Inspiration, Maybe – Volume 2

50 photographs, 50 stories, of which there is one of the 50 below.

They all start with –

A picture paints … well, as many words as you like.  For instance:

And, the story:

Have you ever watched your hopes and dreams simply fly away?

Everything I thought I wanted and needed had just left in an aeroplane, and although I said I was not going to, I came to the airport to see the plane leave.  Not the person on it, that would have been far too difficult and emotional, but perhaps it was symbolic, the end of one life and the start of another.

But no matter what I thought or felt, we had both come to the right decision.  She needed the opportunity to spread her wings.  It was probably not the best idea for her to apply for the job without telling me, but I understood her reasons.

She was in a rut.  Though her job was a very good one, it was not as demanding as she had expected, particularly after the last promotion, but with it came resentment from others on her level that she, the youngest of the group, would get the position.

It was something that had been weighing her down for the last three months, and if she noticed it, the late nights, the moodiness, sometimes a flash of temper.  I knew she had one; no one could have such red hair and not, but she had always kept it in check.

And then there was us, together, and after seven years, it felt like we were going nowhere.  Perhaps that was down to my lack of ambition, and though she never said it, lack of sophistication.  It hadn’t been an issue, well, not until her last promotion, and the fact that she had to entertain more, and frankly, I felt like an embarrassment to her.

So, there it was, three days ago, the beginning of the weekend, and we had planned to go away for a few days and take stock.  We both acknowledged we needed to talk, but it never seemed the right time.

It was then that she said she had quit her job and found a new one.  Starting the following Monday.

Ok, that took me by surprise, not so much that it was something I sort of guessed might happen, but that she would just blurt it out.

I think that right then, at that moment, I could feel her frustration with everything around her.

What surprised her was my reaction.  None.

I simply asked who, where, and when.

A world-class newspaper in New York, and she had to be there in a week.

A week.

It was all the time I had left with her.

I remember just shrugging and asking if the planned weekend away was off.

She stood on the other side of the kitchen counter, hands around a cup of coffee she had just poured, and that one thing I remembered was the lone tear that ran down her cheek.

Is that all you want to know?

I did, yes, but we had lost the intimacy we used to have, where she would have told me what was happening, and we would have brainstormed solutions. I might be a cabinet maker, but I still had a brain, was what I overheard her tell a friend once.

There’s not much to ask, I said.  You’ve been desperately unhappy and haven’t been able to hide it all that well, you have been under a lot of pressure trying to deal with a group of troglodytes, and you’ve been leaning on Bentley’s shoulder instead of mine, and I get it, he’s got more experience in that place,  and the politics that go with it, and is still an ally.

Her immediate superior was instrumental in her getting the position, but unlike some men in his position, he had not taken advantage of the situation like some might.  And even if she had made a move, which I doubted, that was not the sort of woman she was, he would have politely declined.

One of the very few happily married men in that organisation, so I heard.

So, she said, you’re not just a pretty face.

Par for the course for a cabinet maker whose university degree is in psychology.  It doesn’t take rocket science to see what was happening to you.  I just didn’t think it was my place to jump in unless you asked me, and when you didn’t, well, that told me everything I needed to know.

Yes, our relationship had a use-by date, and it was in the next few days.

I was thinking, she said, that you might come with me; you can make cabinets anywhere.

I could, but I think the real problem wasn’t just the job.  It was everything around her and going with her that would just be a constant reminder of what had been holding her back. I didn’t want that for her and said so.

Then the only question left was, what do we do now?

Go shopping for suitcases.  Bags to pack, and places to go.

Getting on the roller coaster is easy.  At the beginning, it’s a slow, easy ride, followed by the slow climb to the top.  It’s much like some relationships; they start out easy, they require a little work to get to the next level, followed by the adrenaline rush when it all comes together.

What most people forget is that what comes down must go back up, and life is pretty much a roller coaster with highs and lows.

Our roller coaster had just come out of the final turn, and we were braking so that it would stop at the station.

There was no question of going with her to New York.  Yes, I promised I’d come over and visit her, but that was a promise with crossed fingers behind my back.  After a few months in the new job, the last thing she’d want was a reminder of what she left behind.  New friends, new life.

We packed her bags, threw out everything she didn’t want, a free trip to the op shop with stuff she knew others would like to have, and basically, by the time she was ready to go, there was nothing left of her in the apartment, or anywhere.

Her friends would be seeing her off at the airport, and that’s when I told her I was not coming; that moment, the taxi arrived to take her away forever.  I remember standing there, watching the taxi go.  It was going to be, and was, as hard as it was to watch the plane leave.

So, there I was, finally staring at the blank sky, around me a dozen other plane spotters, a rather motley crew of plane enthusiasts.

Already that morning, there had been 6 different types of planes departing, and I could hear another winding up its engines for take-off.

People coming, people going.

Maybe I would go to New York in a couple of months, not to see her, but just to see what the attraction was.  Or maybe I would drop in, just to see how she was.

As one of my friends told me when I gave him the news, the future is never written in stone, and it’s about time you broadened your horizons.

Perhaps it was.


© Charles Heath 2020-2026

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365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 202

Day 202 – Writing Exercise

Myra was a law unto herself.

She was the sort of girl that everyone had an opinion of, and not one of them was right.

The thing is, she never corrected them.

And something else: she didn’t care what anyone else thought of her.  She simply didn’t speak to her detractors; she ignored the taunts and derogatory remarks from people who should have known better.

Even her female contemporaries had little nice to say about her, and I don’t think any of them willingly associated with her.

Not that she cared.

It became a pastime to sit nearby and watch people who should have more sense give her a hard time.  Some said that it was part of the rites of passage in high school. 

Others said it was character building.

I thought differently, but to my dishonour, I did nothing about it.

That is, not for a long time.

And then, when I did, I was not sure why.

Reggie was a class A deadhead.

Good at football, so-called God’s gift to the girls, and had parents who were, by their own admission, movers and shakers.

By that I guess it meant they were large donors to the school football team, which ensured Reggie had a place to focus his talents

I’d seen him play football, and it was not talent I saw.

Eleanor was equally as dense as Reggie, which in turn made them ideally suited.  She was the head cheerleader, and the resident graduating class queen bee.

Girls would literally kill to get her approval.

I didn’t see the sense in it.  Cheerleaders were regarded by the football team, and others, as something quite different to what the girls thought of themselves.

Needless to say, Myra could never make the cheer squad.  Which seemed wrong to me because she looked just as attractive as all the rest, if you took away the exterior cladding, put her in a school uniform and also got rid of the excessive make-up and the different coloured hair each week

This week it was hot pink.

Nor did she wear the school uniform and had racked up an inestimable number of demerit points that got her into almost permanent detention.

That’s where I first met her.

I’d seen her around, and watched from afar the effects of her attitude towards her fellow students.  Her friends, if they could be called that, were the misfits, and by the middle of graduation year that’s where I finished up.

In detention with the other misfits.

I doubt she noticed me.  No one did, which in a way suited me because I was studying hard so I could go to college.  I know my parents would be glad to see me go, because I didn’t quite fit their idea of a proper child.

Whatever that meant. 

They could hardly put up my older brother as a shining example I should follow.  I was not interested in sport.

So, there we were.  In detention.

Mr Forsythe, probably about a hundred years old and on the cusp of retirement, was the teacher in charge of detention.

No one else wanted to do it, and the few extra dollars he got in overtime went towards his retirement, wandering the ruins of ancient Rome.

His subject was history, and Ancient Rome, a subject he could go on about, and did.  Most students treated his class as a joke, but he just ignored them and kept on going, and probably would through a prison riot.

I thought he was a good teacher and his class was one of the few I liked.  There were six students in detention.  Myra and I sat on opposite sides of the room down the back.  The other four sat up the front and were badly behaved. 

Not dramatically so, or they would never get out of going to detention.  Neither Myra nor I joined them.  Detention was just another hiding place.

