The cinema of my dreams – I always wanted to see the planets – Episode 39

Talk fast, and hope like hell!

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Oh, to be back on a cargo ship with three other crew members and a robot that wasn’t trying to destroy ships and murder crew members.

On the cargo ship, the captain could hide in his or her cabin behind the bridge and never come out except to tell the robot he or she was doing a good job.

Sometimes you’d see the crew in the mess hall.

No major life-changing decisions. It was point A to point B without drama, hold-ups, or anything really.

Not like being the captain of a brand-new class of explorer’s vessels with over 2,000 crewmen on the outer edges of our galaxy, on the verge of being destroyed.

“So, for the benefit of a human without the resources of countless generations of knowledge, and experience of countless alien entities, who or what are you that can make such a life-changing decision? Especially after you said that we would be safe.”

“If you are inferring that I am a robot programmed to not look rationally at the pros and cons of any case you put to me, or that I am devoid of any empathy, you’re wrong. That I should make such a threat, in our experience, you humans tend to do one of two possible actions, you retaliate with violence, or you make a rational argument. As for who I am, I have a living body that requires nourishment and ages not unlike your own, hosting a fully cognisant member of our race. The only difference is that I do not appear in my true form, in deference to making your interaction simpler. I could take any one of a hundred different forms, depending on whom we hold discussions.”

That cleared several questions that had formed in my mind. This race was very advanced, being able to put their consciousness into another, or any, body. Did that mean they never died? Not the time to ask. The fact they had found a way to assess human reaction to stress, or life or death situations so simply showed they had been observing us a long time.

“We chose not to shoot first. You will see we might be at a battle state, but that’s only for our protection. You cannot hold us responsible for the actions of that other ship because as far as the whole of our planet is concerned, we were the first to come here, and as the first, our mission is not to shoot first and ask questions later, as much as it is to explore, and learn. The keyword is learning.”

“These are words, and our experiences with humans have taught us that what you say and what you do are quite often two entirely different things.”

My experience too, and it was an all too familiar scenario. I suspect that the motives of my masters might equally be received with some skeptics, because not everyone in the alliance was on the same page, and decisions were sometimes based on possible shifting alliances.

Space travel still had a gloss on it, and everyone was looking to get a seat at the table. I had no doubt my new friend, I’d I could call him that, would be equally aware of the situation, as it appeared he did, and it spoke volumes about the levels of their penetration in our world.

“I think, then, our best course of action is to prove we mean what we say. You were chasing that other vessel, the one you say the occupants committed crimes upon people in your galaxy.”

“They did. We were, but there was a measured reluctance on the part of the other crew members to pursue them beyond the limits of our galaxy. Exploration is one thing, an offense that might cause conflict is something else.”

So, they had problems with being the instigators of actions that might be misinterpreted.

“Then let us apprehend them, and we will render the justice together. I have no trouble bringing people who have criminal intentions to justice. I would prefer it to be ours, but for the sake of creating at least an initial relationship between our worlds, I will accept the responsibility.”

I could see Nancy looking at me with a look that would kill mortal men and understood her concern. This was going to be a tough sell all round

“It would be acceptable as a preliminary basis for discussions. My people would consider your input if or when any or all of those responsible for crimes were arraigned.”

Good enough, for the moment.

“Excellent. Now, could you lift the block you have on our communications so I can get the first officer on to finding where their ship is “

“You may have a hard job catching them. Their ship is, as far as we are aware, the fastest your galaxy has.”

“Not quite, but that’s a discussion for another day.”

The green bar on my communicator returned.

“Number one.”

A moment later he came back with, Sir, you are OK?”

“Fine. Have you been monitoring that Russian vessel?”

“Yes, sir. It’s about a half-hour from here.”

“Good. Ready the ship for pursuit. We have a few questions that need answering. I’ll explain more when I get back.”

“You can come with us, on our ship, or in yours. I will communicate your existence with my superiors, just not the fact you’ve infiltrated us in deference to your people if you want to get them out, or declare their presence, a situation we can control if you agree to sit down and talk about it. I suspect that they’ve been helping more than hindering, other than just keeping you informed of our progress.”

I didn’t get a smile, but that invisible change in expression was an interesting indicator.

