What I learned about writing – The Stall Cycle

Breaking the Stall Cycle: How to Move Forward When Editing Feels Endless

You did it. You wrote “The End.”

After months—maybe even years—of scribbling notes, drafting scenes, plotting, rewriting entire arcs, and surviving countless cups of coffee, your manuscript is finally complete. You type the last sentence, hit save, and take a deep breath. Pride swells. This is the finish line, right?

Then reality sets in.

You open the document the next day and start reading. A sentence feels clunky. A character’s motivation seems off. The pacing in Chapter 12 drags. So you rewrite. Then you reread. Then you tweak. Then you change a paragraph, hate the change, revert it, reread again, and suddenly… you’re stuck.

Welcome to the Stall Cycle.

It’s that maddening, exhausting loop every writer knows too well:

Read. Rewrite. Fix. Reread. Change. Fix again. Become unhappy with the change. Reread. Stall.

You’re not progressing. You’re not publishing. You’re not even submitting. You’re just circling the same pages like a plane that can’t land or take off—trapped in editing limbo.

So how do you break free?


Why the Stall Cycle Happens

The stall cycle doesn’t mean you’re a bad writer. In fact, it often means the opposite: you care deeply about your work. But that care can become its own trap.

Perfectionism is the engine of the stall cycle. So is fear—the fear that if it’s not perfect, it will fail. That someone might read it and say, “This isn’t good enough.” That you’ll expose yourself and fall short.

The loop gives the illusion of progress (“I’m working, I’m improving!”), but in truth, you’re not moving toward completion. You’re polishing one sentence while the rest of the book waits in silence.


How to Break the Cycle

1. Set a Hard Deadline for Revisions

Give yourself a real end date. Decide: after X number of passes or by X calendar date, the manuscript will be submission-ready. Stick to it. Use a physical calendar or digital reminder. Accountability helps.

Tip: Schedule a submission or a beta reader delivery date. Nothing motivates like an external deadline.

2. Work in Focused Passes

Instead of endlessly rereading from page one, do structured revision passes with specific goals:

  • Pass 1: Plot and structure
  • Pass 2: Character arcs and consistency
  • Pass 3: Prose, voice, and clarity
  • Pass 4: Grammar, typos, and formatting

When each pass has a purpose, you’re less likely to get distracted by tiny details early on.

3. Trust Your First Draft (a little more)

Your first draft didn’t have to be perfect—it had to exist. Likewise, your revised draft doesn’t have to be flawless. It just has to be done.

Perfection is the enemy of progress. A published imperfect book is always more powerful than a perfect unpublished one.

4. Enlist Trusted Readers

Stop being the only judge of your work. Send your manuscript to 2–3 trusted beta readers or critique partners. Their feedback will give you actionable next steps—something real to fix—rather than endless self-doubt.

Just remember: you don’t have to accept every suggestion. But their perspective breaks the echo chamber.

5. Limit How Often You Reread from the Top

You don’t need to reread the entire manuscript every time you make a change. Use bookmarks, chapter summaries, or scene trackers to check continuity without re-immersing yourself from page one.

Each full reread invites you back into the cycle. Be strategic.

6. Embrace the “Good Enough” Draft

There comes a point where further edits yield diminishing returns. That’s when “better” becomes “different,” not improved.

Ask yourself: Is this clear? Is it emotionally honest? Does it serve the story? If yes, move on.


When You’re Truly Stuck: Reset Your Relationship with the Work

Sometimes, the stall cycle is emotional, not technical.

You’re avoiding the vulnerability of sharing your work. Or you’re afraid of failure—or worse, success. Take a step back. Ask:

  • Why am I resisting finishing?
  • What am I afraid will happen if this book goes out into the world?

Journal. Talk to a fellow writer. Get honest with yourself. Healing the emotional block is often the key to breaking the cycle.


Final Thought: Done Is Better Than Perfect

The stall cycle is real. It’s powerful. But it’s not inevitable.

Great books aren’t born from endless tinkering. They’re born from courage—the courage to stop editing, to let go, and to share your story with the world.

So close the document. Take a breath. And take the next step.

Because your story is waiting—not for perfection, but for release.

You’ve got this.


Now go submit it.

Inspiration, maybe – Volume 1

50 photographs, 50 stories, of which there is one of the 50 below.

They all start with –

A picture paints … well, as many words as you like.  For instance:

lookingdownfromcoronetpeak

And the story:

It was once said that a desperate man has everything to lose.

The man I was chasing was desperate, but I, on the other hand, was more desperate to catch him.

He’d left a trail of dead people from one end of the island to the other.

The team had put in a lot of effort to locate him, and now his capture was imminent.  We were following the car he was in, from a discrete distance, and, at the appropriate time, we would catch up, pull him over, and make the arrest.

There was nowhere for him to go.

The road led to a dead-end, and the only way off the mountain was back down the road were now on.  Which was why I was somewhat surprised when we discovered where he was.

Where was he going?

“Damn,” I heard Alan mutter.  He was driving, being careful not to get too close, but not far enough away to lose sight of him.

“What?”

“I think he’s made us.”

“How?”

“Dumb bad luck, I’m guessing.  Or he expected we’d follow him up the mountain.  He’s just sped up.”

“How far away?”

“A half-mile.  We should see him higher up when we turn the next corner.”

It took an eternity to get there, and when we did, Alan was right, only he was further on than we thought.”