Until it wasn’t.

For a month, the others left us alone.  No point stirring up someone who wouldn’t rise to the occasion.

Eleanor was different, because of her parents’ influence, the fact she was Prom Queen this year, and on the student council.  She ended up on the detention list for giving another cheer wannabe the treatment, otherwise known as the initiation rite.

I’d heard she had been cited, but I never thought that the head would enforce it.  It remained to be seen whether she would stay.

She made a dramatic entrance.

She didn’t bother to knock on the door, marched straight up to Mr Forsythe’s desk and slammed the sheet of paper on his desk so loudly we all jumped.

Up till then we were in our own world, shutting out the rest of the room.

Forsythe didn’t look up.  Didn’t look interested either.

“Hey, old man.  This is rubbish.  I don’t do detention.”

He took a few seconds, then looked up at her.  “My name is Mr Forsythe, young lady, not ‘hey, you ‘.”
He took the piece of paper and read it, then looked at her again.  “I presume you can read?”

“Of course, you old fool.”

He chose to ignore the insults, but I knew somewhere in this conversation he was going to put her in her place.  “Read it.”

“It’s rubbish.  I won’t do detention.”

“So, now it’s going from don’t do to won’t do, which is something else entirely.  What you will do is sit down and be quiet.  Detainees do not make noise.”

With that, he went back to his book.

“This is stupid.  I’m leaving.”

He sighed, then looked at her.  “Then you will fail history and therefore will not be able to graduate with the rest of your class.  And no graduation, no prom.  Now sit down and contemplate why you are here, and why you are not going to darken my door for much longer.  Am I understood?”

He metaphorically kicked her where it hurt.  Graduation and the prom.  Being the Prom Queen, being the Queen Bee.

I thought Forsythe was brave taking on her family.  He would not be the first teacher her family had tried to ruin.

“This is wrong.”

“No.  What is wrong is that you thought you could do whatever you pleased without consequences.  That might happen at home but not in here.  Sit and be silent.”

She glared at him, but it had no effect.

She was not going to be able to leave, so she scanned the room and saw us, Myra and me.  I could guess what was going to happen next

She came down the back of the room and sat at the desk in the middle of the back row.  She smiled at me and scowled at Myra.

Eleanor was never able to get under Myra’s skin, not in the way Myra could do to her.  It was easy.  She had nothing Eleanor could use against her, unlike every other girl.

She smiled at me because I was once foolish enough to be tricked by her, but once bitten was enough.  I made a point of avoiding her.  Not so easy in detention. But I had nothing to lose.  I didn’t care if I never got out of detention.

She made a great effort to make sure Mr Foresyth knew where she landed.  He wouldn’t care; in fact, he was glad Myra and I sat down in the back.  We had earned the titles of troublemakers not because we started it; it was because trouble came to us.

“So, Blinky, what are you in for?”

Blinky was the name her boyfriend gave me because one day he saw me squinting because my eyes were watering.  It stuck because they thought it was insultingly funny.

It was better than some of the names they handed out

“Rest and recreation.”  Which in a sense was true. Trying to avoid the football team’s idea of being boisterous was a tiring exercise.

“You must have done something bad to get put in here with the circus ringmaster.”

She was going to push Mr Foresyth as far as she could, perhaps thinking if she insulted him enough he would kick her out.

“No.  But as a columnist for the high school magazine, this is where I get to work on the juicy stories.”

“No one reads it.”

“You don’t read it, Eleanor, which is to your detriment.  But the Staff and the crazy students do.  Where else can they read about what’s going on?.  I’ve been waiting to do a story on you, and here you are, my prayers answered.”

I remembered the last student reporter the magazine editor sent to interview the head cheerleader, and what had happened. 

His problem was he had a crush on her, and she played him like a finely tuned fiddle.  Her expression changed when I said my prayers were answered.  She had heard what she wanted to hear.  No surprises there.

Myra, in the meantime, tried hard to not look like she was listening in.  Eleanor would tire of me soon, and turn on her.

I asked, “Have they made Reggie the prom king yet.  I’m betting you wouldn’t want anyone else as your king, and I reckon he’d be very dark if someone else got the gig.”

“Why should it matter to me?  I have nothing to do with it.”

“You have everything to do with it.  I heard you screaming at the head master that if Reggie didn’t get it, there’d be no more handouts.  What did you mean by that?”

“Nothing.  I was just making noise.”  She tried to pretend none of it mattered to her, but it did.  It was going to be her way or the highway.

I shrugged.  “I heard you were trying to take over the grad dance.  Please do.  At the moment it’s going to be very boring.  Oh. And what was that strongly opinionated discussion with Mr Masters?  You might want to be slightly more tactful with everyone, or it will come back and bite you.”

Masters was the teacher in charge of the school paper, and one of the teachers organising the Prom.  He didn’t like half of the class he taught because none of them had any respect for the press.  It was, he said, an alarming trend that started at the top.  Added to the fact that most of his students couldn’t string two words together.

“I thought articles were meant to be flattering.  He said any article written about me would be faithfully portray me as the model for the new students as we move towards the next century.”

I was there.  He was being expansive and trying to get her on-side.  He needed coverage on the big issues leading up to the Prom and graduation.  That meant getting Eleanor and Reggie to cooperate.

That was going to be my job, in the end.

Along with commentary for the yearbook.

“Try being your naturally charming self, Eleanor, and the story will write itself.” 

There was not much point telling her the story was done, and it was not too flattering.  That could change.

“Then let me know when you’re free.”

She turned away, and interaction was done.  Hopefully I wouldn’t have to talk to her until detention was over.

Or I could just move.

Myra kept a wary eye on her main detractor.  It wasn’t as if she had to; it was just that small problem of Eleanor sneaking up on you when you least expected her.  She did it to everyone, her secret weapon.  I know the other girls in her squad were fed up and couldn’t wait for the football season to end, and for her to graduate.

I kept a wary eye on Eleanor.  For her it was too good an opportunity to land a few insults.  Not that Myra would want me to interfere.  She could handle Eleanor, but some days she could be particularly trying.

“There’s a spot about to become vacant in the squad.  I think you would make an excellent member.”

Myra simply ignored her.  It might work for a while, but it was not a long-term strategy.  The idea that Myra would be remotely interested in being a cheerleader was almost funny.

Myra took her time to swing around and give her a long, hard stare.  “That was a joke, wasn’t it?”

It was.  Eleanor was up to something.  And the fact she had approached her, not the other way around, told me there was a storm front on the horizon.

“No.  I’m serious.  The coach said I needed to relax my stamp on the team and allow for some new talent to facilitate and breathe life into a quintessential and least recognised support group.  He recommended I take a hint from the Dallas Cowboys cheer squad.”

The coach had been joking, but something had ignited in her after watching one episode of a TV series, which one of the football team had mentioned, for reasons other than cheerleading pointers. 

Then came the rumour she was thinking of trying out for the team, next time they were recruiting.  It was not the first time she got one of these ideas.

Myra had no interest in honing her dance skills into a weird sexualised mating performance, which she maintained was just another part of the male culture of putting women in their place engendered by the school and society in general.

She was part of a very small group of girls who firmly believed that men and boys had no right to dictate what they could do, or limit their aspirations.  Eleanor believed a girl’s aspirations were to work until married, then become a wife and mother.  She led by example, working at the diner, and on track to marry Reggie.

Myra had said more than once she couldn’t think of anything worse.  College and career beckoned.  She had no interest in boys, weddings, or wanting to be ‘looked after’ by any man.

“I doubt whether my ballet classes when I was six would be classes as the necessary dancing skills required for the job, Eleanor.  Thank you for the opportunity, but I respectfully decline.”

Being polite was one thing, but refusing an offer from Eleanor, Queen Bee, leader of the pack, daughter of self confessed movers and shakers was something else entirely.

Eleanor’s expression changed.  The last time I’d seen something like it was when the weather changed, and not for the good.