“I’ll stay, we’ll follow discreetly. Your actions will be judged, Captain.”

“No pressure then. Could you send the names, or if not, photos, of the offenders? How many are there?”

“Six. We shall. Good luck.”

The next instant I was back on the deck of my own ship.

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365 Days of writing, 2026 – 69

Day 69 – Writing exercise

We don’t have a lot of time

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This was the thing about end-of-world stuff.

You honestly believe that people could not be that stupid, and how simple it was to create the conditions where the only answer is nuclear Armageddon.

We go to the movies, we watch television shows that portray what it’s like before the war, during the war and then after the war, what we are calling World War 3.

If there’s a war, because some shows are about people building bunkers in anticipation of a war, and then when there wasn’t, they blew everything up anyway.

And sadly, that just about sums up what is happening to us now.

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Let’s go back. It wasn’t all that long ago. We had a particular country in the Middle East deciding that it was sick of missiles randomly raining down on it.

Maybe that’s a bit of an exaggeration, but the intent was the same. Certain Arab states didn’t like Israel, that certain country, so Israel started bombing the Palestinians.

Meanwhile, elements in Yemen sent missiles, elements in Lebanon sent missiles, and a larger oil-rich country, Iran, financed all these splinter Arab groups.

Then there’s the Russians and the Ukrainians. There’s the Chinese posturing over Taiwan. The United States posturing over oil and terrorism, and the rest of the world, basically horrified, are nervously watching on.

We are in Australia, as far away from all this stuff as you could get, but we do have a problem. Oil. We import it all, so if the Middle East explodes, we will be in trouble.

We could live with posturing. We could live with the superpowers flexing their muscles. What we don’t want or need is a full-scale war that would become a black hole and suck everyone in.

We even said so, multiple times. Preceful negotiations, not bombs.

Did anyone listen….

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I was reading a book, a work of fiction, written a few years ago now.

The premise ..

If someone blows up the oil pipelines in the Middle East, and a country on the borders of the Hormuz Strait decided to sink a few ships and block it, how long would it take for society to break down?

This book should be mandatory reading for every politician in the world because what happens when the scenario plays out is Armageddon.

No oil, no petrol, no cars or trucks, no deliveries. No oil for the power station generators, no industry, no food moving. People don’t store food. They buy it daily. When the food runs out…

Rationing? Tell that to the guy with the gun, pointing it at you. He’s desperate and will pull the trigger. All semblance of sanity is finished.

You get the picture. Two weeks, anarchy, four goodbye to sanity and everything else.

I’m reading this book, and a newsflash comes on the screen.
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Israel and America have bombed Iran.

Why? They think the Iranians are about to launch a nuclear warhead.

Where? Israel, America?

Do they not know that if the Iranians exploded a nuclear bomb anywhere, there’s going to be retaliation?

I’m sitting staring at the TV screen in utter disbelief.

Of course, Iran is going to fire back, and because America is involved, they will retaliate against all the US bases in the other Arab States.

What was the reason for this seemingly unprovoked attack, other than the alleged nuclear weapon?

Pick one out of 157 random reasons, none quite a making up a coherent sentence. We are told it will last two days, the war will be won, Iran will lose everything, the country will be taken back by the people, and everything will be fine.

That’s right, after the alleged nuclear bomb, the next reason was to kill the radical leadership and have the people revolt.

Two days at the most. Bomb their nuclear facilities and some infrastructure, one of which was apparently next to a girl’s school, and it was hit instead with horrifying results. But they did kill the leader.

I guess what happens next would be the same if the Iranians killed the President of the USA, and I hpe they weren’t thinking there would be no retaliation.

Admittedly, we all think that Iran is run a little too religiously, and that the regime is harsh in meting out punishment to dissenters and women, but it is a sovereign country, and no other country has the right to bomb them simply because we don’t like their religion or customs.

Of course, we in Australia denounced the attack as illegal, along with just about every sane country in the world. But again, we are reminded that this is allegedly about killing the leadership and hoping for an uprising.

Yep. Good luck with that. Day two, the expert commentators, yes, like sport, we have commentators for wars, the experts are saying that in killing heads of state, they will be replaced, quite possibly with more radical heads of state, with the warning they will never forget what the enemy did. And yes, there might be protesters in the streets, hoping for a change in government, but we’ll shoot them.

