remember my grandmother lamenting the fact that men had all the freedom and women had none.

It also gave me pause in how I considered my grandmother, given this information.  If it was correct.  I still didn’t know what the purpose of telling all this was.

“I can’t see my grandmother forgiving you.”

“It wasn’t the first time.  We were not exactly angels when we were at Miss Davenport’s.  That place was one where, if you were so inclined, you could get into a great deal of trouble.  Two of the girls in the class did.  The dance instructor, a devilishly handsome Frenchman with the most exotic accent, had his way with them, resulting in the worst possible outcome.  None of us was immune to his wiles.”

“Are you saying…”

“He had his way with her.  Yes.  But he did with me, too.  I think it was the first time for both of us, and as impressionable girls, it was a delirious, happy time followed by the depths of despair when we were rejected.  Still, although I never knew for certain because I didn’t see her again for about a year, I believe she got pregnant, had a child, and then had it adopted.  Or her parents would have.”

If it happened, I could see why it had been kept a secret.  Her reputation and character would be ruined.  But I was trying to reconcile the description Emily was giving me with what I knew of her.  It was impossible.

I took a deep breath.  “Why are you telling me this?”

“I’m not here to cause trouble.  Nor am I here to drag skeletons out of the closet.  The fact is, I’m here to warn you.  Heed it or not is up to you.  Believe me or not, it is up to you.  I still have friends, though, as you can imagine, most of them have passed.  I received a letter about three weeks ago from someone whose name I didn’t recognise.  It asked me if I knew the name of the baby your grandmother had.  The first baby.  You could have knocked me over with a feather.”

“What did you do?”

“I wrote back and told them wherever they got their information it was a lie.”

“Then they sent an official copy of the birth certificate with the girl’s name and the two parents, one of whom was Matilda.  It was her signature on the document.”

“Could it be a forgery?”

“It could, so I had it checked out.  It was legitimate.  Then I wrote back and told them I would not help them prove or disprove anything out of respect for my friend.  I fear these people will not go away.  If they have gone to all this effort, then they want something from you.”

“Money, and a lot of it, or a slice of the inheritance. The thing is, if it was legitimate, why haven’t they got lawyers onto it?  Did the person who wrote the letter have a name?”

She pulled out an envelope from a hidden pocket and slid it over to me.  Inside, there was the birth certificate and a copy of the first letter written and signed by Josephine Llewellen.

“I suggest you get a team of private investigators to check her out and get ahead of it.”

“What do you want?”

“Nothing.  I’m here out of respect for my friend and to warn you of what might be possible trouble.  Other than that, a place to rest my weary bones.  I’m not long for this earth, and this is the place where I was most happy.”

She slowly got out of her chair and stood for a moment.  “Thank you for your indulgence, and a room at the inn.  I am more grateful than you could ever know.”

It was still a strange experience to wake up in what was the master bedroom in the castle.  The bed itself was so large it could fit half a dozen people with room to move.

That same bed was over three hundred years old, an antique four-poster with the curtains more like tapestries than curtains.

Broadhurst had opened the curtains and brought water and the folder with the day’s activities.  I had a quick scan, and there was nothing to attract attention

It was another half hour before I came downstairs and into the morning room.  Anna was there, refreshing the coffee, making me marvel again at how the internal communication system knew exactly where I was.

“Good morning, sir?”

“Good morning, Anna.  Has Emily been down for breakfast?”

“Who, sir?”  She looked genuinely surprised.

“The lady who arrived yesterday afternoon.  Emily Wentworth.  We had dinner last night.”

“No, sir.  There’s been no visitors.”

Broadhurst came into the room with a tray.

“Is there a problem, sir?”

“Emily Wentworth, the lady who arrived here yesterday afternoon.  You told me of her arrival.”

He looked blank; it was the only way I could describe his expression. 

“I don’t believe I did, sir.  There are no visitors in the house at present, just yourself.”

He put the tray down on the sideboard and brought the plate over to where I had just sat down.

“Then I must be going crazy.  I would have sworn there was a visitor and that I had dinner with her last night.”

He shrugged.  “This place can be a little strange at times, sir.  The mistress used to talk to people whom she could only see.  Perhaps it may have been a dream, sir.  Did you sleep well last night?”

“I did.”

“It is this place, sir.  Hundreds of years of goings on, stories my mother used to tell me.  I don’t believe in ghosts, sir, but there are odd noises.”

It felt real enough.  I would go to the study later and see if the documents she had given me were still on the desk.

I went upstairs to the room she had been allocated, and it was empty.  Moreover, it had the look of not having been used for a while.

Then I went to the study, and there was no sign of the documents, certainly not where I left them or where i thought I left them.

Was it my imagination, or as Broadhurst suggested, a dream induced by the eeriness of the castle itself?  He wasn’t wrong. The first few nights were very creepy, and I swore I’d heard a ghost.

The chauffeur, yes, there was a chauffeur and a mechanic, and a fleet of five cars, and one of the downstairs maids had just arrived back from the town about 5 miles away, to refuel and collect the mail, and any particular stores the housekeeper needed.

I was reading a document on small farming techniques sent to me by email when Anna came in to deliver the mail.  We were still getting letters and invitations to events addressed to my grandmother, invitations that were extended to me in her stead, some of which seemed interesting.

Today’s pile had three more, and one other, a curiously old envelope with my name scrawled on it.  It was not the first time I’d seen one like it, one that belonged to a time past.

I opened it and found another inside.  Just like the one that Emily Wentworth had given me.  It had her name and address on ot, somewhere in France, but the postmark was what interested me.

It was 7th October 1943.

My hands were shaking when I took out the two sheets of paper.  One was the birth certificate; the other was a letter, also the same as the previous evening, signed by Josephine Llewellen.

What the hell?

I put everything back in the envelope in the top drawer under a pile of folders.  I needed air.

What was going on?

I got as far as the front foyer when I saw Mrs Rattigan, the housekeeper, talking to a young girl. 

“Good morning, sir,” she said when she saw me.

“Good morning, Mrs Rattigan.”  She had said I could address her by her first name, but given how formidable she looked, I still couldn’t.

“A visitor?”

“In a sense.  We are interviewing for the assistant cook position. This is Josephine Llewellen.”


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