“So, Eleanor,” I said, thinking now would be a good time to run distraction, “if the cheer team is recruiting, does that mean you are dissatisfied with the current team members?  I mean, notwithstanding the minor errors in the routine at the last game, does that mean you’re admitting there are problems?  Coach Wiley says…”

She swung around and glared at me.  Everyone knew the mistake was hers, simply because she had been mysteriously injured the week before.  There were rumours for that too; Reggie had a violent streak, but no one was talking about it.

“Coach Wylie has too many opinions about stuff that’s above his pay grade.  Perhaps if he tried to elevate the football team’s performance and not comment on the intakes of our routine, we might reach the finals.”

There was no mistaking the venom in her tone or the words from her mother’s mouth.  She was the cheerleader and prom queen of her day, and much rested on the shoulders of her daughter. 

“That’s your mother’s disappointment, isn’t it?” I said.

“You have no idea.”

I didn’t.  My parents had no expectation of me.  That all got poured into Jeremy, one of the Reggie acolytes, and through him I heard the true feelings Reggie had for Eleanor, or any of the cheerleaders.

“What happened to you a few weeks back?  You haven’t been yourself?”

The expression softened, which for Eleanor was a marked change from the tough facade she tried hard to maintain.  It may have surprised her that anyone could sound concerned.  I know her mother pushed her way beyond her limits and ability simply because her mother was living her aspirations through her daughter.

It was, I’d finally realised, an impossible dream.  When would Eleanor?

Then the facade snapped back.  “Nothing.  And if anything had it would be none of your business.”  She was turning back to Myra.

“Actually, it is.  News is news, good or bad, and the public have a right to know.” I was quoting Walters.

She was going to regret sitting down in the back.

She turned back, and the look she gave me was unfathomable.  Despair, hatred, misery- it was like she had just discovered everything she had thought her life was about just got turned on its head.

“I did nothing wrong.”

“Nothing wrong according to the values your mother puts on your actions, which I’m guessing were handed down.  It may have served 20 years ago but not now.  The same as you can create your own style.  Just saying.”

Perhaps I’d overstepped the mark, but I got the impression she was in a no-win situation on all fronts.  The school, the cheer squad, Reggie, her mother, and her contemporaries.

She didn’t say anything; perhaps there was no searing retort she could throw at me right then.

But Myra decided to add her two cents’ worth, “I’m guessing that cheer squad vacancy just evaporated.”

Eleanor turned to her, “Why can’t you just be an ordinary girl, wear a school uniform like the rest of us, and what’s with the hair?  I mean seriously?”

It wasn’t said in a mean way, but it could have had less of an edge.

“You never heard of individualism?  I hate the idea of conformity and living out someone’s expectations.  I am my own person.”

“And your mother lets you?”

“She doesn’t like it, but within reason I have a reasonable amount of freedom.”

“You’re lucky then.”

I added my two cents’ worth too, “My parents don’t care.  Maybe if I was on the football team, or in the track and field team, but I’m not.  To them I don’t exist.  To the other boys in teams, I’m just a punching bag.  It’s why I’m here.”

“So you’re telling me I’m not the only one with problems “

“I get told often I am the problem,” Myra said.

“That’s what Reggie tells me.  Once I learn my place, he says, things will be better.”

An admission perhaps she might not have told us in different circumstances, but it explained a great deal.  Reggie was not a very nice person, and even as she was right now, she was still a better person than he ever would be.

“It doesn’t have to be like that, Eleanor.  You could do a lot better than him.”  Myra, I could see, was now concerned for her.

But she wasn’t going to let her guard down.  Eleanor might be sounding reasonable, but she had been like this before, just before the explosion

“I don’t know.  Until I walked into this room, everything was in a state that I could control, or at least I thought I could.  Talking to you two can be depressing, all the negative stuff going on.  To be honest, I wish I hadn’t talked to you two.  Now my head is filled with even more nonsense.  I can’t explain how I ended up in detention to anyone.  And you two can’t talk about this to anyone.  I need to think.  God, even thinking about thinking it is giving me a headache.”

With that, she pulled out a book that looked to me like a romance novel, similar to ones my mother read, and noth Myra and I went back to our solitude. But things were different now, in a way I couldn’t explain.

When detention was over, she left without saying goodbye.  Myra speculated that she would leave before the end of the year and simply run away.

Myra normally just packed her bag and left.  Today she lingered as I got my stuff together.  She wanted to say something, and I could see her thinking about how she was going to handle things now.

We left together, not saying anything.  There was a coffee shop I’d seen her in nearby, and we headed there.

Coffee and cake delivered, and about a dozen words later, she had decided what she was going to say.  I’d never seen her deliberate before.

“You didn’t have to run interference.”

“I know.  It was just a protective instinct I have for people I care about.”

“You don’t have to.  I can handle Eleanor.”

“Most people can’t.  And she’s like a shark smelling blood in the water, especially from those who didn’t know they’re bleeding.”

“True.  She is a piece of work.”

“Actually, her mother is, and she tries hard to live up to her expectations.”

“Do you care about her too?”

It was asked in a manner I construed would be the same as asking if I was harbouring a secret bunch of feelings towards her.  I wasn’t; she was not in my league, and I was fine with it.

“In a brotherly way maybe.  My brother hangs out with Reggie, and I hear stuff.  She needs to dump him sooner rather than later.”

“He’s hurting her?”

“I’m not sure, but he had a temper, and I hear he’s a mean drunk.”

Her expression and watery eyes told me that she knew something about domestic bullies.  If that was the case, it explained away a few assumptions.

“She won’t listen, even if you told her.”

“Not while her mother has her claws in her.”  I shrugged.  “I just hope it’s an accident not waiting to happen.”

That topic ended, and perhaps her desire to converse any more.  She drained the cup and finished the pie.  I thought she would just get up and walk off.

She hesitated.

“You going to college next year?”

“I’d like to.”

“It’s the only way I’m going to get out of the house and from under the oppressors.  I’m looking for someone to share an apartment.”

“You’d trust me?”

“You care about me.  That’s good enough for me.”

“Well, it solves a problem.  Why not?”

“Why not indeed.”  She slipped out of the seat and threw her bag over her shoulder.  The pink hair stood out under the harsh lights. “Until tomorrow.  You might try sitting closer.  I promise I won’t bite.”

Famous last words.

I watched her leave, stopping just outside the windows to give me a small wave, and I had to wonder where this might lead.

Or that I should not think too much about it and see what might happen in what was always going to be an uncertain future.

©  Charles Heath  2026

‘The Devil You Don’t’ – A beta reader’s view

It could be said that of all the women one could meet, whether contrived or by sheer luck, what are the odds it would turn out to be the woman who was being paid a very large sum to kill you?

John Pennington is a man who may be lucky in business, but not so lucky in love. He has just broken up with Phillipa Sternhaven, the woman he thought was the one, but relatives and circumstances, and perhaps because she was a ‘princess’, may also have contributed to the end result.

So, what do you do when you are heartbroken?

That is a story that slowly unfolds, from the first meeting with his nemesis on Lake Geneva, all the way to a hotel room in Sorrento, where he learns the shattering truth.

What should have been solace after disappointment turns out to be something else entirely, and from that point, everything goes to hell in a handbasket.

He suddenly realises his so-called friend Sebastian has not exactly told him the truth about a small job he asked him to do, the woman he is falling in love with is not quite who she says she is, and he is caught in the middle of a war between two men who consider people becoming collateral damage as part of their business.

The story paints the characters, cleverly displaying all their flaws and weaknesses. The locations add to the story at times, taking me back down memory lane, especially to Venice, where, in those back streets, I confess it’s not all that hard to get lost.

All in all, a thoroughly entertaining story with, for once, a satisfying end.

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The cinema of my dreams – I always wanted to write a war story – Episode 46

For a story that was conceived during those long boring hours flying in a steel cocoon, striving to keep away the thoughts that the plane and everyone in it could just simply disappear as planes have in the past, it has come a long way.