“Step on it.  Let’s catch him up before he gets to the top.”

Easy to say, not so easy to do.  The road was treacherous, and in places just gravel, and there were no guard rails to stop a three thousand footfall down the mountainside.

Good thing then I had the foresight to have three agents on the hill for just such a scenario.

Ten minutes later, we were in sight of the car, still moving quickly, but we were going slightly faster.  We’d catch up just short of the summit car park.

Or so we thought.

Coming quickly around another corner we almost slammed into the car we’d been chasing.

“What the hell…” Aland muttered.

I was out of the car, and over to see if he was in it, but I knew that it was only a slender possibility.  The car was empty, and no indication where he went.

Certainly not up the road.  It was relatively straightforward for the next mile, at which we would have reached the summit.  Up the mountainside from here, or down.

I looked up.  Nothing.

Alan yelled out, “He’s not going down, not that I can see, but if he did, there’s hardly a foothold and that’s a long fall.”

Then where did he go?

Then a man looking very much like our quarry came out from behind a rock embedded just a short distance up the hill.

“Sorry,” he said quite calmly.  “Had to go if you know what I mean.”

I’d lost him.

It was as simple as that.

I had been led a merry chase up the hill, and all the time he was getting away in a different direction.

I’d fallen for the oldest trick in the book, letting my desperation blind me to the disguise that anyone else would see through in an instant.

It was a lonely sight, looking down that road, knowing that I had to go all that way down again, only this time, without having to throw caution to the wind.

“Maybe next time,” Alan said.

“We’ll get him.  It’s just a matter of time.”

© Charles Heath 2019-2021

Find this and other stories in “Inspiration, maybe”  available soon.

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Top 5 sights on the road less travelled – Melbourne, Australia

Discover Melbourne’s Hidden Gems: Top 5 Tourist Attractions That Are Peaceful and Unique

Melbourne is renowned for its vibrant arts scene, bustling laneways, and iconic landmarks. However, beyond the well-trodden paths lie lesser-known attractions that offer a tranquil, culturally rich, and often underappreciated experience. If you’re seeking a slower, more intimate journey through the city’s history, art, and natural beauty, here are five top attractions that are rarely crowded but packed with distinctive charm.


1. Shrine of Remembrance: A Historic Sanctuary with Breathtaking Views

Tucked away in a serene parkland setting on the edge of the city, the Shrine of Remembrance stands as a majestic tribute to Australian service members. The neoclassical architecture is awe-inspiring, and the 360-degree views from the terrace—especially at dusk—are unforgettable. While not as flashy as Federation Square or Luna Park, the shrine attracts fewer crowds, especially outside of Anzac Day (April 25). Its quiet ambience makes it perfect for reflection, photography, or simply soaking in Melbourne’s skyline.

Why it’s unique: Open 24/7 and free to enter, it blends architectural grandeur with historical significance. The building’s underground war memorial and gardens are particularly poignant.


2. Museum of Chinese Australian History: A Window into a Rich Cultural Legacy

Step into the vibrant history of Melbourne’s Chinese community at the Museum of Chinese Australian History, housed in a former tram depot in the bustling district of Docklands. This small museum offers interactive exhibits on the contributions of Chinese Australians to the city’s development, from the 19th-century gold rush to modern multiculturalism. The building itself is a work of art, adorned with colourful mosaics and sculptural installations.

Why it’s unique: The museum’s focus on a specific cultural narrative is rare in mainstream Melbourne. Its blend of art, history, and community stories makes it a must-visit for curious travellers.


3. Burnley Park and Gardens: A Hidden Green Escape

Just minutes from the CBD in the suburb of Carlton, Burnley Park is a tranquil oasis with a mix of natural beauty and cultural flair. Home to the historic Burnley Cricket Ground and a lush landscape of gardens, it’s a favourite among locals for picnics and strolls. The park’s lesser-known status means it’s rarely bustled with tourists, offering a peaceful retreat.

Why it’s unique: The park combines recreational spaces with a quirky cricket history—the Burnley Cricket Club, established in 1852, is the oldest surviving cricket club in Victoria. Springtime brings spectacular displays of wisteria and wildflowers.


4. Royal Exhibition Building & Royal Botanic Gardens (Off-Peak Hours)

While the Royal Botanic Gardens can get busy on weekends, visiting during weekdays or early mornings ensures a quieter, more immersive experience. Adjacent to the Royal Exhibition Building, a UNESCO World Heritage Site, the area is an architectural and horticultural marvel. The building’s grand Victorian design and the gardens’ curated collections—including the iconic Coachwood Tree—make for a captivating stop.

Why it’s unique: This combination of history and natural beauty is unmatched. The building’s iconic dome and the gardens’ serene paths create a timeless atmosphere, especially enchanting during autumn.


5. Koorie Heritage Trust: A Deep Dive into Indigenous Culture

The Koorie Heritage Trust in the heart of Melbourne is a cultural powerhouse dedicated to preserving and sharing the stories of Australia’s First Nations people. Through art, artifacts, and guided workshops, visitors gain insight into Yarning (storytelling), traditional crafts, and the enduring connection to Country.

Why it’s unique: Small and intentionally quiet, the trust focuses on meaningful, educational experiences. Bookings are recommended, as spaces are limited, but this ensures a personalised and respectful visit.