Day four, no to the regime change and no to surrender. This war is just getting started. Reading between the lines, the Iranians saw this coming, have seen it coming for years, and have made appropriate arrangements.

And a little daunting on the side, the message sent to Israel and America, bring it on.

Day five, we are told Iran is a spent force, with no munitions, destroyed launching sites, and no leadership.

Until a barrage of missiles lands in places where no missiles were expected, leaving a few dead soldiers for someone to explain how this had happened when their infrastructure had been, so-called, blasted to bits.

And no, just because it’s war and there are always casualties, it just doesn’t cut it when you tell a mother who has lost her son that they have to expect casualties in war, when they had been told no more wars, ending existing wars, and their President is the President of Peace.

This isn’t going to win anyone a Nobel Peace Prize any time soon.

The two-day, worst-case-scenario war is now a week along, and there is no end in sight. Iran seems to have an inexhaustible supply of missiles.

That one week suddenly turns into two weeks, and the world is now panicking over the loss of oil getting through. Oil prices per barrel are rocketing, ships are not moving, insurance is withdrawn, and stock markets are tanking.

Here’s a thought. Let’s let Russia sell oil to ease the shortages. They won’t use the funds to fuel the war with Ukraine. Will they? Or supply intelligence to the Iranians. Or is China selling arms and missile defence systems?

And not forgetting their own little skirmish, it seems the initial efforts are not working, so let’s start bombing infrastructure. Not outhouses and portable toilets, let’s start taking out gas and oil fields and make it hard for them to produce anything. Like their major gas field.

Haven’t they heard of retaliation? You know when the other side goes for your stuff?

Obviously not. But who didn’t expect Iran to target the other Arab countries’ infrastructure, and now it’s getting serious.

You can see a pattern forming here. Drop bombs on us, we sent missiles and drones back, you target our gas and oil fields, we will target yours. They even stand up and tell us in plain language what they’re going to do.

Week three, we don’t want to know. Israel has bombarded and damaged a large Iranian facility. And no, I didn’t hear them surrendering, I hear them going for American and Arab states’ gas and oil fields with the same intensity.

This is a war. There are no good guys when it comes to running wars. It’s about destroying the enemy, plain and simple.

OMG.

By this time, we are beginning to realise they’re using missiles which we apparently didn’t or can’t find or destroy because they’re, well, hidden, 500 meters below ground level, and therefore can launch barrages with impunity on friendly Arab states, and it seems longer range targets.

And if they can hit long-range targets, nothing is safe, no one is safe, and you have to think that this war is becoming the mother of all disasters.

So, here we are, each side bombing and destroying part of the other’s oil and gas-producing facilities, and now the world is suffering because of it. Where will it end?

Two world wars, and we apparently haven’t learned anything.

Three weeks, and we’re on a knife-edge. It’s that time when, turning on the TV to get the latest news, we are barraged with destruction and posturing.

And, this morning, an ultimatum. We are telling them they have 48 hours to surrender or they will be totally destroyed.

What?

An ultimatum that says, basically, you’re in a no-win situation. I can literally see the Iranian leadership behind closed doors, discussing the latest threat.

Imagining that they do not have nuclear weapons at their disposal would be a mistake. We want to believe they don;t but I suspect, as so a lot of others, they do.

The question is whether they would use them.

Is anyone, on either side, asking the question?

If you shoot, they shoot, and there will be nothing left. There will be no world left for either side to claim any sort of victory. And all those who didn’t want to be involved will suffer the same fate.

Nuclear annihilation.

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So, here’s the thing.

In many different TV shows where someone is backed into a corner, and there’s no way out, the only way outcome is the worst possible eventuality.

You see the people who finally realise that it’s a no-win situation, and try to calm things down, but it’s usually one person or a group in an isolated situation. The damage, as catastrophic as it is, is confined.

When you corner someone into believing the only way out is annihilation, well, hold onto your hats because this is one in, all in.

And as is the nature of our society and its thirst for instant news, we’re going to see the end of the world in real time.

We may not die instantly like the lucky ones, no, we’ll get to die a lingering death, a day, or two, or a week. Maybe a month, but the thought of that is too horrific to contemplate.

You just have to wonder who the madman is who will authorise the first strike.