Whilst I have always had a fascination with what happened during the second world war, not the battles or fighting, but in the more obscure events that took place, I decided to pen my own little sidebar to what was a long and bitter war.

And, so, it continues…

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When Carlo heard the shot, he stopped his ‘interrogation’ and sent a soldier over to investigate.  To avoid getting shot inadvertently, I came out of the woods with my hands up, and, thankfully, was instantly recognized.

I went over to the barn and looked at the man on the ground.  “Do he have anything to say?”

“No.”

The other man, awaiting ‘interrogation’ was visibly shaken by the events.  Two dead including Leonardo, and one a bloody pulp on the ground, with a very angry Carlo standing over him, his outlook was very bleak.

“You speak English,” I asked him.

“Yes.”

“Who are you?”

“Alberto, sir.  I didn’t agree with anything Fernando did.  A few of us refused to kill any of the villagers.  That was Fernando.  He was the one who beat up the women.”

“You could have stopped him.”

“You know the bastard, Carlo.  Not even you could, and you tried.”

Carlo grunted.  To make sure the men on the ground were dead, he shot them again, and emptied his gun into Fernando, adding a curse with each bullet.

I glared at Alberto.  “Pick a side.”

“I’m with you.  There are several others, back in the castle.  We would be able to help if you were planning an attack.”

“The last person who told me that is out there in the woods with a bullet in his head.  I’m sorry, but I don’t believe you.”

“We can help.”

“And, you will.  When we decide to go, we’ll take you with us.  You double-cross us, the Carlo gets his five minutes.  You try to run away, Carlo will hunt you down and kill you.  Understood?”

He nodded.

“Fernando?”  The man sent to find the defectors had come back.

I shot him before he could make any sort of move, just as he realized what had happened.

I motioned to the soldiers to get the defectors, who, hearing the shots, had started to flee.  Two shots in the air stopped them.  Two of them were small children, who would not have survived if they’d been taken to the castle.

All four were visibly frightened by what they’d seen, and of what their fate might be.  I assured them, they were now in safe hands, and we were going not to the castle, but to a different place.  Desperate people in a desperate situation, I couldn’t imagine where they’d come from, or their journey from Germany with nothing on a promise of safety taken at face value.

“We go to the castle now,” Carlo asked.

“Soon.  We need a plan.  Let’s go back and make one.  But, yes.  We go to the castle now.”

Storming the castle might have worked if I had a hundred men, not about ten. Granted Carlo would be the equivalent of another five, but in a hail of bullets, he would not last long.

I had to put myself in Wallace’s shoes and figure out how he would defend the castle once he realized Jackerby and the resistance members were dead.

Panic would be my first thought.  Then, when rational thought returned, block off all the known entrances and exits, and post sentries outside.  We had about twenty men to deal with, but a dozen were hardened battle soldiers, and that would make a difference.  The fact they were inside covering most of the entrance points would make the job harder.

If we had to use the known entrances.

When the time came, they were going to get a surprise because Carlo knew of two others no one but he, and the owners of the castle, were the only ones who knew about them.

But, first, we had to even the odds if possible.

For that, one of Blinky’s team was a sniper, and with him was a sniper rifle and suppressor which meant we would be able to pick off the sentries without anyone hearing the bullets coming for them.

We were only going to get one shot at it because once Wallace discovered the sentries, he wouldn’t post anymore, and would know of our intent.

But, in the end, none of that mattered. 

We just got a short communication that Meyer was in Florence and his arrival would be in two days’ time.  We were charged with making sure he arrived safely and passed into the pipeline.  The only issue with that was that we needed the castle to complete the process.

That meant we had to move up the plans  to retake the castle, and there were always problems when details were missed.  We had the advantage in our knowledge of the castle and its underground passageways, but would that be enough?

Then there was the surprise.  It had just been learned that a very high-ranking Nazi officer was coming to the castle to personally take Meyer back to the fatherland.  That meant we had to be in the castle when he arrived, so he could be sent back home for interrogation.

Both men, it appeared, had the capacity to turn the tide of the war in our favour.

Blinky simply shrugged when he got the news, then said, “We could do with some more men.”

Stating the obvious.

“It’s the war, you know.  Shortages of everything.”

“Didn’t envisage this at Prep school, did we?  Seems the world was a different place, but my father said it couldn’t last.”

“Nothing ever does.  It’s going to be interesting when this ends if it ends.  There are days I wake up and I can’t remember what it was like, before all this.”

”Well, maybe we get this done, and it’ll be a step closer.  At least, we have to believe that.”

I nodded.  “Good pep talk.  As I remember, you were always trying to talk me into doing something stupid.”

Carlo had been listening to us was a puzzled look.  “Are all you English like you two?”

Blinky answered.  “No.  We’re unique.”

Clearly, he had no idea what that meant.  Blinky was going to try and explain but instead, shrugged.  “Let’s go kill some Germans.”

That Carlo did understand.

——-

© Charles Heath 2020-2022

The cinema of my dreams – I always wanted to go on a treasure hunt – Episode 47

Here’s the thing…

Every time I close my eyes, I see something different.

I’d like to think the cinema of my dreams is playing a double feature but it’s a bit like a comedy cartoon night on Fox.

But these dreams are nothing to laugh about.

Once again there’s a new installment of an old feature, and we’re back on the treasure hunt.

“A hundred square miles, that must have run up the coast close to Patterson’s Reach?” I asked.

Patterson’s reach was about five miles to the north, a small town, where there was little fishing done and allegedly a lot of ferrying drugs being dropped off by large ships coming along the offshore shipping lanes.  No one could prove it, and every trap set by the coast guard had failed to find any evidence.  That meant that someone was tipping them off.

It was also the domain of the Cossatino’s who discouraged anyone else from living there.  It was said that Cossatino owned all of the lands the town sat on and the people who lived there worked for him.

“Only as far as Patterson’s reach and then inland for about 20 miles, about as far as the Faultline and perhaps the closest point between the foothills and the sea.  Ormiston had bought all the land thinking that the treasure was buried on it.  You see, he had a map too, long before Boggs senior had started forging them for the Cossatino’s.”

And in hearing that it begged the question, who had first found the original map?  If Cossatino found it, then getting Boggs senior to forge a lot of useless maps would hide where it really was.

What if Boggs ‘original’ map was yet another elaborate forgery, given to him by Cossatino to create others?  I put that thought to one side.

I wondered if Boggs had been to see her, to get some background.  If there was going to be an expert on the treasure, if it existed or not, she would know.  In fact, she probably knew old man Ormiston.

“Does that map still exist?”

“Perhaps.  It was not found in his effects after he died.  Spent his last years in an asylum.  It wasn’t not finding the treasure, or losing his fortune that sent him mad, it was Alzheimer’s, poor old man.  Whatever documents that were found when his relatives cleaned the place out were brought to the library to be stored, cataloged at some point, and one day when someone decides to write a history of the area, no doubt they want to see the collection.”

“I couldn’t look at the papers?”

“Are you interested in writing a local history.  I’m sure your hunt for the treasure and the many fruitless other expeditions looking for it would make a very entertaining chapter.”

“Maybe I will.”

If that was what it took to look at the documents.  There might be something interesting to be found.  Especially if he kept a diary.  I thought it best not to ask, and fuel suspicions.

“Elmer said there might be relations of Ormiston still around here?”

“Yes, I did say that which I now regret.  There are, but I don’t know who they are.  I knew his wife’s family name was Maunchen, and that the Maunchens came from California originally, and there’s nothing to say they didn’t go back.  Certainly, the wife would be deceased by now, and they had three daughters, all of whom would have married, and changed names.  You’d have to go digging through wedding records in at least a dozen parishes.  If you were thinking of investigating.”

“Sound like too much hard work.  Besides, the treasure doesn’t; exist.  I’m only helping Boggs to keep him from doing something stupid.”