Why These Spots Thrive in Quietness

These attractions stand out because they cater to niche interests and require a bit of effort to discover—a perfect fit for travellers who prefer depth over crowds. Whether you’re captivated by history, culture, or nature, Melbourne’s hidden gems offer a fresh perspective on this dynamic city.


Final Thoughts: Embrace Melbourne’s Understated Magic

Melbourne’s charm isn’t just in its famous laneways and coffee. By straying from the typical itineraries, you’ll uncover a side of the city that’s reflective, artistic, and deeply human. Whether you’re tracing your roots, enjoying a peaceful garden, or honouring a cultural past, these attractions promise a memorable trip without the hassle. Pack your curiosity—and a camera—and let Melbourne surprise you.

Pro Tip: For the most peaceful experience, visit these spots on weekdays or during the cooler months (May–August). Plus, check out event calendars for exclusive workshops or seasonal openings!

What’s your favourite hidden corner of Melbourne? Share your discoveries in the comments below!

First Dig Two Graves

A sequel to “The Devil You Don’t”

Revenge is a dish best served cold – or preferably so when everything goes right

Of course, it rarely does, as Alistair, Zoe’s handler, discovers to his peril. Enter a wildcard, John, and whatever Alistair’s plan for dealing with Zoe was dies with him.

It leaves Zoe in completely unfamiliar territory.

John’s idyllic romance with a woman who is utterly out of his comfort zone is on borrowed time. She is still trying to reconcile her ambivalence, after being so indifferent for so long.

They agree to take a break, during which she disappears. John, thinking she has left without saying goodbye, refuses to accept the inevitable, calls on an old friend for help in finding her.

After the mayhem and being briefly reunited, she recognises an inevitable truth: there is a price to pay for taking out Alistair; she must leave and find them first, and he would be wise to keep a low profile.

But keeping a low profile just isn’t possible, and enlisting another friend, a private detective and his sister, a deft computer hacker, they track her to the border between Austria and Hungary.

What John doesn’t realise is that another enemy is tracking him to find her too. It could have been a grand tour of Europe. Instead, it becomes a race against time before enemies old and new converge for what will be an inevitable showdown.

365 Days of writing, 2026 – 14

Day 14 – Having Fun with Ideas

Having Fun with Ideas: Embrace Brainstorming and Unlock Your Creative Potential

Creativity isn’t just a gift—it’s a practice. And one of the most exhilarating parts of the creative process? The moment when wild, half-formed ideas start to take shape. Whether you’re a writer, game designer, filmmaker, or just someone who loves to dream up alternate worlds, the journey often begins with a single spark: What if?

In this post, we’ll explore the art of playful brainstorming and dive into creative methods for researching fictional concepts—because fiction isn’t just made up; it’s built, layer by imaginative layer.


The Magic of Brainstorming: Where Ideas Go to Play

Brainstorming isn’t just about generating ideas—it’s about giving them space to stretch, stumble, collide, and sometimes, shine. To truly harness its power, you have to embrace the mess. Forget perfection. The goal is volume, variety, and velocity.

Here’s how to turn brainstorming into a playground:

  • Set the Stage for Fun: Clear a physical or digital space where distractions are minimal and novelty is welcome. Use colourful sticky notes, whiteboards, or digital tools like Miro or Milanote. The more playful the environment, the more freedom your brain feels to roam.
  • Ditch the Filter: In the brainstorming phase, no idea is too silly, too strange, or too far-fetched. A world where cats govern nations? A time-travelling barista? Write it down. Often, absurdity holds the seed of something brilliant.
  • Combine and Remix: Take two unrelated concepts and smash them together. What happens when Victorian etiquette meets alien diplomacy? How does a superhero cope with seasonal affective disorder? Jarring combinations often spark originality.
  • Time-Box Your Sessions: Give yourself 10–15 minutes of pure, untamed ideation. The constraint fuels creativity and stops you from overthinking.

Remember: brainstorming isn’t about finding the idea—it’s about exploring all the ideas.


Researching the Unreal: Creative Ways to Build Believable Fiction

One of the great paradoxes of fiction is that the more fantastical the concept, the more grounded it needs to feel. Even in a galaxy far, far away, audiences crave internal consistency and emotional truth. That’s where creative research comes in.

You don’t need a lab or a library card to research dragons or dystopias—you need curiosity and lateral thinking.

1. Worldwatch Like a Journalist

Imagine you’re a reporter embedded in your fictional world. Interview its inhabitants. What do they eat? What music do they listen to? What superstitions do they hold? Building a culture—no matter how alien—starts with everyday details.

2. Mine Real-World Inspiration

History, mythology, nature, and technology are treasure troves. The social dynamics of bees might inspire a hive-mind society. Ancient Egyptian burial rituals could inform a futuristic afterlife belief system. Use real-world phenomena as springboards—then twist them.

3. Create a Sensory Map

Close your eyes and imagine walking through your fictional setting. What do you hear? The hum of hover cars? The chant of temple monks? The smell of burning incense or recycled air? Engaging multiple senses adds depth and immersion, even before you write a word.

4. Reverse-Engineer the Rules

If magic exists in your world, what are its limits? If humans can upload their consciousness, who controls the servers? Establishing logical systems—even in illogical realms—makes the impossible feel plausible.

5. Prototype with Play

Turn your idea into a mini-game, comic, or storyboard. Act out scenes with friends. Use Lego to model a space station. Prototyping helps you test ideas in a low-stakes way and often reveals flaws—or hidden brilliance—you’d miss on the page.