The Iranians, the Israelis or the Americans?

In the end, it doesn’t matter. They will condemn this planet to extinction.

Somewhere out there, the aliens who put us here as an experiment will be saying, yep. What a bunch of nihilistic dumbasses. Money will change hands as the bets are paid, and the universe will go about its business, happy that Elon Musk isn’t going to live on Mars, and the Chinese aren’t going to take over the moon.

And the self-immolation tendencies of the human race will not spread its disease through the universe.

Except…

Flip-flop has just flipped the 48-hour deadline to five days, and then it will be the infamous two weeks that never end.

The stock market was cratering. It needed to hear positive news, that peace is within reach.

Even if it isn’t. Maybe money with trump annihilation.

We all collectively hold our breath, knowing that inevitably the end of this world is coming, and we can blame the person who invented the atomic bomb. I was going to say that it’s the aliens’ fault because they could have come and stopped all this nonsense before it started.

I guess they tried when they landed at Area 51, but our ‘shoot first and ask questions later; basically basically sealed our fate.

So?

We have a four-day breather before everything starts over again.

Is it any wonder I do not like roller coasters?

What I learned about writing – The use and abuse of obscenities.

I’ll say it straight up: I don’t believe it’s necessary to use obscenities in most of my stories, and I don’t. They do appear in the odd story, but you can count on the fingers of one hand how many times I use these words.

Sometimes, the odd ‘f’ word or the ‘s’ word is used for dramatic effect, but there are others that I would never use. The point is that I rarely use those words in general speech myself. I don’t see the point.

But..

All around me, wherever I go, the language is terrible, and by people so young they should not, and probably don’t know the meaning of the words they are using. My grandchildren use that language as a matter of speaking and forget sometimes that we don’t like to hear it, but they are getting better. i know for a fact that my two children use it all the time, so it’s a case of what you hear all the time in the home is what you consider normal.

I’m told all the kids at school swear, so I’m guessing there’s no discipline to stamp it out. These days, teachers have no authority to do anything, so it’s only going to get worse.

So, while I don’t appreciate it and try not to go to any movies that have obscene language, which means we don’t see very many, or watch TV shows with it, I don’t use it as an excuse not to read something that I’ve been asked to critique. I have to get on board with the way the wind is blowing.

But I don’t have to like it.

And yes, as you’ve probably guessed, I’m one of those really old fuddy-duddies.

“The Things we do for Love”, the story behind the story

This story has been ongoing since I was seventeen, and just to let you know, I’m 72 this year.

Yes, it’s taken a long time to get it done.

Why, you might ask.

Well, I never gave it much interest because I started writing it after a small incident when I was 17, and working as a book packer for a book distributor in Melbourne

At the end of my first year, at Christmas, the employer had a Christmas party, and that year, it was at a venue in St Kilda.

I wasn’t going to go because at that age, I was an ordinary boy who was very introverted and basically scared of his own shadow and terrified by girls.

Back then, I would cross the street to avoid them

Also, other members of the staff in the shipping department were rough and ready types who were not backwards in telling me what happened, and being naive, perhaps they knew I’d be either shocked or intrigued.

I was both adamant I wasn’t coming and then got roped in on a dare.

Damn!

So, back then, in the early 70s, people looked the other way when it came to drinking, and of course, Dutch courage always takes away the concerns, especially when normally you wouldn’t do half the stuff you wouldn’t in a million years

I made it to the end, not as drunk and stupid as I thought I might be, and St Kilda being a salacious place if you knew where to look, my new friends decided to give me a surprise.

It didn’t take long to realise these men were ‘men about town’ as they kept saying, and we went on an odyssey. Yes, those backstreet brothels where one could, I was told, have anything they could imagine.

Let me tell you, large quantities of alcohol and imagination were a very bad mix.

So, the odyssey in ‘The things we do’ was based on that, and then the encounter with Diana. Well, let’s just say I learned a great deal about girls that night.

Firstly, not all girls are nasty and spiteful, which seemed to be the case whenever I met one. There was a way to approach, greet, talk to, and behave.

It was also true that I could have had anything I wanted, but I decided what was in my imagination could stay there. She was amused that all I wanted was to talk, but it was my money, and I could spend it how I liked.