“Like father, like son, unfortunately.  You do realize the father made some outlandish claim in the hotel one night that he had found the clue to where the treasure was buried.   Trouble was, he was prone to making outlandish claims, and by that time, a drunkard.  He went missing the next day, and has never been seen since.”

“You think he found it?”

“No.  But I’m guessing someone thought he had and killed him trying to find out.  We’ll never know.”

“A lesson to be learned then.  I’ll keep an eye on Boggs junior just in case he’s thinking of making an equally outlandish claim.”

“You do that.”

She opened a drawer and pulled out a form and handed it to me.

“What’s this for?”

“A request to look at the archives.  You have to register, and I have to give you a special card, the key to the history of Arkwon County.”

Where it said signature, I signed it.

“You fill out the rest.  When do you want me to pick up the card?”

“Monday next week.  In the meantime, be careful.”

She said it like she knew I would be walking into trouble.

© Charles Heath 2020

What I Learned About Writing – Why Your Aspirational Stories May Be Turning Audiences Away (And How to Fix It)

“If you can’t explain it simply, you haven’t understood it well enough.” – Albert Einstein

In the world of blogging, the line between “inspiring” and “incomprehensible” is razor‑thin. You’ve probably heard the old adage: “Tell a dream, lose a reader.” It’s a warning, not a destiny. In this post we’ll unpack why lofty, abstract storytelling can actually drive readers away, and we’ll give you a concrete roadmap to keep those dreams alive and keep your audience glued to the page.


1. The Allure of the “Dream” Narrative

Every great brand, influencer, or thought‑leader has a vision—a big picture that fuels their work. Think of Elon Musk’s Mars colony, Simon Sinek’s “Start With Why,” or a startup’s promise to “revolutionise the way people travel.”

These dreams:

  • Create emotional resonance – they tap into hopes, fears, and aspirations.
  • Differentiate the voice – a compelling vision makes you stand out in a sea of generic how‑tos.
  • Provide long‑term direction – they guide content strategy, product roadmaps, and community building.

So why would sharing a dream ever backfire?


2. When Dreams Become “Dream‑Noise”

Dream‑Heavy SymptomWhy It Turns Readers Off
Vague, lofty language (e.g., “We aim to reshape humanity”)Readers can’t picture the concrete outcome.
All‑talk, no‑action (no steps, no proof)The audience feels you’re all hype, no substance.
Ignoring the audience’s needs (talking about your mission without linking to their problems)Readers wonder, “What’s in it for me?”
Over‑long, meandering storiesAttention spans are limited; the main point gets lost.
Lack of relatable examplesPeople connect with stories they can see themselves in.

These pitfalls cause a cognitive overload: the brain wants a clear mental model, not a cloud of abstract promises. When that model is missing, the reader disengages—often before the first paragraph ends.


3. The Science Behind the Drop‑Off

  • Attention Span: Studies show the average online reader spends only 8‑10 seconds scanning a piece before deciding to stay or leave.
  • Cognitive Fluency: The brain prefers information that’s easy to process. When you bombard readers with nebulous concepts, they experience mental friction and instinctively retreat.
  • Emotional Alignment: Readers stay when they feel the story resonates with their own goals. A dream that feels distant creates an emotional gap—and gaps drive exits.

4. Turning Dream‑Talk Into Reader‑Retention Gold

Below is a step‑by‑step framework that lets you share your grand vision without losing traction.

Step 1: Anchor the Dream in a Tangible Problem

Instead of: “We’ll change the way the world thinks about sustainability.”
Try: “Every year, 1.2 billion tons of plastic end up in oceans. Our platform gives brands a zero‑waste packaging solution that cuts that number by 30 % within two years.”

Why it works: Readers instantly see the stakes and how your dream addresses a real pain point.

Step 2: Break the Vision into Three Concrete Milestones

MilestoneTimeframeReader Benefit
Prototype LaunchQ2 2025Early adopters get 20 % discount & co‑design input
Beta ScalingQ4 2025Access to analytics dashboards to track waste reduction
Full Roll‑outQ2 2026Certification as a “Zero‑Waste Partner” for marketing

Why it works: Short, numbered milestones make the journey digestible and create mini‑wins that keep readers invested.

Step 3: Weave a Relatable Human Story

  • Introduce a protagonist (real or fictional) who embodies the reader.
  • Show their struggle with the problem.
  • Demonstrate how the solution (your dream) changes their life in measurable terms.

Example: “When Maya, a boutique owner in Austin, switched to our biodegradable sleeves, she cut packaging costs by $3,200 in six months and saw a 12 % lift in repeat customers.”

Step 4: Use Concrete Data & Social Proof

  • Include stats, testimonials, or case studies that prove the dream is already moving.
  • Visuals (infographics, before/after photos) reduce abstraction and boost credibility.

Step 5: End With a Clear Call‑to‑Action (CTA) Aligned to the Dream

  • “Join our pilot program and be among the first to showcase a waste‑free storefront.”
  • “Download the free roadmap that walks you through the first step of going plastic‑free.”

Why it works: The CTA transforms inspiration into a next step—the bridge from dream to action.


5. Real‑World Examples: Dream‑Talk Done Right

BrandDream StatementHow They Ground ItResult
Patagonia“We’re in business to save our home planet.”Constantly shares specific initiatives (e.g., 1% for the Planet, repair kits, supply‑chain transparency).Loyal community of 4M+ activists; consistent sales growth.
Airbnb“Belong anywhere.”Provides concrete stories of hosts and guests, clear guidelines for community standards, and data on economic impact.150 M+ users, $5B+ annual revenue.
Tesla“Accelerate the world’s transition to sustainable energy.”Regularly releases measurable milestones (Model 3 production numbers, Supercharger network expansion).Valuation > $1 trillion, massive media buzz.

Notice how each brand starts with a bold dream, but immediately anchors it in specific, relatable, and data‑driven details. The dream becomes a promise you can see, feel, and act upon.


6. Quick Checklist: Is Your Dream Story Reader‑Friendly?

  •  Problem‑First – Do you start with the reader’s pain point?
  •  Three‑Step Roadmap – Is the vision broken into digestible milestones?
  •  Human Hook – Is there a relatable protagonist?
  •  Concrete Evidence – Do you back up claims with data or testimonials?
  •  Clear CTA – Does the post end with a next step tied to the dream?

If you tick four or more boxes, you’re on the right track. If not, it’s time to rewrite.


7. Takeaway: Dream Boldly, Write Clearly

Your audience craves big ideas—but only when those ideas are presented in a way that feels real, relevant, and actionable. The mantra becomes:

“Tell a dream, keep the reader.”

By anchoring ambition in concrete problems, breaking it into bite‑size milestones, and wrapping it in human stories, you turn a lofty vision into a magnetic narrative that inspires and converts.


Ready to Test This On Your Next Post?

  1. Draft your dream statement.
  2. Apply the five‑step framework above.
  3. Run a quick A/B test: original vs. revised version.
  4. Measure dwell time, scroll depth, and CTA clicks.

Share your results in the comments—let’s learn from each other’s journeys toward dreaming and delivering.

Happy writing, and may your dreams never lose a reader again!

365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 201

Day 201 – Where do the words come from?

“I Swallowed the World and It Came Out as Words”: The Immortal Legacy of Martha Gellhorn

There are writers who sit in quiet rooms, crafting worlds from the safety of imagination. And then there are writers like Martha Gellhorn.

To read Gellhorn is to understand that writing, at its absolute best, is not merely an art form—it is an act of digestion and survival. Famously reflecting on her life as one of the twentieth century’s greatest war correspondents, she once wrote: “I swallowed the world and it came out as words.”

It is a staggering metaphor. It suggests a writer who didn’t just observe history from a distance; she consumed it, absorbed its toxic realities, felt its crushing weight, and then metabolised it onto the page.