Make It a Habit: Creativity as a Joyful Routine

The best part of working with ideas is that you don’t need permission. You don’t need a deadline or a publisher. All you need is curiosity and the courage to play.

Set aside 20 minutes a week for pure idea exploration. Keep a “What If?” journal. Host brainstorming nights with creative friends. Let your imagination romp like a puppy in a field—uninhibited and joyful.

Because at its core, creativity isn’t about output. It’s about engagement—the thrill of asking questions, following rabbit holes, and discovering worlds that only you could build.


Final Thought: Let Yourself Be Silly

Some of the most beloved fictional worlds—from The Lord of the Rings to The Matrix to Parks and Recreation—began as someone’s “crazy idea.” The key wasn’t seriousness; it was persistence and playfulness.

So go ahead—brainstorm like no one’s watching. Research like a detective who loves puzzles. And above all, have fun with your ideas. Because when imagination dances freely, magic happens.

Now, grab a notebook and ask yourself: What if…? The next great story might be hiding in your silliest thought.

What’s your favourite “What if?” moment? Share it in the comments—we’d love to play in your imaginary world, too.

An excerpt from “Strangers We’ve Become” – Coming Soon

I wandered back to my villa.

It was in darkness.  I was sure I had left several lights on, especially over the door so I could see to unlock it.

I looked up and saw the globe was broken.

Instant alert.

I went to the first hiding spot for the gun, and it wasn’t there.  I went to the backup and it wasn’t there either.  Someone had found my carefully hidden stash of weapons and removed them.

Who?

There were four hiding spots and all were empty.  Someone had removed the weapons.  That could only mean one possibility.

I had a visitor, not necessarily here for a social call.

But, of course, being the well-trained agent I’d once been and not one to be caught unawares, I crossed over to my neighbor and relieved him of a weapon that, if found, would require a lot of explaining.

Suitably armed, it was time to return the surprise.

There were three entrances to the villa, the front door, the back door, and a rather strange escape hatch.  One of the more interesting attractions of the villa I’d rented was its heritage.  It was built in the late 1700s, by a man who was, by all accounts, a thief.  It had a hidden underground room which had been in the past a vault but was now a wine cellar, and it had an escape hatch by which the man could come and go undetected, particularly if there was a mob outside the door baying for his blood.

It now gave me the means to enter the villa without my visitors being alerted, unless, of course, they were near the vicinity of the doorway inside the villa, but that possibility was unlikely.  It was not where anyone could anticipate or expect a doorway to be.

The secret entrance was at the rear of the villa behind a large copse, two camouflaged wooden doors built into the ground.  I move aside some of the branches that covered them and lifted one side.  After I’d discovered the doors and rusty hinges, I’d oiled and cleaned them, and cleared the passageway of cobwebs and fallen rocks.  It had a mildew smell, but nothing would get rid of that.  I’d left torches at either end so I could see.

I closed the door after me, and went quietly down the steps, enveloped in darkness till I switched on the torch.  I traversed the short passage which turned ninety degrees about halfway to the door at the other end.  I carried the key to this door on the keyring, found it and opened the door.  It too had been oiled and swung open soundlessly.

I stepped in the darkness and closed the door.

I was on the lower level under the kitchen, now the wine cellar, the ‘door’ doubling as a set of shelves which had very little on them, less to fall and alert anyone in the villa.

Silence, an eerie silence.

I took the steps up to the kitchen, stopping when my head was level with the floor, checking to see if anyone was waiting.  There wasn’t.  It seemed to me to be an unlikely spot for an ambush.

I’d already considered the possibility of someone coming after me, especially because it had been Bespalov I’d killed, and I was sure he had friends, all equally as mad as he was.  Equally, I’d also considered it nigh on impossible for anyone to find out it was me who killed him because the only people who knew that were Prendergast, Alisha, a few others in the Department, and Susan.

That raised the question of who told them where I was.

If I was the man I used to be, my first suspect would be Susan.  The departure this morning, and now this was too coincidental.  But I was not that man.

Or was I?

I reached the start of the passageway that led from the kitchen to the front door and peered into the semi-darkness.  My eyes had got used to the dark, and it was no longer an inky void.  Fragments of light leaked in around the door from outside and through the edge of the window curtains where they didn’t fit properly.  A bone of contention upstairs in the morning, when first light shone and invariably woke me up hours before I wanted to.

Still nothing.

I took a moment to consider how I would approach the visitor’s job.  I would get a plan of the villa in my head, all entrances, where a target could be led to or attacked where there would be no escape.

Coming in the front door.  If I was not expecting anything, I’d just open the door and walk-in.  One shot would be all that was required.

Contract complete.

I sidled quietly up the passage staying close to the wall, edging closer to the front door.  There was an alcove where the shooter could be waiting.  It was an ideal spot to wait.

Crunch.

I stepped on some nutshells.

Not my nutshells.

I felt it before I heard it.  The bullet with my name on it.

And how the shooter missed, from point-blank range, and hit me in the arm, I had no idea.  I fired off two shots before a second shot from the shooter went wide and hit the door with a loud thwack.

I saw a red dot wavering as it honed in on me and I fell to the floor, stretching out, looking up where the origin of the light was coming and pulled the trigger three times, evenly spaced, and a second later I heard the sound of a body falling down the stairs and stopping at the bottom, not very far from me.

Two assassins.

I’d not expected that.

The assassin by the door was dead, a lucky shot on my part.  The second was still breathing.