And like any 17-year-old naive fool, I fell in love with her and had all these foolish notions. Months later, I went back, but she had moved on, to where no one was saying or knew.

Needless to say, I was heartbroken and had to get over that first loss, which, like any 17-year-old, was like the end of the world.

But it was the best hour I’d ever spent in my life and would remain so until I met the woman I have been married to for the last 48 years.

As Henry, he was in part based on a rebel, the son of rich parents who despised them and their wealth, and he used to regale anyone who would listen about how they had messed up his life

If only I’d come from such a background!

And yes, I was only a run away from climbing up the stairs to get on board a ship, acting as a purser.

I worked for a shipping company and they gave their junior staff members an opportunity to spend a year at sea working as a purser on a cargo ship that sailed between Melbourne, Sydney and Hobart in Australia.

One of the other junior staff members’ turn came, and I would visit him on board when he would tell me stories about life on board, the officers, the crew, and other events. These stories, which sounded incredible to someone so impressionable, were a delight to hear.

Alas, by that time, I had tired of office work and moved on to be a tradesman at the place where my father worked.

It proved to be the right move, as that is where I met my wife. Diana had been right; love would find me when I least expected it.

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An excerpt from “Sunday in New York”

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Williams’ Restaurant, East 65^th Street, New York, Saturday, 8:00 p.m.

We met the Blaine’s at Williams’, a rather upmarket restaurant that the Blaine’s frequently visited, and had recommended.

Of course, during the taxi ride there, Alison reminded me that with my new job, we would be able to go to many more places like Williams’. It was, at worst, more emotional blackmail, because as far as Alison was concerned, we were well on our way to posh restaurants, the Trump Tower Apartments, and the trappings of the ‘executive set’.

It would be a miracle if I didn’t strangle Elaine before the night was over. It was she who had filled Alison’s head with all this stuff and nonsense.

Aside from the half frown half-smile, Alison was looking stunning. It was months since she had last dressed up, and she was especially wearing the dress I’d bought her for our 5^th anniversary that cost a month’s salary. On her, it was worth it, and I would have paid more if I had to. She had adored it, and me, for a week or so after.

For tonight, I think I was close to getting back on that pedestal.

She had the looks and figure to draw attention, the sort movie stars got on the red carpet, and when we walked into the restaurant, I swear there were at least five seconds silence, and many more gasps.

Even I had a sudden loss of breath earlier in the evening when she came out of the dressing room. Once more I was reminded of how lucky I was that she had agreed to marry me. Amid all those self-doubts, I couldn’t believe she had loved me when there were so many others ‘out there’ who were more appealing.

Elaine was out of her seat and came over just as the Head Waiter hovered into sight. She personally escorted Alison to the table, allowing me to follow like the Queen’s consort, while she and Alison basked in the admiring glances of the other patrons.

More than once I heard the muted question, “Who is she?”

Jimmy stood, we shook hands, and then we sat together. It was not the usual boy, girl, boy, girl seating arrangement. Jimmy and I on one side and Elaine and Alison on the other.

The battle lines were drawn.

Jimmy was looking fashionable, with the permanent blade one beard, unkempt hair, and designer dinner suit that looked like he’d slept in it. Alison insisted I wear a tuxedo, and I looked like the proverbial penguin or just a thinner version of Alfred Hitchcock.

The bow tie had been slightly crooked, but just before we stepped out she had straightened it. And took the moment to look deeply into my soul. It was one of those moments when words were not necessary.

Then it was gone.

I relived it briefly as I sat and she looked at me. A penetrating look that told me to ‘behave’.

When we were settled, Elaine said, in that breathless, enthusiastic manner of hers when she was excited, “So, Harry, you are finally moving up.” It was not a question, but a statement.

I was not sure what she meant by ‘finally’ but I accepted it with good grace. Sometimes Elaine was prone to using figures of speech I didn’t understand. I guessed she was talking about the new job. “It was supposed to be a secret.”

She smiled widely. “There are no secrets between Al and I, are there Al?”

I looked at ‘Al’ and saw a brief look of consternation.

I was not sure Alison liked the idea of being called Al. I tried it once and was admonished. But it was interesting her ‘best friend forever’ was allowed that distinction when I was not. It was, perhaps, another indicator of how far I’d slipped in her estimation.