In this post, we’re going to explore the profound meaning behind Gellhorn’s iconic quote, look at her extraordinary life on the front lines, and discover what modern writers and seekers can learn from her voracious appetite for truth.


The Appetite of a Witness: What It Means to “Swallow the World”

Most people spend their lives trying to filter out the harshness of the world. We look away from conflict, sanitise our news feeds, and build comfortable cocoons.

Martha Gellhorn did the exact opposite. With a fierce, unblinking gaze, she threw herself directly into the maw of global catastrophe.

When Gellhorn said she swallowed the world, she was describing radical empathy paired with relentless curiosity. She didn’t parachute into a war zone to file a quick story and catch the next flight out. She lived with the refugees, shivered in the trenches, smelled the cordite, and witnessed the devastation wrought on ordinary human beings.

  • Spain (1937): She covered the Spanish Civil War alongside Ernest Hemingway (her future husband), focusing not on the grand strategy of generals, but on the terror of civilians cowering under fascist bombing raids.
  • Normandy (1944): Denied press accreditation as a woman, she smuggled herself onto a hospital ship on D-Day, locking herself in a bathroom until she could step ashore as a stretcher-bearer to witness the carnage firsthand.
  • Dachau (1945): She was among the first journalists to enter the Dachau concentration camp, producing dispatches that captured the silent, skeletal horror of the Holocaust with devastating clarity.

To swallow the world means to refuse numbness. It means taking in the suffering, the beauty, the politics, and the paradoxes of the human experience without spitting out the bitter parts.


The Alchemical Process: When It “Came Out as Words”

Swallowing the world is only the first half of the equation. The true alchemy lies in the second: “…and it came out as words.”

For Gellhorn, writing was not about ego or personal branding. It was a moral imperative. The things she ingested—the injustice, the bravery, the institutional failures—had to be transformed into language, or they would tear her apart from the inside.

Her prose style was the direct result of this digestion process:

  • Relentlessly Direct: She had no patience for flowery adjectives or intellectual posturing. When you are writing from the ruins of Madrid or the liberated ashes of Europe, fluff is a luxury you cannot afford.
  • Deeply Human-Centric: While male contemporaries often focused on hardware, tactics, and troop movements, Gellhorn focused on the cook, the mother, the child, and the soldier. Her words gave faces to statistics.
  • Unapologetically Outspoken: Gellhorn believed that “objectivity” was often a coward’s excuse for neutrality in the face of evil. Her words always took a side—the side of the victim, the oppressed, and the truth.

Her writing wasn’t manufactured in a vacuum; it was forced out of her by the sheer gravity of what she had witnessed.


Why Gellhorn’s Legacy Matters Today

In our modern digital landscape, we are constantly “swallowing the world.” Through smartphones, social media algorithms, and 24-hour news cycles, we ingest a firehose of global trauma, outrage, and information every single day.

Yet, much of this digital consumption leaves us feeling hollow, paralysed, and cynical. Why? Because we consume without metabolising. We scroll, but we do not create; we react, but we rarely reflect.

Martha Gellhorn’s legacy offers a powerful antidote to modern burnout and information fatigue:

  1. Be Present: You cannot write about—or understand—the world if you view it only through a screen. Engage with reality directly, deeply, and without filters.
  2. Find Your Purpose: Gellhorn didn’t write to be famous; she wrote because bearing witness was her duty. Anchor your creative output in something larger than yourself.
  3. Honor the Truth: In an era of misinformation and spin, Gellhorn’s uncompromising commitment to factual, boots-on-the-ground reality is a masterclass for journalists and content creators alike.

Final Thoughts: What Have You Swallowed Today?

Martha Gellhorn lived a life that was staggering in its scope, courage, and output. She didn’t just report on history; she ingested it, digested it, and left behind a body of work that continues to challenge and inspire.

Her famous quote leaves us with a lingering, provocative question as writers, creators, and human beings:

What kind of world are you swallowing—and what are your words doing with it?

If we dare to open our eyes and truly take in the reality around us, our words, too, might carry the weight, the passion, and the undeniable truth of a life fully lived.


Did this quote by Martha Gellhorn resonate with you? Who are your favourite literary war correspondents or truth-tellers? Let us know in the comments below!

“The Things we do for Love”, the story behind the story

This story has been ongoing since I was seventeen, and just to let you know, I’m 72 this year.

Yes, it’s taken a long time to get it done.

Why, you might ask.

Well, I never gave it much interest because I started writing it after a small incident when I was 17, and working as a book packer for a book distributor in Melbourne

At the end of my first year, at Christmas, the employer had a Christmas party, and that year, it was at a venue in St Kilda.

I wasn’t going to go because at that age, I was an ordinary boy who was very introverted and basically scared of his own shadow and terrified by girls.

Back then, I would cross the street to avoid them

Also, other members of the staff in the shipping department were rough and ready types who were not backwards in telling me what happened, and being naive, perhaps they knew I’d be either shocked or intrigued.

I was both adamant I wasn’t coming and then got roped in on a dare.

Damn!

So, back then, in the early 70s, people looked the other way when it came to drinking, and of course, Dutch courage always takes away the concerns, especially when normally you wouldn’t do half the stuff you wouldn’t in a million years

I made it to the end, not as drunk and stupid as I thought I might be, and St Kilda being a salacious place if you knew where to look, my new friends decided to give me a surprise.

It didn’t take long to realise these men were ‘men about town’ as they kept saying, and we went on an odyssey.  Yes, those backstreet brothels where one could, I was told, have anything they could imagine.

Let me tell you, large quantities of alcohol and imagination were a very bad mix.

So, the odyssey in ‘The things we do’ was based on that, and then the encounter with Diana. Well, let’s just say I learned a great deal about girls that night.

Firstly, not all girls are nasty and spiteful, which seemed to be the case whenever I met one. There was a way to approach, greet, talk to, and behave.

It was also true that I could have had anything I wanted, but I decided what was in my imagination could stay there.  She was amused that all I wanted was to talk, but it was my money, and I could spend it how I liked.

And like any 17-year-old naive fool, I fell in love with her and had all these foolish notions.  Months later, I went back, but she had moved on, to where no one was saying or knew.

Needless to say, I was heartbroken and had to get over that first loss, which, like any 17-year-old, was like the end of the world.

But it was the best hour I’d ever spent in my life and would remain so until I met the woman I have been married to for the last 48 years.

As Henry, he was in part based on a rebel, the son of rich parents who despised them and their wealth, and he used to regale anyone who would listen about how they had messed up his life

If only I’d come from such a background!

And yes, I was only a run away from climbing up the stairs to get on board a ship, acting as a purser.

I worked for a shipping company and they gave their junior staff members an opportunity to spend a year at sea working as a purser on a cargo ship that sailed between Melbourne, Sydney and Hobart in Australia.

One of the other junior staff members’ turn came, and I would visit him on board when he would tell me stories about life on board, the officers, the crew, and other events. These stories, which sounded incredible to someone so impressionable, were a delight to hear.

Alas, by that time, I had tired of office work and moved on to be a tradesman at the place where my father worked.

It proved to be the right move, as that is where I met my wife.  Diana had been right; love would find me when I least expected it.

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An excerpt from “Sunday in New York”

Now available on Amazon at:  https://amzn.to/2H7ALs8

Williams’ Restaurant, East 65th Street, New York, Saturday, 8:00 p.m.

We met the Blaines at Williams’, a rather upmarket restaurant that the Blaines frequently visited and had recommended.

Of course, during the taxi ride there, Alison reminded me that with my new job, we would be able to go to many more places like Williams’.  It was, at worst, more emotional blackmail, because as far as Alison was concerned, we were well on our way to posh restaurants, the Trump Tower Apartments, and the trappings of the ‘executive set’.

It would be a miracle if I didn’t strangle Elaine before the night was over.  It was she who had filled Alison’s head with all this stuff and nonsense.