I checked the body for any weapons and found a second gun and two knives.  Armed to the teeth!

I pulled off the balaclava; a man, early thirties, definitely Italian.  I was expecting a Russian.

I slapped his face, waking him up.  Blood was leaking from several slashes on his face when his head had hit the stairs on the way down.  The awkward angle of his arms and legs told me there were broken bones, probably a lot worse internally.  He was not long for this earth.

“Who employed you?”

He looked at me with dead eyes, a pursed mouth, perhaps a smile.  “Not today my friend.  You have made a very bad enemy.”  He coughed and blood poured out of his mouth.  “There will be more …”

Friends of Bespalov, no doubt.

I would have to leave.  Two unexplainable bodies, I’d have a hard time explaining my way out of this mess.  I dragged the two bodies into the lounge, clearing the passageway just in case someone had heard anything.

Just in case anyone was outside at the time, I sat in the dark, at the foot of the stairs, and tried to breathe normally.  I was trying not to connect dots that led back to Susan, but the coincidence was worrying me.

A half-hour passed and I hadn’t moved.  Deep in thought, I’d forgotten about being shot, unaware that blood was running down my arm and dripping onto the floor.

Until I heard a knock on my front door.

Two thoughts, it was either the police, alerted by the neighbors, or it was the second wave, though why would they be knocking on the door?

I stood, and immediately felt a stabbing pain in my arm.  I took out a handkerchief and turned it into a makeshift tourniquet, then wrapped a kitchen towel around the wound.

If it was the police, this was going to be a difficult situation.  Holding the gun behind my back, I opened the door a fraction and looked out.

No police, just Maria.  I hoped she was not part of the next ‘wave’.

“You left your phone behind on the table.  I thought you might be looking for it.”  She held it out in front of her.

When I didn’t open the door any further, she looked at me quizzically, and then asked, “Is anything wrong?”

I was going to thank her for returning the phone, but I heard her breathe in sharply, and add, breathlessly, “You’re bleeding.”

I looked at my arm and realized it was visible through the door, and not only that, the towel was soaked in blood.

“You need to go away now.”

Should I tell her the truth?  It was probably too late, and if she was any sort of law-abiding citizen she would go straight to the police.

She showed no signs of leaving, just an unnerving curiosity.  “What happened?”

I ran through several explanations, but none seemed plausible.  I went with the truth.  “My past caught up with me.”

“You need someone to fix that before you pass out from blood loss.  It doesn’t look good.”

“I can fix it.  You need to leave.  It is not safe to be here with me.”

The pain in my arm was not getting any better, and the blood was starting to run down my arm again as the tourniquet loosened.  She was right, I needed it fixed sooner rather than later.

I opened the door and let her in.  It was a mistake, a huge mistake, and I would have to deal with the consequences.  Once inside, she turned on the light and saw the pool of blood just inside the door and the trail leading to the lounge.  She followed the trail and turned into the lounge, turned on the light, and no doubt saw the two dead men.

I expected her to scream.  She didn’t.

She gave me a good hard look, perhaps trying to see if I was dangerous.  Killing people wasn’t something you looked the other way about.  She would have to go to the police.

“What happened here?”

“I came home from the cafe and two men were waiting for me.  I used to work for the Government, but no longer.  I suspect these men were here to repay a debt.  I was lucky.”

“Not so much, looking at your arm.”

She came closer and inspected it.

“Sit down.”

She found another towel and wrapped it around the wound, retightening the tourniquet to stem the bleeding.

“Do you have medical supplies?”

I nodded.  “Upstairs.”  I had a medical kit, and on the road, I usually made my own running repairs.  Another old habit I hadn’t quite shaken off yet.

She went upstairs, rummaged, and then came back.  I wondered briefly what she would think of the unmade bed though I was not sure why it might interest her.

She helped me remove my shirt, and then cleaned the wound.  Fortunately, she didn’t have to remove a bullet.  It was a clean wound but it would require stitches.

When she’d finished she said, “Your friend said one day this might happen.”

No prizes for guessing who that friend was, and it didn’t please me that she had involved Maria.

“Alisha?”

“She didn’t tell me her name, but I think she cares a lot about you.  She said trouble has a way of finding you, gave me a phone and said to call her if something like this happened.”

“That was wrong of her to do that.”

“Perhaps, perhaps not.  Will you call her?”

“Yes.  I can’t stay here now.  You should go now.  Hopefully, by the time I leave in the morning, no one will ever know what happened here, especially you.”

She smiled.  “As you say, I was never here.”

© Charles Heath 2018-2022

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In a word: Nobody

This is sometimes how we must feel when overlooked or ignored, like a nobody.

And some people will treat you like a nobody, i.e. someone who is just not important.

That’s just one use of the word.

Another might be…

Who did that to your room?

‘Nobody’ is the plaintiff’s reply.  The infamous Mr Nobody.  We’ve never met him, but he’s always there.  And, what’s more, he seems to be able to be in more than one place at a time.

Then there’s that time when there’s nobody in the room, nobody agreed with me, hell, that happens all the time, and when I rang your phone nobody answered.

Nobody?  Was I expecting Mr Nobody to answer?  Surely the response should have been, ‘and you didn’t answer’.

Of course, let’s not delve too deep here, lest we might find out something we didn’t want to know.

I went to your house last night, but nobody was home.

How is it we refer to the people whom we know live in that house as ‘nobody’.  Shouldn’t we be saying, ‘none of you was at home’?