Perhaps, I thought, it was a necessary evil. As I understood it, the Blaine’s were our mentors at the Trump Tower, because they didn’t just let ‘anyone’ in. I didn’t ask if the Blaine’s thought we were just ‘anyone’ before I got the job offer.

And then there was that look between Alison and Elaine, quickly stolen before Alison realized I was looking at both of them. I was out of my depth, in a place I didn’t belong, with people I didn’t understand. And yet, apparently, Alison did. I must have missed the memo.

“No,” Alison said softly, stealing a glance in my direction, “No secrets between friends.”

No secrets. Her look conveyed something else entirely.

The waiter brought champagne, Krug, and poured glasses for each of us. It was not the cheap stuff, and I was glad I brought a couple of thousand dollars with me. We were going to need it.

Then, a toast.

To a new job and a new life.

“When did you decide?” Elaine was effusive at the best of times, but with the champagne, it was worse.

Alison had a strange expression on her face. It was obvious she had told Elaine it was a done deal, even before I’d made up my mind. Perhaps she’d assumed I might be ‘refreshingly honest’ in front of Elaine, but it could also mean she didn’t really care what I might say or do.

Instead of consternation, she looked happy, and I realized it would be churlish, even silly if I made a scene. I knew what I wanted to say. I also knew that it would serve little purpose provoking Elaine, or upsetting Alison. This was not the time or the place. Alison had been looking forward to coming here, and I was not going to spoil it.

Instead, I said, smiling, “When I woke up this morning and found Alison missing. If she had been there, I would not have noticed the water stain on the roof above our bed, and decide there and then how much I hated the place.” I used my reassuring smile, the one I used with the customers when all hell was breaking loose, and the forest fire was out of control. “It’s the little things. They all add up until one day …” I shrugged. “I guess that one day was today.”

I saw an incredulous look pass between Elaine and Alison, a non-verbal question; perhaps, is he for real? Or; I told you he’d come around.

I had no idea the two were so close.

“How quaint,” Elaine said, which just about summed up her feelings towards me. I think, at that moment, I lost some brownie points. It was all I could come up with at short notice.

“Yes,” I added, with a little more emphasis than I wanted. “Alison was off to get some study in with one of her friends.”

“Weren’t the two of you off to the Hamptons, a weekend with some friends?” Jimmy piped up, and immediately got the ‘shut up you fool’ look, that cut that line of conversation dead. Someone forgot to feed Jimmy his lines.

It was followed by the condescending smile from Elaine, and “I need to powder my nose. Care to join me, Al?”

A frown, then a forced smile for her new best friend. “Yes.”

I watched them leave the table and head in the direction of the restroom, looking like they were in earnest conversation. I thought ‘Al’ looked annoyed, but I could be wrong.

I had to say Jimmy looked more surprised than I did.

There was that odd moment of silence between us, Jimmy still smarting from his death stare, and for me, the Alison and Elaine show. I was quite literally gob-smacked.

I drained my champagne glass gathering some courage and turned to him. “By the way, we were going to have a weekend away, but this legal tutorial thing came up. You know Alison is doing her law degree.”

He looked startled when he realized I had spoken. He was looking intently at a woman several tables over from us, one who’d obviously forgotten some basic garments when getting dressed. Or perhaps it was deliberate. She’d definitely had some enhancements done.

He dragged his eyes back to me. “Yes. Elaine said something or other about it. But I thought she said the tutor was out of town and it had been postponed until next week. Perhaps I got it wrong. I usually do.”

“Perhaps I’ve got it wrong.” I shrugged, as the dark thoughts started swirling in my head again. “This week or next, what does it matter?”

Of course, it mattered to me, and I digested what he said with a sinking heart. It showed there was another problem between Alison and me; it was possible she was now telling me lies. If what he said was true and I had no reason to doubt him, where was she going tomorrow morning, and had she really been with a friend studying today?

We poured some more champagne, had a drink, then he asked, “This promotion thing, what’s it worth?”

“Trouble, I suspect. Definitely more money, but less time at home.”

“Oh,” raised eyebrows. Obviously, the women had not talked about the job in front of him, or, at least, not all the details. “You sure you want to do that?”

At last the voice of reason. “Me? No.”