Aside from the half-frown, half-smile, Alison was looking stunning.  It had been months since she had last dressed up, and she was especially wearing the dress I’d bought her for our 5th anniversary that cost a month’s salary.  On her, it was worth it, and I would have paid more if I had to.  She had adored it and me, for a week or so after.

For tonight, I think I was close to getting back on that pedestal.

She had the looks and figure to draw attention, the sort movie stars get on the red carpet, and when we walked into the restaurant, I swear there were at least five seconds of silence, and many more gasps.

I even had a sudden loss of breath earlier in the evening when she came out of the dressing room.  Once more, I was reminded of how lucky I was that she had agreed to marry me.  Amid all those self-doubts, I couldn’t believe she had loved me when there were so many others out there who were more appealing.

Elaine was out of her seat and came over just as the Head Waiter hovered into sight.  She personally escorted Alison to the table, allowing me to follow like the Queen’s consort, while she and Alison basked in the admiring glances of the other patrons.

More than once, I heard the muted question, “Who is she?”

Jimmy stood, we shook hands, and then we sat together.  It was not the usual boy, girl, boy, girl seating arrangement.  Jimmy and I on one side and Elaine and Alison on the other.

The battle lines were drawn.

Jimmy was looking fashionable, with a permanent blade one beard, unkempt hair, and a designer dinner suit that looked like he’d slept in it.  Alison insisted I wear a tuxedo, and I looked like the proverbial penguin or just a thinner version of Alfred Hitchcock.

The bow tie had been slightly crooked, but just before we stepped out, she had straightened it.  And took the moment to look deeply into my soul.  It was one of those moments when words were not necessary.

Then it was gone.

I relived it briefly as I sat and she looked at me.  A penetrating look that told me to ‘behave’.

When we were settled, Elaine said, in that breathless, enthusiastic manner of hers when she was excited, “So, Harry, you are finally moving up.”  It was not a question, but a statement.

I was not sure what she meant by ‘finally’, but I accepted it with good grace.  Sometimes, Elaine was prone to using figures of speech I didn’t understand.  I guessed she was talking about the new job.  “It was supposed to be a secret.”

She smiled widely.  “There are no secrets between Al and me, are there, Al?”

I looked at ‘Al’ and saw a brief look of consternation.

I was not sure Alison liked the idea of being called Al.  I tried it once and was admonished.  But it was interesting that her ‘best friend forever’ was allowed that distinction when I was not.  It was, perhaps, another indicator of how far I’d slipped in her estimation.

Perhaps, I thought, it was a necessary evil.  As I understood it, the Blaines were our mentors at the Trump Tower, because they didn’t just let ‘anyone’ in.  I didn’t ask if the Blaines thought we were just ‘anyone’ before I got the job offer.

And then there was that look between Alison and Elaine, quickly stolen before Alison realised I was looking at both of them.  I was out of my depth, in a place I didn’t belong, with people I didn’t understand.  And yet, apparently, Alison did.  I must have missed the memo.

“No,” Alison said softly, stealing a glance in my direction, “No secrets between friends.”

No secrets.  Her look conveyed something else entirely.

The waiter brought champagne, Krug, and poured glasses for each of us.  It was not the cheap stuff, and I was glad I brought a couple of thousand dollars with me.  We were going to need it.

Then, a toast.

To a new job and a new life.

“When did you decide?”  Elaine was effusive at the best of times, but with the champagne, it was worse.

Alison had a strange expression on her face.  It was obvious she had told Elaine it was a done deal, even before I’d made up my mind.  Perhaps she’d assumed I might be ‘refreshingly honest’ in front of Elaine, but it could also mean she didn’t really care what I might say or do.

Instead of consternation, she looked happy, and I realised it would be churlish, even silly, if I made a scene.  I knew what I wanted to say.  I also knew that it would serve little purpose provoking Elaine or upsetting Alison.  This was not the time or the place.  Alison had been looking forward to coming here, and I was not going to spoil it.

Instead, I said, smiling, “When I woke up this morning and found Alison missing.  If she had been there, I would not have noticed the water stain on the roof above our bed, and decided there and then how much I hated the place.” I used my reassuring smile, the one I used with the customers when all hell was breaking loose, and the forest fire was out of control.  “It’s the little things.  They all add up until one day …”  I shrugged.  “I guess that one day was today.”

I saw an incredulous look pass between Elaine and Alison, a non-verbal question; perhaps, is he for real?  Or, I told you he’d come around.

I had no idea the two were so close.

“How quaint,” Elaine said, which just about summed up her feelings towards me.  I think, at that moment, I lost some brownie points.  It was all I could come up with at short notice.

“Yes,” I added, with a little more emphasis than I wanted.  “Alison was off to get some studying in with one of her friends.”

“Weren’t the two of you off to the Hamptons, a weekend with some friends?” Jimmy piped up and immediately got the ‘shut up, you fool’ look that cut that line of conversation dead.  Someone forgot to feed Jimmy his lines.

It was followed by the condescending smile from Elaine, and “I need to powder my nose.  Care to join me, Al?”

A frown, then a forced smile for her new best friend.  “Yes.”

I watched them leave the table and head in the direction of the restroom, looking like they were in earnest conversation.  I thought ‘Al’ looked annoyed, but I could be wrong.

I had to say Jimmy looked more surprised than I did.

There was that odd moment of silence between us, Jimmy still smarting from his death stare, and for me, the Alison and Elaine show.  I was quite literally gob-smacked.

I drained my champagne glass, gathering some courage and turned to him.  “By the way, we were going to have a weekend away, but this legal tutorial thing came up.  You know Alison is doing her law degree.”

He looked startled when he realised I had spoken.  He was looking intently at a woman several tables over from us, one who’d obviously forgotten some basic garments when getting dressed.  Or perhaps it was deliberate.  She’d definitely had some enhancements done.

He dragged his eyes back to me.  “Yes.  Elaine said something or other about it.  But I thought she said the tutor was out of town and it had been postponed until next week.  Perhaps I got it wrong.  I usually do.”

“Perhaps I’ve got it wrong.”  I shrugged as the dark thoughts started swirling in my head again.  “This week or next, what does it matter?”

Of course, it mattered to me, and I digested what he said with a sinking heart.  It showed there was another problem between Alison and me; she might have been telling me lies.  If what he said was true and I had no reason to doubt him, where was she going tomorrow morning, and had she really been with a friend studying today?

We poured some more champagne, had a drink, then he asked, “This promotion thing, what’s it worth?”

“Trouble, I suspect.  Definitely more money, but less time at home.”

“Oh,” raised eyebrows.  Obviously, the women had not talked about the job in front of him, or, at least, not all the details.  “You sure you want to do that?”

At last, the voice of reason.  “Me?  No.”

“Yet you accepted the job.”

I sucked in a breath or two while I considered whether I could trust him.  Even if I couldn’t, I could see my ship was sinking, so it wouldn’t matter what I told him, or what Elaine might find out from him.  “Jimmy, between you and me, I haven’t as yet decided one way or another.  To be honest, I won’t know until I go up to Barclay’s office and he asks me the question.”

“Barclay?”

“My boss.”

“Elaine’s doing a job for a Barclay who recently moved into the tower a block down from us.  I thought I recognised the name.”

“How did Elaine get the job?”

“Oh, Alison put him onto her.”

“When?”

“A couple of months ago.  Why?”

I shrugged and tried to keep a straight face, while my insides were churning up like the wake of a supertanker.  I felt sick, faint, and wanted to die all at the same moment.  “Perhaps she said something about it, but it didn’t connect at the time.  Too busy with work, I expect.  I think I seriously need to get away for a while.”

I could hardly breathe, my throat was constricted, and I knew I had to keep it together.  I could see Elaine and Alison coming back, so I had to calm down.  I sucked in some deep breaths and put my ‘manage a complete and utter disaster’ look on my face.