It seems nobody is one of those words we often use in vain.

Another excerpt from ‘Betrayal’; a work in progress

My next destination in the quest was the hotel we believed Anne Merriweather had stayed at.

I was, in a sense, flying blind because we had no concrete evidence she had been there, and the message she had left behind didn’t quite name the hotel or where Vladimir was going to take her.

Mindful of the fact that someone might have been following me, I checked to see if the person I’d assumed had followed me to Elizabeth’s apartment was still in place, but I couldn’t see him. Next, I made a mental note of seven different candidates and committed them to memory.

Then I set off to the hotel, hailing a taxi. There was the possibility the cab driver was one of them, but perhaps I was slightly more paranoid than I should be. I’d been watching the queue, and there were two others before me.

The journey took about an hour, during which time I kept an eye out the back to see if anyone had been following us. If anyone was, I couldn’t see them.

I had the cab drop me off a block from the hotel and then spent the next hour doing a complete circuit of the block the hotel was on, checking the front and rear entrances, the cameras in place, and the siting of the driveway into the underground carpark. There was a camera over the entrance, and one we hadn’t checked for footage. I sent a text message to Fritz to look into it.

The hotel lobby was large and busy, which was exactly what you’d want if you wanted to come and go without standing out. It would be different later at night, but I could see her arriving about mid-afternoon, and anonymous among the type of clientele the hotel attracted.

I spent an hour sitting in various positions in the lobby simply observing. I had already ascertained where the elevator lobby for the rooms was, and the elevator down to the car park. Fortunately, it was not ‘guarded’ but there was a steady stream of concierge staff coming and going to the lower levels, and, just from time to time, guests.

Then, when there was a commotion at the front door, what seemed to be a collision of guests and free-wheeling bags, I saw one of the seven potential taggers sitting by the front door. Waiting for me to leave? Or were they wondering why I was spending so much time there?

Taking advantage of that confusion, I picked my moment to head for the elevators that went down to the car park, pressed the down button, and waited.

The was no car on the ground level, so I had to wait, watching, like several others, the guests untangling themselves at the entrance, and an eye on my potential surveillance, still absorbed in the confusion.

The doors to the left car opened, and a concierge stepped out, gave me a quick look, then headed back to his desk. I stepped into the car, pressed the first level down, the level I expected cars to arrive on, and waited what seemed like a long time for the doors to close.

As they did, I was expecting to see a hand poke through the gap, a latecomer. Nothing happened, and I put it down to a television moment.

There were three basement levels, and for a moment, I let my imagination run wild and considered the possibility that there were more levels. Of course, there was no indication on the control panel that there were any other floors, and I’d yet to see anything like it in reality.

With a shake of my head to return to reality, the car arrived, the doors opened, and I stepped out.

A car pulled up, and the driver stepped out, went around to the rear of his car, and pulled out a case. I half expected him to throw me the keys, but the instant glance he gave me told him was not the concierge, and instead brushed past me like I wasn’t there.

He bashed the up button several times impatiently and cursed when the doors didn’t open immediately. Not a happy man.

Another car drove past on its way down to a lower level.

I looked up and saw the CCTV camera, pointing towards the entrance, visible in the distance. A gate that lifted up was just about back in position and then made a clunk when it finally closed. The footage from the camera would not prove much, even if it had been working, because it didn’t cover the life lobby, only in the direction of the car entrance.

The doors to the other elevator car opened, and a man in a suit stepped out.

“Can I help you, sir? You seem lost.”

Security, or something else. “It seems that way. I went to the elevator lobby, got in, and it went down rather than up. I must have been in the wrong place.”

“Lost it is, then, sir.” I could hear the contempt for Americans in his tone. “If you will accompany me, please.”

He put out a hand ready to guide me back into the elevator. I was only too happy to oblige him. There had been a sign near the button panel that said the basement levels were only to be accessed by the guests.

Once inside, he turned a key and pressed the lobby button. The doors closed, and we went up. He stood, facing the door, not speaking. A few seconds later, he was ushering me out to the lobby.

“Now, sir, if you are a guest…”

“Actually, I’m looking for one. She called me and said she would be staying in this hotel and to come down and visit her. I was trying to get to the sixth floor.”

“Good. Let’s go over the the desk and see what we can do for you.”

I followed him over to the reception desk, where he signalled one of the clerks, a young woman who looked and acted very efficiently, and told her of my request, but then remained to oversee the proceeding.

“Name of guest, sir?”

“Merriweather, Anne. I’m her brother, Alexander.” I reached into my coat pocket and pulled out my passport to prove that I was who I said I was. She glanced cursorily at it.

She typed the name into the computer, and then we waited a few seconds while it considered what to output. Then, she said, “That lady is not in the hotel, sir.”

Time to put on my best-confused look. “But she said she would be staying here for the week. I made a special trip to come here to see her.”

Another puzzled look from the clerk, then, “When did she call you?”

An interesting question to ask, and it set off a warning bell in my head. I couldn’t say today, it would have to be the day she was supposedly taken.

“Last Saturday, about four in the afternoon.”

Another look at the screen, then, “It appears she checked out Sunday morning. I’m afraid you have made a trip in vain.”

Indeed, I had. “Was she staying with anyone?”

I just managed to see the warning pass from the suited man to the clerk. I thought he had shown an interest when I mentioned the name, and now I had confirmation. He knew something about her disappearance. The trouble was, he wasn’t going to volunteer any information because he was more than just hotel security.