“Yet you accepted the job.”

I sucked in a breath or two while I considered whether I could trust him. Even if I couldn’t, I could see my ship was sinking, so it wouldn’t matter what I told him, or what Elaine might find out from him. “Jimmy, between you and me I haven’t as yet decided one way or another. To be honest, I won’t know until I go up to Barclay’s office and he asks me the question.”

“Barclay?”

“My boss.”

“Elaine’s doing a job for a Barclay that recently moved in the tower a block down from us. I thought I recognized the name.”

“How did Elaine get the job?”

“Oh, Alison put him onto her.”

“When?”

“A couple of months ago. Why?”

I shrugged and tried to keep a straight face, while my insides were churning up like the wake of a supertanker. I felt sick, faint, and wanting to die all at the same moment. “Perhaps she said something about it, but it didn’t connect at the time. Too busy with work I expect. I think I seriously need to get away for a while.”

I could hardly breathe, my throat was constricted and I knew I had to keep it together. I could see Elaine and Alison coming back, so I had to calm down. I sucked in some deep breaths, and put my ‘manage a complete and utter disaster’ look on my face.

And I had to change the subject, quickly, so I said, “Jimmy, Elaine told Alison, who told me, you were something of a guru of the cause and effects of the global economic meltdown. Now, I have a couple of friends who have been expounding this theory …”

Like flicking a switch, I launched into the well-worn practice of ‘running a distraction’, like at work when we needed to keep the customer from discovering the truth. It was one of the things I was good at, taking over a conversation and pushing it in a different direction. It was salvaging a good result from an utter disaster, and if ever there was a time that it was required, it was right here, right now.

When Alison sat down and looked at me, she knew something had happened between Jimmy and I. I might have looked pale or red-faced, or angry or disappointed, it didn’t matter. If that didn’t seal the deal for her, the fact I took over the dining engagement did. She knew well enough the only time I did that was when everything was about to go to hell in a handbasket. She’d seen me in action before and had been suitably astonished.

But I got into gear, kept the champagne flowing and steered the conversation, as much as one could from a seasoned professional like Elaine, and, I think, in Jimmy’s eyes, he saw the battle lines and knew who took the crown on points. Neither Elaine nor Jimmy suspected anything, and if the truth be told, I had improved my stocks with Elaine. She was at times both surprised and interested, even willing to take a back seat.

Alison, on the other hand, tried poking around the edges, and, once when Elaine and Jimmy had got up to have a cigarette outside, questioned me directly. I chose to ignore her, and pretend nothing had happened, instead of telling her how much I was enjoying the evening.

She had her ‘secrets’. I had mine.

At the end of the evening, when I got up to go to the bathroom, I was physically sick from the pent up tension and the implications of what Jimmy had told me. It took a while for me to pull myself together; so long, in fact, Jimmy came looking for me. I told him I’d drunk too much champagne, and he seemed satisfied with that excuse. When I returned, both Alison and Elaine noticed how pale I was but neither made any comment.

It was a sad way to end what was supposed to be a delightful evening, which to a large degree it was for the other three. But I had achieved what I set out to do, and that was to play them at their own game, watching the deception, once I knew there was a deception, as warily as a cat watches its prey.

I had also discovered Jimmy’s real calling; a professor of economics at the same University Alison was doing her law degree. It was no surprise in the end, on a night where surprises abounded, that the world could really be that small.

We parted in the early hours of the morning, a taxi whisking us back to the Lower East Side, another taking the Blaine’s back to the Upper West Side. But, in our case, as Alison reminded me, it would not be for much longer. She showed concern for my health, asked me what was wrong. It took all the courage I could muster to tell her it was most likely something I ate and the champagne, and that I would be fine in the morning.

She could see quite plainly it was anything other than what I told her, but she didn’t pursue it. Perhaps she just didn’t care what I was playing at.

And yet, after everything that had happened, once inside our ‘palace’, the events of the evening were discarded, like her clothing, and she again reminded me of what we had together in the early years before the problems had set in.

It left me confused and lost.

I couldn’t sleep because my mind had now gone down that irreversible path that told me I was losing her, that she had found someone else, and that our marriage was in its last death throes.

And now I knew it had something to do with Barclay.

Sunday In New York