And I had to change the subject, quickly, so I said, “Jimmy, Elaine told Alison, who told me, you were something of a guru of the cause and effects of the global economic meltdown.  Now, I have a couple of friends who have been expounding this theory …”

Like flicking a switch, I launched into the well-worn practice of ‘running a distraction’, like at work when we needed to keep the customer from discovering the truth.  It was one of the things I was good at, taking over a conversation and pushing it in a different direction.  It was salvaging a good result from an utter disaster, and if ever there was a time that it was required, it was right here, right now.

When Alison sat down and looked at me, she knew something had happened between Jimmy and me.  I might have looked pale or red-faced, or angry or disappointed, but it didn’t matter.  If that didn’t seal the deal for her, the fact that I took over the dining engagement did.  She knew well enough that the only time I did that was when everything was about to go to hell in a handbasket.  She’d seen me in action before and had been suitably astonished.

But I got into gear, kept the champagne flowing and steered the conversation, as much as one could from a seasoned professional like Elaine, and, I think, in Jimmy’s eyes, he saw the battle lines and knew who took the crown on points.  Neither Elaine nor Jimmy suspected anything, and if the truth be told, I had improved my stocks with Elaine.  She was at times both surprised and interested, even willing to take a back seat.

Alison, on the other hand, tried poking around the edges, and, once when Elaine and Jimmy had got up to have a cigarette outside, questioned me directly.  I chose to ignore her and pretend nothing had happened, rather than tell her how much I was enjoying the evening.

She had her ‘secrets’.  I had mine.

At the end of the evening, when I got up to go to the bathroom, I was physically sick from the pent-up tension and the implications of what Jimmy had told me.  It took a while for me to pull myself together; so long, in fact, that Jimmy came looking for me.  I told him I’d drunk too much champagne, and he seemed satisfied with that excuse.  When I returned, both Alison and Elaine noticed how pale I was, but neither made any comment.

It was a sad way to end what was supposed to be a delightful evening, which, to a large degree, it was for the other three.  But I had achieved what I set out to do: to play them at their own game, watching the deception once I knew there was one, as warily as a cat watches its prey.

I had also discovered Jimmy’s real calling; a professor of economics at the same University Alison was doing her law degree.  It was no surprise in the end, on a night where surprises abounded, that the world could really be that small.

We parted in the early hours of the morning, a taxi whisking us back to the Lower East Side, another taking the Blaines back to the Upper West Side.  But, in our case, as Alison reminded me, it would not be for much longer.  She showed concern for my health and asked me what was wrong.  It took all the courage I could muster to tell her it was most likely something I ate and the champagne, and that I would be fine in the morning.

She could see quite plainly it was anything other than what I told her, but she didn’t pursue it.  Perhaps she just didn’t care what I was playing at.

And yet, after everything that had happened, once inside our ‘palace’, the events of the evening were discarded, like her clothing, and she again reminded me of what we had together in the early years before the problems had set in.

It left me confused and lost.

I couldn’t sleep because my mind had now gone down that irreversible path that told me I was losing her, that she had found someone else, and that our marriage was in its last death throes.

And now I knew it had something to do with Barclay.

© Charles Heath 2015-2026

Sunday In New York

365 Days of Writing, 2026 – 201

Day 201 – Where do the words come from?

“I Swallowed the World and It Came Out as Words”: The Immortal Legacy of Martha Gellhorn

There are writers who sit in quiet rooms, crafting worlds from the safety of imagination. And then there are writers like Martha Gellhorn.

To read Gellhorn is to understand that writing, at its absolute best, is not merely an art form—it is an act of digestion and survival. Famously reflecting on her life as one of the twentieth century’s greatest war correspondents, she once wrote: “I swallowed the world and it came out as words.”

It is a staggering metaphor. It suggests a writer who didn’t just observe history from a distance; she consumed it, absorbed its toxic realities, felt its crushing weight, and then metabolised it onto the page.

In this post, we’re going to explore the profound meaning behind Gellhorn’s iconic quote, look at her extraordinary life on the front lines, and discover what modern writers and seekers can learn from her voracious appetite for truth.


The Appetite of a Witness: What It Means to “Swallow the World”

Most people spend their lives trying to filter out the harshness of the world. We look away from conflict, sanitise our news feeds, and build comfortable cocoons.

Martha Gellhorn did the exact opposite. With a fierce, unblinking gaze, she threw herself directly into the maw of global catastrophe.

When Gellhorn said she swallowed the world, she was describing radical empathy paired with relentless curiosity. She didn’t parachute into a war zone to file a quick story and catch the next flight out. She lived with the refugees, shivered in the trenches, smelled the cordite, and witnessed the devastation wrought on ordinary human beings.

  • Spain (1937): She covered the Spanish Civil War alongside Ernest Hemingway (her future husband), focusing not on the grand strategy of generals, but on the terror of civilians cowering under fascist bombing raids.
  • Normandy (1944): Denied press accreditation as a woman, she smuggled herself onto a hospital ship on D-Day, locking herself in a bathroom until she could step ashore as a stretcher-bearer to witness the carnage firsthand.
  • Dachau (1945): She was among the first journalists to enter the Dachau concentration camp, producing dispatches that captured the silent, skeletal horror of the Holocaust with devastating clarity.

To swallow the world means to refuse numbness. It means taking in the suffering, the beauty, the politics, and the paradoxes of the human experience without spitting out the bitter parts.


The Alchemical Process: When It “Came Out as Words”

Swallowing the world is only the first half of the equation. The true alchemy lies in the second: “…and it came out as words.”

For Gellhorn, writing was not about ego or personal branding. It was a moral imperative. The things she ingested—the injustice, the bravery, the institutional failures—had to be transformed into language, or they would tear her apart from the inside.

Her prose style was the direct result of this digestion process:

  • Relentlessly Direct: She had no patience for flowery adjectives or intellectual posturing. When you are writing from the ruins of Madrid or the liberated ashes of Europe, fluff is a luxury you cannot afford.
  • Deeply Human-Centric: While male contemporaries often focused on hardware, tactics, and troop movements, Gellhorn focused on the cook, the mother, the child, and the soldier. Her words gave faces to statistics.
  • Unapologetically Outspoken: Gellhorn believed that “objectivity” was often a coward’s excuse for neutrality in the face of evil. Her words always took a side—the side of the victim, the oppressed, and the truth.

Her writing wasn’t manufactured in a vacuum; it was forced out of her by the sheer gravity of what she had witnessed.


Why Gellhorn’s Legacy Matters Today

In our modern digital landscape, we are constantly “swallowing the world.” Through smartphones, social media algorithms, and 24-hour news cycles, we ingest a firehose of global trauma, outrage, and information every single day.

Yet, much of this digital consumption leaves us feeling hollow, paralysed, and cynical. Why? Because we consume without metabolising. We scroll, but we do not create; we react, but we rarely reflect.

Martha Gellhorn’s legacy offers a powerful antidote to modern burnout and information fatigue:

  1. Be Present: You cannot write about—or understand—the world if you view it only through a screen. Engage with reality directly, deeply, and without filters.
  2. Find Your Purpose: Gellhorn didn’t write to be famous; she wrote because bearing witness was her duty. Anchor your creative output in something larger than yourself.
  3. Honor the Truth: In an era of misinformation and spin, Gellhorn’s uncompromising commitment to factual, boots-on-the-ground reality is a masterclass for journalists and content creators alike.

Final Thoughts: What Have You Swallowed Today?

Martha Gellhorn lived a life that was staggering in its scope, courage, and output. She didn’t just report on history; she ingested it, digested it, and left behind a body of work that continues to challenge and inspire.

Her famous quote leaves us with a lingering, provocative question as writers, creators, and human beings:

What kind of world are you swallowing—and what are your words doing with it?

If we dare to open our eyes and truly take in the reality around us, our words, too, might carry the weight, the passion, and the undeniable truth of a life fully lived.


Did this quote by Martha Gellhorn resonate with you? Who are your favourite literary war correspondents or truth-tellers? Let us know in the comments below!