“No.”

“Odd,” I muttered. “I thought she told me she was staying with a man named Vladimir something or other. I’m not too good at pronouncing those Russian names. Are you sure?”

She didn’t look back at the screen. “Yes.”

“OK, now one thing I do know about staying in hotels is that you are required to ask guests with foreign passports their next destination, just in case they need to be found. Did she say where she was going next?” It was a long shot, but I thought I’d ask.

“Moscow. As I understand it, she lives in Moscow. That was the only address she gave us.”

I smiled. “Thank you. I know where that is. I probably should have gone there first.”

She didn’t answer; she didn’t have to, her expression did that perfectly.

The suited man spoke again, looking at the clerk. “Thank you.” He swivelled back to me. “I’m sorry we can’t help you.”

“No. You have more than you can know.”

“What was your name again, sir, just in case you still cannot find her?”

“Alexander Merriweather. Her brother. And if she is still missing, I will be posting a very large reward. At the moment, you can best contact me via the American Embassy.”

Money is always a great motivator, and that thoughtful expression on his face suggested he gave a moment’s thought to it.

I left him with that offer and left. If anything, the people who were holding her would know she had a brother, that her brother was looking for her, and equally that brother had money.

© Charles Heath – 2018-2025

The cinema of my dreams – I always wanted to write a war story – Episode 36

For a story that was conceived during those long boring hours flying in a steel cocoon, striving to keep away the thoughts that the plane and everyone in it could just simply disappear as planes have in the past, it has come a long way.

Whilst I have always had a fascination with what happened during the second world war, not the battles or fighting, but in the more obscure events that took place, I decided to pen my own little sidebar to what was a long and bitter war.

And, so, it continues…

Jackerby came back and sat down.  It was clear he was annoyed his lunch was interrupted.

“Atherton’s not among those Leonardo brought back.”

Johannsen silently breathed a sigh of relief.  While he was still outside there was hope he would not get hurt.  If he had the sense to keep his head down.  Anyone else, Johannesen would not have cared.

“Who did Leonardo bring in?”

“Some woman called Martina, the one he says is in charge of the resistance.  He said he raided their last stronghold, killed everyone except the three people he knew were in the resistance.  They’re now in the dungeons.”

“We should be down there asking questions.”  A pointed glare from Wallace carried the message, what are you doing here?

“No use.  He nearly killed them, and it’ll take a while for them to recover.”

“To find out where Atherton is?”

“It seems that was the least of his concerns.  Apparently, she apparently humiliated him so he was more interested in payback.”

“It wouldn’t be hard to humiliate a fool like him,” Johannsen muttered.

Wallace glared at him.  “You should have more faith in our Italian friends, Richard.”

“My faith in him extends only to the fact he will drink the cellar dry.”

Wallace shrugged.  “Once he’s served his purpose…” and left it at that.  “Have you got onto London and asked them for further information on Mayer?”

“I think, by now, they would have tumbled to what’s going on here.  Especially after I saw Atherton come out of the radio room just before Jackerby arrived.  I asked the operator, and he gave me a coded message, but it’s not like any code I’ve seen.”

“And you’re telling me this now?”

“At least he didn’t smash it, which is what I would have done.  We haven’t heard any more from High Command other than to say the traitor was thought to be heading for Innsbruck and coming over the mountains near the Brenner Pass.  They’ve got people looking, but nothing as yet.”

“Now we’ve lost Carmichael, do we have a description of him?”

“Yes.”

“Good.  At least something is happening.”


After lunch, Johannsson went down to the dungeon to check on the prisoners.  Wallace had assigned their ‘welfare’ to him.  It was a difficult assignment seeing they arrived both exhausted, weak, and then subjected to an initial interrogation that determined whether or not they got medicines or food.

Most were left to starve.  Any women were sent to the soldier’s barracks, where they were out of his control.  None had ever come back, and he was ordered not to go check on them.

All told, there were 12 still in cells, with three due to be executed later that day.  All had worked in an armaments factory and had admitted to having information about the bombs that were being dropped over England.

Another six had yet to say what information they had, and had been subjected to severe torture, the handiwork of two of Jackerby’s men, and who Johannsen thought had been trained by the Gestapo.  In fact, he believed they were Gestapo, and that Jackerby, though he didn’t have the uniform, was a ranking SS officer.

Not a man to cross.  Leonardo would find that out soon enough.

The most recent three, the resistance fighters were put in separate cells next to each other.  The guards had been told to listen to any conversations they had, and report.  As yet, none of them had spoken.

Considering the condition they arrived in, that was no surprise.

He stood outside the cell holding the woman they called Martina.

The leader.

She hadn’t moved from the moment she had been dropped there.

A guard appeared beside him.

“Nothing yet?” Johansson asked him.

“I doubt they’ll speak again.  If that’s what Leonardo does to his so-called countrymen; I’d hate to see what he does to his enemies.”

“You let me know if she says anything.”

The soldier nodded, then went back to his station.

The other two were men, one old, one younger.  An odd group to be part of the resistance.  The woman he could understand and was the key. 

He now believed Atherton would come to rescue her.  Like any good British soldier, his empathy would be his downfall.

© Charles Heath 2020-2023

A long short story that can’t be tamed – I always wanted to rescue a damsel in distress – 9

Nine

If I had deliberately wanted to flush out the people following us, and eventually lose them, I would never have thought of renting a car at a suburban shop.  I had to wonder what James Bond would have done in similar circumstances.

But it worked.

Driving out of the carpark onto the main street, it wasn’t difficult to see several people caught unawares.  And on their cell phones making calls.

And it was Emily’s last-minute brainwave to cover the car’s registration plates so if they were to take a photo, they would not be able to track it.  Well, not straight away.  It was she who said London had a lot of CCTV cameras, but on the way to the carpark, she had checked out where they were, those that she could readily identify, and we could avoid.

Something I learned about Emily that I didn’t know; she was a computer nerd, and a hacker of sorts, not one of those dark web experts, but she knew enough to dig around in places most people wouldn’t go looking.

That skill might just come in useful.

And, for a few minutes, maybe an hour, we revelled in the thought we may have outwitted them, whoever ‘them’ was.

It was late afternoon when we finally found a hotel with a carpark, a long way from Cecile’s flat in Earl’s Court, and on the other side of the Greater London region in Mile End Road, not very far from the Stepney Green underground station, the result of Emily searching the web for a hotel with a carpark, and near public transport.

She also had our luggage delivered from the airport a little less than two hours from the moment she made the call.  I think I may have remarked that I might just employ her as my travel agent when I started my European odyssey, but she had fallen asleep, way past exhausted.

I wasn’t far behind her.  We had a long day tomorrow, if today was anything to go by.

I woke to the smell of coffee and that more interesting aroma of burnt toast.

There were shopping bags on the table, and it looked as though Emily had been up and around for a while.

I looked at my watch, it was not much past seven, and not an hour I found myself up back home.  I had an apartment in the city, and it was a ten-minute walk to the office, so early rising was not a necessity.  My parents lived in the suburbs, and more than an hour by public transport, and two by car.  It was the reason I moved.  I didn’t want to spend quarter of my life travelling to and from work.

Of course, London was so much larger than where I came from, and definitely not a place I would want to live, or work, despite the advantages that Cecile had tried to impress upon me.  And don’t get me get started on driving around London.  Yesterday had been harrowing, and left me, at times, shaken.

“Good morning, sleepyhead.”

Emily put a coffee plunger on the table, two cups, a plate of toast, bowls, and the cereal that was my favourite, though how she knew was anyone’s guess.

“You’ve been busy.”

“I like to get some exercise every morning, so I combined it with a shopping expedition

I had not attended this type of domesticity in a long time, at least not since I left home.  I had grown accustomed to being on my own, and that might have contributed to Cecile and I drifting apart.  It probably also had a lot to do with my awkwardness with girls, and rather than try to get over it, I just avoided them.

But, somehow, Emily was different, perhaps because she was younger and hadn’t been blunted by the vicissitudes of life.  She had finished school, and as far as I was aware, didn’t have a real job, preferring to spend her time pottering in her father’s office.

I had thought, much like in an 18th century romance novel, she was waiting for the right man to marry, but there were not too many of those running around these days.

Something else I just realised; how well I seemed to like being at ease in her company, much more so than when I was with Cecile, always on my guard not to say or do the wrong thing.

“I find going to a grocery store a trial, which is why I eat out a lot.”

She shook her head.  “You’re just lazy, like everyone else your age.  Convenience over practicality.  And you should think about doing some exercise.”

I could feel the eyes of the appraiser upon me and shivered.  It was good that I could not read her thoughts, but if I could, perhaps some might be considering those extra pounds that had found their way onto my frame after I stopped playing tennis and squash.

“I promise I’ll think about it.”

“Better still, I don’t think it’s all that safe to be jogging the streets in this neighbourhood early in the morning, so you can come with me as my protector.”

She saw my look of disdain, or was it the thought of having to exercise.

“Cheer up, I don’t go very fast.”

The sound of the phone vibrating on the table interrupted that thought, and conversation.

It was a private number, so I assumed it was the man from the day before.

“Yes?”

“Trafalgar Square, by the column, 12:30 pm today.”

It was the man’s voice.

“We’ll see you there.”

The call was disconnected.  Short and to the point.

“We have a lunch date.”

Before I could reach out to pick up my cup of coffee, the phone rang again.

Also a private number, I assumed it was the man ringing back with a change of plans.

“Yes?”

“We need to talk.”

A woman’s voice this time, not one that was familiar.

“About what?”  I was surprised, and didn’t have time to work on a better comeback.

“Your Cecile.  She is over her head.”

Aside from stating the obvious, who was this woman, how did she know about Cecile, and more important, how did she know my cell number?

“Who the hell are you?”

“The London end of the team that recruited her.  Time is of the essence, so we’ll come to you.  We’ll be there in half an hour.”

That line went dead before I could ask another pertinent question, how did she know where we were?

“Who was that?”  Emily had been oblivious to the turmoil I was feeling.

“Someone else who wants to talk about Cecile.”

“Who?”

“No idea, but the word reruited popped up, whatever that might mean.”

“Here?  No one knows we’re here.”

“Exactly.”

“Perhaps we should leave, like, right now.”

“No.  I have a feeling that we might find out what Cecile is up to.”

And, in the back of my mind, several small, associated details clicked into place.  At the time they didn’t make any sense, but now, in a bigger context, and given the circumstances, I think I knew now why she had come.

And, more importantly, I realised she had been dropping breadcrumbs for me to follow long before she had left.

©  Charles Heath 2024